blueclover_.

blueclover_.

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Oct 11, 2021
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I have decided!

That i will work, make money, spend my money on stupid things that make me happy, and kms. I will live with no regrets.

Actually, anime helped me a lot these days. I have been addicted to various things before and i know addiction gives me the will to live. So, i think this will work. Just live for the sake of happiness. Hedonism, even. I'll do crazy shit. I'll be stupid. As long as i'm happy, fuck it. And if things are meant to go downhill, let it be. I'll end it if it comes to that.

I'm so excited. I love being addicted to something.
 
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summers

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@blueclover_. sounds like a great plan! Hope you enjoy life and get everything you want.
 
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I have decided!
That i will work, make money, spend my money on stupid things that make me happy, and kms. I will live with no regrets.
Actually, anime helped me a lot these days. I have been addicted to various things before and i know addiction gives me the will to live. So, i think this will work. Just live for the sake of happiness.

Good luck! If you're able to work & experience happiness, why didn't you make this obvious decision sooner?
 
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I have never heard of hedonism but it so happens to be exactly what I am doing now. Minus the work part. I'm trying hard to enjoy myself again for some time more before catching the bus in 4 months.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

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Oct 11, 2021
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Good luck! If you're able to work & experience happiness, why didn't you make this obvious decision sooner?
It took time to gather my will, okay. Besides, i just finished a bunch of shounen mangas. Don't attack me
 
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UseItOrLoseIt

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I'm not gonna rain on your parade, this is not my intention. I just find it interesting that my new(ish) goal is diametrically opposite. Asceticism is the new way for me. Stop seeking happiness, let it come if it will. Learn, adapt, to being alone. Not avoiding people like my old self would, but not avoiding loneliness at all costs. Learn to be become a better companion to myself and ideally - self-sufficient. I've lived long enough letting my state of mind be dependant on outer factors to realize there is no permanent fulfilment in that way of being. Things, people, come and go. Let them come - I will embrace them. Let them go - I will respectfully say goodbye. I will no longer allow them to define what I am or what I'm not. They are not me. Even my feelings towards them are not theirs. It's my capacity, my potential. and until now I've been waiting, like a prisoner, for confirmation like I would wait for a jailer to let me out, waiting for my capacity, my potential, to be unlocked. It's already there. There are no walls, there is no door, there is no cell. I don't need keys.
This is all easier said than done, but I'm certainly making progress in that direction and more days than not, I am at peace, even happy.
 
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timf

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Hedonism can be the ultimate in consumption. However, as one consumes one's pleasures, they can consumer you (burning the candle at both ends so to speak). Epicureanism was alternatively pursued by some ancients to extend their pleasures.

Epicurus believed that the greatest good was to seek modest, sustainable pleasure in the form of a state of ataraxia (tranquility and freedom from fear) and aponia (the absence of bodily pain) through knowledge of the workings of the world and limiting desires. - Wikipedia
 
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arijeh

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Dec 22, 2021
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I have decided!

That i will work, make money, spend my money on stupid things that make me happy, and kms. I will live with no regrets.

Actually, anime helped me a lot these days. I have been addicted to various things before and i know addiction gives me the will to live. So, i think this will work. Just live for the sake of happiness. Hedonism, even. I'll do crazy shit. I'll be stupid. As long as i'm happy, fuck it. And if things are meant to go downhill, let it be. I'll end it if it comes to that.

I'm so excited. I love being addicted to something.
This seems like a good working plan, if obsessive compulsive regret - over a past irreparable mistake - isn't one of your issues.
 
callme

callme

I'm a loose cannon - I bang all the time.
Aug 15, 2021
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Hedonism can be the ultimate in consumption. However, as one consumes one's pleasures, they can consumer you (burning the candle at both ends so to speak). Epicureanism was alternatively pursued by some ancients to extend their pleasures.

Epicurus believed that the greatest good was to seek modest, sustainable pleasure in the form of a state of ataraxia (tranquility and freedom from fear) and aponia (the absence of bodily pain) through knowledge of the workings of the world and limiting desires. - Wikipedia

How would that work if the person is diseased both mentally and physically? And how can knowing the workings of the world help with pleasure? If anything , the workings of the world are downright depressing and honestly, they destroy everything worth living for. That is the case here.

What further makes no sense is the limiting of desires. Isn't that what pleasure is? Limiting desires is the opposite of pleasure, it's discipline. Anybody who craves too much chocolate or fries knows.

I am sorry, I just can't realise where from and why do these greek people pull those confusing views from.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
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I'm not gonna rain on your parade, this is not my intention. I just find it interesting that my new(ish) goal is diametrically opposite. Asceticism is the new way for me. Stop seeking happiness, let it come if it will. Learn, adapt, to being alone. Not avoiding people like my old self would, but not avoiding loneliness at all costs. Learn to be become a better companion to myself and ideally - self-sufficient. I've lived long enough letting my state of mind be dependant on outer factors to realize there is no permanent fulfilment in that way of being. Things, people, come and go. Let them come - I will embrace them. Let them go - I will respectfully say goodbye. I will no longer allow them to define what I am or what I'm not. They are not me. Even my feelings towards them are not theirs. It's my capacity, my potential. and until now I've been waiting, like a prisoner, for confirmation like I would wait for a jailer to let me out, waiting for my capacity, my potential, to be unlocked. It's already there. There are no walls, there is no door, there is no cell. I don't need keys.
This is all easier said than done, but I'm certainly making progress in that direction and more days than not, I am at peace, even happy.
That's so cool, but my current self could never. I need to obsess over something to stop thinking about suicide, and so far it works. Great for you though, i hope the best for your recovery!
This seems like a good working plan, if obsessive compulsive regret - over a past irreparable mistake - isn't one of your issues.
Great :D i've done many mistakes in my life and even though they hurt, eventually i just don't give enough fuck. Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. But then i'm not so innocent because of that.
How would that work if the person is diseased both mentally and physically? And how can knowing the workings of the world help with pleasure? If anything , the workings of the world are downright depressing and honestly, they destroy everything worth living for. That is the case here.

What further makes no sense is the limiting of desires. Isn't that what pleasure is? Limiting desires is the opposite of pleasure, it's discipline. Anybody who craves too much chocolate or fries knows.

I am sorry, I just can't realise where from and why do these greek people pull those confusing views from.
Yeah. Said method only works for mentally healthy people.
 
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UseItOrLoseIt

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That's so cool, but my current self could never. I need to obsess over something to stop thinking about suicide, and so far it works. Great for you though, i hope the best for your recovery!
As long as it does the job done, who am I to try to dissuade you? Good luck 2U2
 
markimobzzdeasui

markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
1,149
I have decided!

That i will work, make money, spend my money on stupid things that make me happy, and kms. I will live with no regrets.

Actually, anime helped me a lot these days. I have been addicted to various things before and i know addiction gives me the will to live. So, i think this will work. Just live for the sake of happiness. Hedonism, even. I'll do crazy shit. I'll be stupid. As long as i'm happy, fuck it. And if things are meant to go downhill, let it be. I'll end it if it comes to that.

I'm so excited. I love being addicted to something.
Good luck! Whatever helps you live life peacefully and happily should definitely be given a chance. Sometimes the reality tunnel of suicidal depression is too dark to follow a linear continuous path!
 
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przeciwwymiotne

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Jun 27, 2022
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I have decided!

That i will work, make money, spend my money on stupid things that make me happy, and kms. I will live with no regrets.

Actually, anime helped me a lot these days. I have been addicted to various things before and i know addiction gives me the will to live. So, i think this will work. Just live for the sake of happiness. Hedonism, even. I'll do crazy shit. I'll be stupid. As long as i'm happy, fuck it. And if things are meant to go downhill, let it be. I'll end it if it comes to that.

I'm so excited. I love being addicted to something.
How's it going? Did it help you!
 
callme

callme

I'm a loose cannon - I bang all the time.
Aug 15, 2021
1,235
What do you spend money on? Everything is outrageously expensive. I would do fragrances if anything mainstream went for less than 200 dollars. Maybe toy soldiers, but they just stand there and do nothing and it's boring.
 

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