Venting Health Anxiety

[mantis]

Is anyone else here stuck in some sort of health anxiety limbo? I live everyday in fear that I will fall victim to an aneurysm, stroke, heart attack, etc.
Clearly I'm afraid of death, but that constant fear is a big part of what is pushing me towards suicide. Too scared to live and too scared to die I guess. If I could go peacefully in my sleep without knowing it I would.
Is there any true pain free method or is pain just the price of getting what I want here?

 

[Holu]

Aww. I'm sorry to hear that. Anxiety of any kind is a bitch.

As for death and pain, there's always going to be stimuli, even if it's purely emotional, like the tension before pulling the trigger. But a shot to the brainstem is almost certainly painless, assuming something doesn't go wrong.