IHurtTheOneILove
Experienced
- Dec 16, 2023
- 205
Hey so I posted so much the past couple days abt how I was gonna CTB, and then I wasnt, and then i was going to again, and then i wasnt, and it's all so frustrating.
I keep waking up naceous and anxious at the thought of never contacting my ex again. I need them in my life and if I cant idk exactly know the point of continuing.
Like the thought of them sleeping with someone else makes me want to CTB already let alone the fact I may never experience any form of contact with them again. I'm in constant pain and heartache and I want it all to end. I have therapy Saturday that might be helpful but I know the only thing that would truly help is ones last day with my ex. They said they would never give me that because I don't deserve closure and it's genuinely driving me insane.
Ending my life over this seems silly. But carrying on without them seems worse. Crazy what one night of loneliness and pent up frustration with your ex can do to ruin your life.
I keep waking up naceous and anxious at the thought of never contacting my ex again. I need them in my life and if I cant idk exactly know the point of continuing.
Like the thought of them sleeping with someone else makes me want to CTB already let alone the fact I may never experience any form of contact with them again. I'm in constant pain and heartache and I want it all to end. I have therapy Saturday that might be helpful but I know the only thing that would truly help is ones last day with my ex. They said they would never give me that because I don't deserve closure and it's genuinely driving me insane.
Ending my life over this seems silly. But carrying on without them seems worse. Crazy what one night of loneliness and pent up frustration with your ex can do to ruin your life.
