Heading to the hotel

[Mofreeko]

I wish you swift unconsciousness and an overall swift death.

 

[1000winds]

you are in my thoughts. i hope you have a peaceful exit

 

[TydalWave]

Wishing you the safest travels from this world to the next. <3

 

[ojinzo]

I just took the propanol. I'm about to prepare the sn drink.

 

[SproutPony]

Safe travels my friend, I hope you meet your eternal rest with peace.

 

[Hollowillow]

I wish there was a way for us all to stay, but I'll probably join you soon. I just played a game online with people who have a regular life (I'm disabled and had traumas) it was so much fun, but the sharp contrast with my life made it obvious that it's out of reach & I don't belong... I wish we could do zoom meetings and talk face to face during goodbyes. I wish mine was... But predators or pro life might turn it to hell...

It's a deep honnor to be your friend & be there in hopefully your last moments *hugs you*
Thank you so much for letting us know how it goes so we can better prepare ourselves.

 

[universe]

I hope all goes well for you, I support you and I hope you find peace. I send you all my prayers.

 

[Hollowillow]

I hope all goes well for you, I support you and I hope you find peace. I send you all my prayers.

Wow, @universe I was just praying to you and you literally came.

I thought "please god, no wait I'm atheist... please the universe, please save him, save him by allowing him to die, peacefully"

I hope the rest of my wish will come true too.

 

[ojinzo]

Just made the first drink. Had to stir it for a few minutes to get it completely dissolved. Preparing second glass now. I'm nervous. I just pray not to puke or be found.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm praying with you.

If you puke at least you have another glass. How many do you have?

I read it can work with just 1 puked glass. Or tasting it.

If it doesn't work out please let us know so we can continue to encourage you on your journey. I read that others made a new account to sneak in, no need to be embarassed. It's not a 100% sure science.

But I'm praying for your luck with all my might!

 

[universe]

Wow, @universe I was just praying to you and you literally came.

I thought "please god, no wait I'm atheist... please the universe, please save him, save him by allowing him to die, peacefully"

I hope the rest of my wish will come true too.

Thanks a lot

 

[Hollowillow]

Thanks a lot

I really do appreciate the irony of your choice in name. I think I would have went with a reassured smile. Thank you for coming to say goodbye.
I really think the coincidence is a sign. Like you're our good luck person. I expected a grim reaper. But yes in my near death experience I felt like I was greeted by the universe itself.

 

[ojinzo]

I'd drank first glass
I feel it in my stomach. The tester was bearable as I just swallowed it. It feels like my stomach is expanding. I may vomit

 

[Hollowillow]

I'd drank first glass

Will you only take the 2nd if the first reappears, or you'll drink both?

What are you doing between steps to relax?

I hope you'll fall asleep too fast to reply. But if you need a conversation, I'm here for you

 

[Shikamaru]

Good luck <3 I hope you find peace ! Your are so brave and strong !!!! Cx

 

[universe]

I really do appreciate the irony of your choice in name. I think I would have went with a reassured smile. Thank you for coming to say goodbye.
I really think the coincidence is a sign. Like you're our good luck person. I expected a grim reaper. But yes in my near death experience I felt like I was greeted by the universe itself.

Yes...I could do a whole post about my nickname and the symbolism of the universe in the loss of the meaning of life on Earth...And how many "normal" and happy people live only in the earth dimension. In the end, I ended up getting lost, and today I am no longer attached to the Earth. I haven't been part of the world of the living for a long time. I cannot ignore the much bigger, stronger universe all around us, without any form of life. And want to leave forever.

I followed your last posts @ojinzo , thank you for your shares. I don't really know you, but I sincerely hope that everything will be fine. Peace.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Just took 600 mg of ibuprofen with was little water as possible fifteen min ago... I can feel my stomach acids dissolving the pills. Wish I could of drank more water but it's fine. I'm about to take 30 mg of meto now.

You don't have to leave, but if you do, know that you are noticed and loved.

Good luck and have a good rest

For sure look at the replies everyone wishes them well in whatever they do. Hope whatever happens now it happens for best now. Peace

 

[Hollowillow]

Yes...I could do a whole post about my nickname and the symbolism of the universe in the loss of the meaning of life on Earth...And how many "normal" and happy people live only in the earth dimension. In the end, I ended up getting lost, and today I am no longer attached to the Earth. I haven't been part of the world of the living for a long time. I cannot ignore the much bigger, stronger universe all around us, without any form of life. And want to leave forever.

I followed your last posts @ojinzo , thank you for your shares. I don't really know you, but I sincerely hope that everything will be fine. Peace.

I saw the universe... Greedy assoles trapped us in a cruel little box... A mold... A cage...

Fly away free @ojinzo I love you

 

[disabledlife]

Good luck if you decide to leave, and if you've already left, RIP. If so, I hope you have not suffered and that your journey has been as peaceful as possible, as peaceful as possible. I hope you found happiness afterwards as you wish. I give you kisses. Peace.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'd drank first glass
I feel it in my stomach. The tester was bearable as I just swallowed it. It feels like my stomach is expanding. I may vomit

The refresh didn't show the text you added until now...

Did you manage to keep it? I hope you're ok... And by ok I mean... Eternal sleep.
It's been a while... I hope you're asleep... And won't wake up. I hope you'll go the fastest and not longest time. I hope the after life will be what you hope. I hope your next life will be a better species in a simpler & kinder life, or I hope that you'll have eternal sleep... Your energy returning to the stars... In peace...

You're my friend... I love you. You're worth shedding tears for, but your liberation matters to me more than the grief of losing you. I cry the injustice that you suffered in an unkind world... I hope that we all follow you soon.

It must be so hard on our beloved admin to see all her children fly away while she stay the guardian of this nest. This tender and loving place. The bus stop to heaven. It feels like heaven itself already. Full of angels with broken wings. People accuse us of being demons, but we didn't break each other wings... We try to teach each other new ways to fly... Fly away from the real demons. Perhaps we can have a 2nd chance in our next life. But I hope that I won't come back once I leave... The ods of being miserable ate too high in this system. Animals are lucky, when they are sick, frail or old, a predator gives them a quick death... Their flesh is recycled to sustain a new life, or their babies. But humans, we prey on each other, for sadistic pleasure & exploutation, we are electrocuted back to life... Denied the merciful luberation of death. Forced to be slaves even when useless. Tortured souls to increase statistics and exploit us...

I hope you're free, my friend... I hope you're finally free

 

[Littlewittlelight]

The refresh didn't show the text you added until now...

Did you manage to keep it? I hope you're ok... And by ok I mean... Eternal sleep.
It's been a while... I hope you're asleep... And won't wake up. I hope you'll go the fastest and not longest time. I hope the after life will be what you hope. I hope your next life will be a better species in a simpler & kinder life, or I hope that you'll have eternal sleep... Your energy returning to the stars... In peace...

You're my friend... I love you. You're worth shedding tears for, but your liberation matters to me more than the grief of losing you. I cry the injustice that you suffered in an unkind world... I hope that we all follow you soon.

It must be so hard on our beloved admin to see all her children fly away while she stay the guardian of this nest. This tender and loving place. The bus stop to heaven. It feels like heaven itself already. Full of angels with broken wings. People accuse us of being demons, but we didn't break each other wings... We try to teach each other new ways to fly... Fly away from the real demons. Perhaps we can have a 2nd chance in our next life. But I hope that I won't come back once I leave... The ods of being miserable ate too high in this system. Animals are lucky, when they are sick, frail or old, a predator gives them a quick death... Their flesh is recycled to sustain a new life, or their babies. But humans, we prey on each other, for sadistic pleasure & exploutation, we are electrocuted back to life... Denied the merciful luberation of death. Forced to be slaves even when useless. Tortured souls to increase statistics and exploit us...

I hope you're free, my friend... I hope you're finally free

This is half of my words and this is a close knit community now we feel bad when one of us leaves but we can't make them stay longer when we can't really help them in a way expect for these messages. Hollowillow hugs we need it to get through this we need and we taught eachother different ways to fly not cut eachother's wings. If it doesn't matter to the rest of world it still would to me. Hollowillow I hope onjizo is watching it or resting because he would know some of are ready to give some love to eachother and you are showing it thanks hollowillow. When my days comes I would wait for you guy's replies and may even do something to contribute to this community. I just hope for all this.
I hope I could follow the same path ojinzo.

 

[Hollowillow]

This is half of my words and this is a close knit community now we feel bad when one of us leaves but we can't make them stay longer when we can't really help them in a way expect for these messages. Hollowillow hugs we need it to get through this we need and we taught eachother different ways to fly not cut eachother's wings. If it doesn't matter to the rest of world it still would to me. Hollowillow I hope onjizo is watching it or resting because he would know some of are ready to give some love to eachother and you are showing it thanks hollowillow. When my days comes I would wait for you guy's replies and may even do something to contribute to this community. I just hope for all this.
I hope I could follow the same path ojinzo.

Yes, I can't change the world, so I can't possibly ask him to stay. I'm happy that he's flying away. But so sad too.

I wrote the long post thinking of pro lifers who might be spying on us... Thinking that we bully him into leaving. I was crying hard... But I wanted him to leave seeing a friendly smile... I cried a lot the first time I read an old goodbye post... I tried to be brave & I understand... But seeing an old friend leave broke my heart on a new level. And someone else left too... She could have been a new friend...

I understand why pro lifers go so crazy. This feeling hurts... This grief... This natural dark side of life.

I've been shamed by so many people for being "negative". But by not being in denial it allows me to open my heart to people who are having a negative time.

My new friend thanked me to have given her company in her last moment so she could feel less alone. I'm glad that I didn't act badly & honored to have been there to comfort her last moments.

I hope that I could do it for you too @ojinzo... I speak too much & act dumb when nervous... But my heart is there for you.

I hope that he's at peace... I deeply... Deeply... With your wish to be granted. I know how hard you fought... You first wanted to bring all possible ways to die to a hotel and have a battle royale until you found a way to die... Even seppuku. I admired your resolve. I noticed you before too. I should have said hi sooner. But I'm glad that I was there later... In your last moments...

I'll be happy to see you again so don't hesitate... But... With your preparations & resolve it's unlikely... I hope you're free...

I know you won't read this ... I'm just mourning you...

Please universe... Please let him be free... And if he reincarnates... Let him go to a better planet.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Yes, I can't change the world, so I can't possibly ask him to stay. I'm happy that he's flying away. But so sad too.

I wrote the long post thinking of pro lifers who might be spying on us... Thinking that we bully him into leaving. I was crying hard... But I wanted him to leave seeing a friendly smile... I cried a lot the first time I read an old goodbye post... I tried to be brave & I understand... But seeing an old friend leave broke my heart on a new level. And someone else left too... She could have been a new friend...

I understand why pro lifers go so crazy. This feeling hurts... This grief... This natural dark side of life.

I've been shamed by so many people for being "negative". But by not being in denial it allows me to open my heart to people who are having a negative time.

My new friend thanked me to have given her company in her last moment so she could feel less alone. I'm glad that I didn't act badly & honored to have been there to comfort her last moments.

I hope that I could do it for you too @ojinzo... I speak too much & act dumb when nervous... But my heart is there for you.

I hope that he's at peace... I deeply... Deeply... With your wish to be granted. I know how hard you fought... You first wanted to bring all possible ways to die to a hotel and have a battle royale until you found a way to die... Even seppuku. I admired your resolve. I noticed you before too. I should have said hi sooner. But I'm glad that I was there later... In your last moments...

I'll be happy to see you again so don't hesitate... But... With your preparations & resolve it's unlikely... I hope you're free...

I know you won't read this ... I'm just mourning you...

Please universe... Please let him be free... And if he reincarnates... Let him go to a better planet.

Hollowillow if a pro lifer read your post it is clear from the start none of the people on here ever said a single word which would encourage someone in this direction and whoever said they were banned, taken action against and if people are blind they wanna see on side of the coin then let them and I can say if that damn pro lifer got stuck or got 4th stage cancer they would be coming here willingly. All it takes is one misery to feel helpless but one big misery everyone is different, pain is subjective so the person going through it will determine if it's a big misery or small not the other people at the CCD having coffee like always and backbiting there. That is not life either and being a pro lifer doesn't mean they would be too sad if they were what can they do to show? Just words everyone else is doing that too. I got a lot to say but this is his own thread and I am not gonna say anything more but noone encourages it here. I know you could if you get attached and you could even cry for a stranger when you are so broken you could see and feel things more strongly so hollowillow if you are crying and grieving I would say you have a good heart and you got your fair share of problems and last thing I am delusional too but I can take my decisions to die and being delusional is also a problem which can make you cbt but I atleast would want to take CBT seriously so that's it. Problems are problems and if anyone wants to check if people decide for themselves here then they would need to turn off their emotions because others are still chatting but the decision is their own as far as I know and from what I have seen.

 

[Hollowillow]

Hollowillow if a pro lifer read your post it is clear from the start none of the people on here ever said a single word which would encourage someone in this direction and whoever said they were banned, taken action against and if people are blind they wanna see on side of the coin then let them and I can say if that damn pro lifer got stuck or got 4th stage cancer they would be coming here willingly. All it takes is one misery to feel helpless but one big misery everyone is different, pain is subjective so the person going through it will determine if it's a big misery or small not the other people at the CCD having coffee like always and backbiting there. That is not life either and being a pro lifer doesn't mean they would be too sad if they were what can they do to show? Just words everyone else is doing that too. I got a lot to say but this is his own thread and I am not gonna say anything more but noone encourages it here. I know you could if you get attached and you could even cry for a stranger when you are so broken you could see and feel things more strongly so hollowillow if you are crying and grieving I would say you have a good heart and you got your fair share of problems and last thing I am delusional too but I can take my decisions to die and being delusional is also a problem which can make you cbt but I atleast would want to take CBT seriously so that's it. Problems are problems and if anyone wants to check if people decide for themselves here then they would need to turn off their emotions because others are still chatting but the decision is their own as far as I know and from what I have seen.

Thank you. I think I encouraged someone a bit too hard when I first arrived, I'm glad I'm still a member.

I'm so sad that society is so heartless that only death can save people like us. I cried for us all... Including me. Maybe I'm selfish. I'm scared to die, there was so many things that I planned to do. But people assaulted me, hit me with a car, abused me, denied me medical care, shamed, threatened me... I'm doomed to die. I won't live life even if I'm alive... A friend told me I don't deserve help and my social worker said I'm wrong to find that abusive, that she's a good friend... As if I'm the wrong one because I don't deserve respect.

I'd take sn right away on impulse if I had it stored right now... Maybe I should stop seeking a cheaper source, but the same as his... And follow his courageous example...

I begged pro lifers to save me nonstop for decades, especially this year, and relentlessly all day for 48h... At best they don't know how & send me in another ressource that had nothing to do with my needs & I was refused before... At worse they threatened to sue me if I asked for help for "no valid reason" again.

So yes, I wouldn't stop him. But it makes me cry that this is the best thing for him... For me...

 

[Finding Sirius]

Rest well my friend, I hope you are able to travel the universe.

 

[Hollowillow]

Rest well my friend, I hope you are able to travel the universe.

I'd be nice if I could travel to japan as a ghost, but I'd probably withless endless abuse going through walls... With no one to share my distress with. Can ghosts travel to another planet or only the area they've known? I hope he's just gone... Like a candle's fire in the wind...

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

per ardua ad astra

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Thank you. I think I encouraged someone a bit too hard when I first arrived, I'm glad I'm still a member.

I'm so sad that society is so heartless that only death can save people like us. I cried for us all... Including me. Maybe I'm selfish. I'm scared to die, there was so many things that I planned to do. But people assaulted me, hit me with a car, abused me, denied me medical care, shamed, threatened me... I'm doomed to die. I won't live life even if I'm alive... A friend told me I don't deserve help and my social worker said I'm wrong to find that abusive, that she's a good friend... As if I'm the wrong one because I don't deserve respect.

I'd take sn right away on impulse if I had it stored right now... Maybe I should stop seeking a cheaper source, but the same as his... And follow his courageous example...

I begged pro lifers to save me nonstop for decades, especially this year, and relentlessly all day for 48h... At best they don't know how & send me in another ressource that had nothing to do with my needs & I was refused before... At worse they threatened to sue me if I asked for help for "no valid reason" again.

So yes, I wouldn't stop him. But it makes me cry that this is the best thing for him... For me...

I read your threads I know about the psychological violence against you and I never make irl friends anymore I am done I read most of your threads and I can tell you are hurt. It doesn't mean you are happy if you can't cbt. I know what you meant by even if I lived I wouldn't live my life. Rotting away isn't living and everyone is scared or cbt. Some have left when they felt the time was right,some when they were desparate,some when they felt ready different kinds of things work so it doesn't mean you are different if you can't do it. I wouldn't feel better If I called social workers for help and they react differently to what is expected. If I can't help someone live then I can't ask them to live if they have decided to go and it's their will and that's the same reason why I usually only wish on goodbye threads because I don't want to feel guilt when I already am doing nothing. It really doesn't matter but I don't even say anything because I know how it feels afterwards so I can relate that you wouldn't want to do that either.

 

[wljourney]

So sorry I didn't see this post earlier.
@ojinzo logged off just 2 min after drinking SN.
I hope they didn't suffer and had a peaceful journey.

Sending love out to your soul. Wherever you are right now.

 

[Hollowillow]

I read your threads I know about the psychological violence against you and I never make irl friends anymore I am done I read most of your threads and I can tell you are hurt. It doesn't mean you are happy if you can't cbt. I know what you meant by even if I lived I wouldn't live my life. Rotting away isn't living and everyone is scared or cbt. Some have left when they felt the time was right,some when they were desparate,some when they felt ready different kinds of things work so it doesn't mean you are different if you can't do it. I wouldn't feel better If I called social workers for help and they react differently to what is expected. If I can't help someone live then I can't ask them to live if they have decided to go and it's their will and that's the same reason why I usually only wish on goodbye threads because I don't want to feel guilt when I already am doing nothing. It really doesn't matter but I don't even say anything because I know how it feels afterwards so I can relate that you wouldn't want to do that either.

Thank you, it moves me deeply that you noticed me around that much. Would you mind wearong an avatar? It would help me recognize you. I wonder your reasons to cbt. I don't know how much we can talk in a goodbye post...

But thank you for being friendly to me. If @ojinzo was worried to leave me behind all alone crying... Maybe he'd be happy to see me make friends while paying my respects at his grave.

A part of me is in denial and still wait for his return... I hope that this wish won't be granted... For his sake.

So sorry I didn't see this post earlier.
@ojinzo logged off just 2 min after drinking SN.
I hope they didn't suffer and had a peaceful journey.

Sending love out to your soul. Wherever you are right now.

Thank you for letting me know. How do you know that he logged out? Wow you made many posts. Why is your name blue like a newcomer? I liked my green name but I like when I level up & turn super saiyan.