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And didn't allready know this. And obliviously can't speak for everyone, but tested Xanax lorazepam today. And per now, it basically removed I would say up the 70-80 % of the SI. . So for those that are serious about Ctb. But struggle wil si like myself. Then lorazepam after testing it. Could possibly be powerful reducer. 👍🥰
 
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yeah, when i od'd on xans it was a literal dream. too bad i don't have any way of getting it anymore :// you're a lucky ducky Moody.
 
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yeah, when i od'd on xans it was a literal dream. too bad i don't have any way of getting it anymore :// you're a lucky ducky Moody.
But hey, I was very sceptical. To ordering from the dw. But researching and reading. Reviews. I got lucky to fiend a vendor that was legit. So it's only about doing a good research I guess and looking at the vendors with trustworthy reviews. Best of luck to you sweets ❤️
Are you still waiting for SN or are you not wanting to CTB just yet?
I am ready as fuck. But everything has been dragging, since my vendors was late to deliver because of Christmas. And it's s bit planning and coordination since i need to travel to get a hold of the sn.
 
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But hey, I was very sceptical. To ordering from the dw. But researching and reading. Reviews. I got lucky to fiend a vendor that was legit. So it's only about doing a good research I guess and looking at the vendors with trustworthy reviews. Best of luck to you sweets ❤️

I am ready aa fuck. But everything has been dragging, since my vendors was late to deliver because of Christmas. And it's s bit planning and coordination since i have to travel to get a hold of the sn.
:o the dw??? woahhhh, cool. unfortunately i'm way too stupid/technologically inept to access it in a safe way😭

& thx for the good luck!! :) good luck to u too. i hope ur SN gets to u soon<3
 
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:o the dw??? woahhhh, cool. unfortunately i'm way too stupid/technologically inept to access it in a safe way😭

& thx for the good luck!! :) good luck to u too. i hope ur SN gets to u soon<3
Yess😊 dark web. You can do it! It's only a bit hassel the first time. Download Tor. Search up Tor. Taxi. Use a VPN (for extra security) pay with Monero (xmr) which you can buy at kraken bitcoin etc. This will give you access to just pick your choice of whatever you prefer. But reading reviwes beforhand would be very important. You don't want to get scammed. ❤️What country are you inn btw? Thank you so very much ❤️❤️
 
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Just please be careful and go steady with benzos 🙏
Hit tolerance and go into BIND and get akathisia you will be wishing to ctb immediately in whatever way you can.
 
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Just please be careful and go steady with benzos 🙏
Hit tolerance and go into BIND and get akathisia you will be wishing to ctb immediately in whatever way you can.
Thank you sweets. ❤️ I don't do benzoes. This was only for testing. For when the time comes. But thank you for your concerns and tips 🥰

But can I ask, what is bind and akathisis, if I may ask? 😊
 
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Yess😊 dark web. You can do it! It's only a bit hassel the first time. Download Tor. Search up Tor. Taxi. Use a VPN (for extra security) pay with Monero (xmr) which you can buy at kraken bitcoin etc. This will give you access to just pick your choice of whatever you prefer. But reading reviwes beforhand would be very important. You don't want to get scammed. ❤️What country are you inn btw? Thank you so very much ❤️❤️
oh wow, u really know ur stuff!! thx for typing that out for me :') maybe i can gather the bravery to give it a try.

& i'm in the US!!😁
 
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Thank you sweets. ❤️ I don't do benzoes. This was only for testing. For when the time comes. But thank you for your concerns and tips 🥰

But can I ask, what is bind and akathisis, if I may ask? 😊
I understand you…when I get SN I will use benzos too prior. But only then.
Being harmed by medication I've seen so many in the benzo withdrawal community not make it out the other side :(
BIND is Benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction
Akathisa-you cannot remain still. The agitation and extreme inner restlessness makes sufferers want to get out of their own skin and end it.
Usually accompanied by (but not always) severe insomnia, racing SI/HI thoughts, sheer terror, violent images, DP/DR, feeling like your insane. Can go on for years
 
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Just please be careful and go steady with benzos 🙏
Hit tolerance and go into BIND and get akathisia you will be wishing to ctb immediately in whatever way you can.
Thank you sweets. ❤️ I don't do benzoes. This was only for testing. For when the time comes. But thank you for your concerns and tips 🥰

But can I ask, what is bind and akathisis, if I may ask?
oh wow, u really know ur stuff!! thx for typing that out for me :') maybe i can gather the bravery to give it a try.

& i'm in the US!!😁
Absolutely do it. I live in Europe, and we have only a few vendors. But I saw that in the us, it's a majority to pick from! Of course! Happy to help. 😊
 
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SI = Survival Instinct or Suicidal Ideation?
 
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SI = Survival Instinct or Suicidal Ideation?
Survival instinct.
I understand you…when I get SN I will use benzos too prior. But only then.
Being harmed by medication I've seen so many in the benzo withdrawal community not make it out the other side :(
BIND is Benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction
Akathisa-you cannot remain still. The agitation and extreme inner restlessness makes sufferers want to get out of their own skin and end it.
Usually accompanied by (but not always) severe insomnia, racing SI/HI thoughts, sheer terror, violent images, DP/DR, feeling like your insane. Can go on for years
Oh absolutely, I so agree, using this shit as a long term solution. BIG no no. It's not a drug to fix your life or problems. But in the case of ctb. I would have to say that it can be pretty beneficial. Maybe not for everyone.
But like with every substance. I think we just to follow the protocol in the best way, and to use our brains. 🧠
 
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And didn't allready know this. And obliviously can't speak for everyone, but tested Xanax lorazepam today. And per now, it basically removed I would say up the 70-80 % of the SI. . So for those that are serious about Ctb. But struggle wil si like myself. Then lorazepam after testing it. Could possibly be powerful reducer. 👍🥰
Would you recommend, from your experience, taking Xanax or Lorazepam to tame SI? I don't think it is wise to take 2 benzos at the same time yet I may be wrong. I already have some xanax which I have never taken but i may be able to get a prescription for lorazepam if it makes a significant difference.
 
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Would you recommend, from your experience, taking Xanax or Lorazepam to tame SI? I don't think it is wise to take 2 benzos at the the same time yet I may be wrong. I have some xanax which I have never taken but i may be able to get a prescription for lorazepam if it makes a significant difference
Xanax and lorazepam are the same, the only difference is some are 1mg and some more.

Idk, maybe your right. But I think it really just depends on a person's tolerance level. But after reading sn threads. It's seems like people take everything from 2 to etc mg.

But I think that if your tolerance level is low, it's probably wise to not take to many mg when attempting. In case you pass out, vomit. And are not awake to take another glas. In a worst case scenario. But if your able to get it prescribed then nothing better than that. 💚
 
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Yess😊 dark web. You can do it! It's only a bit hassel the first time. Download Tor. Search up Tor. Taxi. Use a VPN (for extra security) pay with Monero (xmr) which you can buy at kraken bitcoin etc. This will give you access to just pick your choice of whatever you prefer. But reading reviwes beforhand would be very important. You don't want to get scammed. ❤️What country are you inn btw? Thank you so very much ❤️❤️
Why not just order from companies that are still shipping from Poland? Also with dark web you have to be careful about not leaking your identity, honeypots or just straight up scams. Reviews on those sites can always be spoofed as well.
 
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Why not just order from companies that are still shipping from Poland? Also with dark web you have to be careful about not leaking your identity, honeypots or just straight up scams. Reviews on those sites can always be spoofed as well.
I thought about it, but shipping dark web stuff and get it trough customs in the country where live. Is almost impossible. Since we have very strickt boarder customs.
 
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What do you think is better?
To take Xanax slowly and gradually throughout the day of ctb or take one large dose hour or two before the act of ctb?
I don't have any spare pills to test it out
 
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What do you think is better?
To take Xanax slowly and gradually throughout the day of ctb or take one large dose hour or two before the act of ctb?
I don't have any spare pills to test it out
Hmm. Well what can I say. I don't really feel like there is an absolute right or wrong answer to it. But if your feeling extremely anxious all day of your cbt, then taking some gradually throughout the day can be beneficial , but not so much as you pass out, and then maybe punch it up a bit closer to attempting. But this is soo individual i feel like after reading a bit on the different threads.
 
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You can do it! It's only a bit hassel the first time. Download Tor. Search up Tor. Taxi. Use a VPN (for extra security) pay with Monero (xmr) which you can buy at kraken bitcoin etc.
But where do people find the onion links? You can google with Tor. There are a few wikis, but they seem tiny?
 
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What you can do, is when you enter tor. A search function named Duck Togo will show up. In there you enter tor.taxi. many options will show up. But choose the one that says: tor taxi-your ride to the darknet. From there you will see different options to the dn market. And then it's just to pick your choice. You will see the onion links in the market places. When you click on the different market forums, you will be asked to register, passwords function and etc. But once you got that in order. It's all done. But also remember to download Kleopatra. This is to communicate / send text by encrypting and decrypting messages. You tube also shares easy videos step by step. On how you can do this. 💙
 
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Xanax and lorazepam are the same, the only difference is some are 1mg and some more.

Just FYI, Xanax and lorazepam are both benzodiazepines and thus similar, but they're actually not the same. Xanax is the brand name for alprazolam. Lorazepam is the generic name for Ativan. But like I said, since they're both benzos, they'll probably have a pretty similar effect on most people.

Why not just order from companies that are still shipping from Poland? Also with dark web you have to be careful about not leaking your identity, honeypots or just straight up scams. Reviews on those sites can always be spoofed as well.

There are companies in Poland that can be found on the open net and ship benzos?
 
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Just FYI, Xanax and lorazepam are both benzodiazepines and thus similar, but they're actually not the same. Xanax is the brand name for alprazolam. Lorazepam is the generic name for Ativan. But like I said, since they're both benzos, they'll probably have a pretty similar effect on most people.

Just FYI, Xanax and lorazepam are both benzodiazepines and thus similar, but they're actually not the same. Xanax is the brand name for alprazolam. Lorazepam is the generic name for Ativan. But like I said, since they're both benzos, they'll probably have a pretty similar effect on most people.



There are companies in Poland that can be found on the open net and ship benzos?
Sorry wrong answer, thought I read d.n
 
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And didn't allready know this. And obliviously can't speak for everyone, but tested Xanax lorazepam today. And per now, it basically removed I would say up the 70-80 % of the SI. . So for those that are serious about Ctb. But struggle wil si like myself. Then lorazepam after testing it. Could possibly be powerful reducer. 👍🥰
Thanks for this info - it's reassuring to hear. How much lorazepam did you take when you were testing?
 
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What is your tolerance level? I only took 1 mg. But it really depends from person to person
 
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I bet 1 mg to start will be enough then. At least that what's I'm thinking. I don't either have any tolerance level.
 
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I don't know what up with me and benzos but when I take 1mg I feel nothing, I have to take at least 5mg to have the effects.
 
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Why not just order from companies that are still shipping from Poland? Also with dark web you have to be careful about not leaking your identity, honeypots or just straight up scams. Reviews on those sites can always be spoofed as well.
It can be staged reviews, but usually you will be able to lurk it out then. I have seen this before. Most of the people that work on d.n forums rely solely on reputation. And therefore it will not be very often you see this.
 

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