I'm nervous... Im hoping they let me in. I had a complication this morning with payment but they told me to still come and my room is still reserved.
I'm nervous... I had my final meal already and plan to take the first batch of meto soon. Actually, I'm sorry of hungry so may have some Popeyes. I mean, I do have the room for two days .. idk. I'm sweating bullets.
Aw... Already... It's my first goodbye by someone I know... And love.
*Hugs you gently and rubs your back a bit teary, holding back tears* I'm so sorry that this world was cruel to you... I had a taste of prejudice today. I changed my name to put bullying behing me and have a fresh start. I tried getting help from a trauma ressource for victim of crimes. At first they were warm & loving & gave me an appointment right away. But when they figured out my old name, they became cold, cancelled my appointment. When I was appaled by the discrimination, they blamed me for not mentionning my old name... What... So they could keep ignoring me like they did for years. Because they refused my mask exemption or found out I have mental labels... It was such a radical change of treatment... I wonder if it happens when people figure out that someone is black or something too... I can change my name but not prejudice. The director itself left a note in my file and is supposed to call back. When they do that it's to explain me why I'm unworthy to receive their service while bragging that they're kind people. Mental torture for 1h. I give up. After they treated me with disdain... Abandonned me for years... I won't answer...
So... That selfish story... Is to say... That I might understand your reasons to leave. Can you tell us if you don't mind? Maybe it will help you be less nervous if you remember why it's for the best?
*Sits by your side and snuggles your shoulder*
Did you bring more than 1 dose in case of... Accidents. Someone said he'd get 4, hahaha. It was the same price as 3.
What meal did you enjoy? Veggies calm me but I bought cookies, cereals, waffles. Fuck diabetes
I hope I'll be there for you... I might be sleeping.
Thank you for being kind to me. I hope you'll go gently. I wish the people who hurt you went instead, not gently. I'm glad that you won't do seppuku. I wish I could ne the one holding the sword to make it work but I would probably fail you and give you a bad shaving instead...
*Hugs you* it's hard to see you go, but this time I know you're well prepared, it's not a random self murder buffet... So it should go well. If you're not ready just enjoy room service & a nice rest? But you seem prepared. SI is a bitch though. A woman had an iron fist resolve for months, prepared perfectly for a week... But changed her mind. I was surprised but happy to see her. I wonder if she did now... She decided to do it at home, but riskier to be found by her husband. Make sure to put the don't disturb sign on the door? If such thin
g is done? Or verify when they clean or make sure they won't come in? Maybe book an extra day? But 8h should be enough? I don't actually know... Can you teach me? Maybe if you explain the plan then follow the plan it will put the emotional brain to rest... So the rational one takes over. Maybe that's why sudoku are relaxing. I'm totally unable to do any! Are you?
If you could get reincarnated in an animal, what would it be? I'd get the wolf, crow, or jellyfish to be a toxic monster god! Deadlier than a shark... Wait really?
google: "While sharks grab the headlines if they attack someone, jellyfish kill eight times as many people every year. While they look harmless, they can be highly poisonous and are also often hard to see and avoid. As well as causing 40 deaths a year, jellyfish also cause a vastly larger number of injuries than sharks."
*giggles* hell yes, fuck humans! So pretty!
The movie 7 pounds with will smith was a suicide with them. Then he gives his organs to 7 people. He tries to find worthy people who've been abandonned by the system. He gives his house to a beaten woman... Gives his heart to a girl he falls in love with... A sadist abused the elderly and he defended the woman, screamed at the guy and said he wouldn't give him an extension on his loan (His cover story to investigate) he'd give him nothing (left to die without his organs) sweet. I love will smith... It was an amazing movie.
*Hugs you tight* I hope my rambling distracted you from the fear... I love you my friend. I hope you'll have a peaceful travel, and a nice rest. Thank you for your kindness.
