Update: he ended up leaving me. Dropped off all my stuff...I collapsed in front of him in tears and begged him to stay with me but I could see absolutely no emotions in his eyes. He's truly gone...I think this is my final straw. The last nail in the coffin. I'm finally ready to leave it all behind, knowing that no one would blink an eye at my absence. I told him I'd always love him, and he never said it back. He said I'll get over it and I give too much of myself to people, so I'm finally ready to stop. For real this time. He wanted this, so I'll do him the favor. He won't have to think about me always loving him, and I won't have to go through the pain of being entirely alone again. He chose his ex over me, and that's okay. It's okay. It's finally over. I can finally do it. Now, I don't have to be worried about the pity or anguish, everyone will be completely okay. I'm not a person anymore. I'm nothing. I'll show them how I've realized this and I'm not sorry.
OceanBlue
Feminist
- Jun 13, 2021
- 701
I'm sorry you're going through this. It feels rough in the beginning, but the feelings will subside.
If it's not what you truly want for yourself, it's not worth to even consider ctb over another person, especially one you need to beg to stay.
People come and go, that does not make us unloveable.
Feel better soon
If it's not what you truly want for yourself, it's not worth to even consider ctb over another person, especially one you need to beg to stay.
People come and go, that does not make us unloveable.
Feel better soon
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,920
That sounds like such a painful situation to be trapped in, the reality is that life is too cruel and there is too much suffering in existence. It must be hard to deal with what you have to go through but anyway I wish you the best.
todienomore
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2023
- 415
I'm in a similar boat. She just left and my life is just spiraling out of control. I can't bear it. Everyday is torture. And what hurts the most is that just like him there's just no emotion in her eyes either. Just a cold stare. You are not alone.
It's horrible that people abandon you like you never meant anything. It's horrible how careless people are. I'm sorry. I wish it didn't have to be like this.
