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lunar02102009

lunar02102009

Lone1y_Lamp
Apr 12, 2025
211
I have ocd i wish i didnt i wanna rip out my brain and die i hate ocd i hate myself having ocd sucks especially when you dont have people who actually understand you i will ctb soon because i cant anymore i just cant please give me some comfort as i cry
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
Yeah, I am also struggling with many mental illnesses. At least my body is healthy.
 
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ALonelyFreak

Member
Dec 7, 2024
97
I hope it comforts you but I actually defeated OCD (at least for a while) though it was hard. And yeah after some time you get suicidal because constant obsessive thoughts are unbearable.

but I got other mental disorders so fuck me
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,914
I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, that sounds really torturous what you have to go through. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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broken_stoic

broken_stoic

Wander till you find your place
Aug 21, 2024
194
I'm really sorry, I've known people with OCD and it is hell to live with. I have had ocd-like symptoms but not true ocd. I don't know what to say other than I feel for you, and there are others out there with the same pain, and we may not be able to fix it here, but we care.
 
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lunar02102009

lunar02102009

Lone1y_Lamp
Apr 12, 2025
211
I'm really sorry, I've known people with OCD and it is hell to live with. I have had ocd-like symptoms but not true ocd. I don't know what to say other than I feel for you, and there are others out there with the same pain, and we may not be able to fix it here, but we care.
That really helps! Thank you so much! You made my day. Im really grateful that you guys care<33
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,096
Yea I really hope you find peace. Living with OCD must be really hard so you have my deepest sympathies.

Being diagnose a mental illness is hard let alone the stigma around each one.

People can be real invalidating with your struggles.

Anyways best of wishes to everyone
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,015
Bpd,Mdd,my epilepsy and Ed are all destroying me... I just wish it would end
 

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