Have you tried writing down all your problems and then looking at how solvable each one is ?

[Ambivalent1]

I don't know how many of mine are unsolvable but I know that many would be incredibly difficult to treat. I've tried for years to solve many of them, but they don't consistently get better. There's a lot of two steps forward and three steps back. Demoralizing

 

[iloverachel]

Too much effort. I can literally write 100 books on why life is awful and meaningless, its impossible to solve it all

 

[Ambivalent1]

Too much effort. I can literally write 100 books on why life is awful and meaningless, its impossible to solve it all

I'm not talking about solving life's problems as a whole. That's not possible.

 

[iloverachel]

I'm not talking about solving life's problems as a whole. That's not possible.

For my personal problems I have tried
But after 8 years it seems also impossible for me
Curing my depression or even minimising it has been a tough thing for me to try overcome

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I did something along the same line as this, as I wrote down on one side of an imaginary "scale" on a piece of paper all the reasons that I should live, and on the other side of the imaginary "scale, all the reasons I should not live. It turned out I couldn't even come up with a single reason to keep on living, but had about 14 or 15 reasons to bow out of this life I'm living.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

to someone who isn't useless, problems like mine could be solvable. unfortunately, i am that useless person.

there are way more things that tell me this isn't worth salvaging or helping because of the trouble and my own ineptitude.

i wish i was just a tiny bit less of a NEET.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm depressed enough as it is.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No I haven't. However, I think that perhaps some of my problems are solvable or perhaps even mitigated if I were to work hard on them. That said, I don't exactly want to work on my problems which means that they will stay the way they are. Not to mention that I'd still be suicidal regardless because some of my problems are with life itself

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

That's kind of already what I do here except I still end up on the same conclusion: that not much can be done by me about my situation because it has to be me alone who does something about it and I don't really want to do anything about it because ethically, I shouldn't.

 

[Ambivalent1]

That's kind of already what I do here except I still end up on the same conclusion: that not much can be done by me about my situation because it has to be me alone who does something about it and I don't really want to do anything about it because ethically, I shouldn't.

You don't want to become a super villain?

 

[yaraisasadgirl]

I don't really have problems, just mentally ill. I've tried medicine, a fuck ton of therapy. Like 5,5 hours x 4 times a week. Hospitals. I've just accepted that this is the outcome. I always feel sad, I don't have a bad life. I just feel depressed

 

[Ambivalent1]

I don't really have problems, just mentally ill. I've tried medicine, a fuck ton of therapy. Like 5,5 hours x 4 times a week. Hospitals. I've just accepted that this is the outcome. I always feel sad, I don't have a bad life. I just feel depressed

I like your response and that you tried hard to get better. I have PTSD and Ocd due to childhood trauma. In addition, I have other health issues that probably stem from it due to the constant stream of cortisol flooding my system and poisoning my body.

Anyway, I think you're right. Eventually, you try enough therapists and medicine that you realize you've done all you could to improve. In another thread, a user said that to ctb peacefully you have to "let go," so I suppose that would mean accepting thar you did your best and unfortunately it wasn't enough, but that's ok. It's just the way things are. I find that somewhat comforting.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

You don't want to become a super villain?

Why would I want to become what I already am?

 

[Ambivalent1]

Why would I want to become what I already am?

You're a bad man?

 

[yaraisasadgirl]

I like your response and that you tried hard to get better. I have PTSD and Ocd due to childhood trauma. In addition, I have other health issues that probably stem from it due to the constant stream of cortisol flooding my system and poisoning my body.

Anyway, I think you're right. Eventually, you try enough therapists and medicine that you realize you've done all you could to improve. In another thread, a user said that to ctb peacefully you have to "let go," so I suppose that would mean accepting thar you did your best and unfortunately it wasn't enough, but that's ok. It's just the way things are. I find that somewhat comforting.

I also found that very comforting I also have ptsd, bpd, derealization/depersonalization disorder, depression, psychosis.

I just accepted I can't fix it anymore. I am okay with letting go. I have applied for euthanasia, but don't want to wait 3+ years and try other therapy. At some point enough is enough!.

 

[untothedepths]

Mine might be fewer but one of my biggest hurdles requires me to probably just win the lottery so I can afford medical help that rich people can only get. I know for sure my issues would cost me hundreds of thousands and I'm unable to get good insurance and I don't qualify for any help. Even so, it would only be treatment and at this rate not even remission. And I'm okay with that reality, you know? That alone, knowing that my health has taken a worse for the turn doesn't rip me to shreds (unlike the emotional ones...) except for the fact: I am in pain almost all the time now and 2: I'll be in worse pain later. Its so frustrating how every situation I'm in is just catch 22. I want to solve my issue in the best way possible for everyone involved but I can't, not without going through ridiculous hoops and uncertainty.

 

[BlendedHeart]

It's a good idea and a bad idea.

It's good because sometimes putting stuff to paper helps you getting some perspective and figuring out things that aren't clear enough in your mind, or making them seeing easy enough to sort.
It's bad because, if you have a laundry list of problems and if you keep writing and writing them, you'll probably get more depressed and it won't help your cause lol.

I'll give it a shot.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I like your response and that you tried hard to get better. I have PTSD and Ocd due to childhood trauma. In addition, I have other health issues that probably stem from it due to the constant stream of cortisol flooding my system and poisoning my body.

Anyway, I think you're right. Eventually, you try enough therapists and medicine that you realize you've done all you could to improve. In another thread, a user said that to ctb peacefully you have to "let go," so I suppose that would mean accepting thar you did your best and unfortunately it wasn't enough, but that's ok. It's just the way things are. I find that somewhat comforting.

Do the majority of people cling to life to begin with? I can't understand this concept because I feel like I've let go of life ever since I existed. And before you ask why I'm still alive and blah blah blah, I'm only alive because I don't have any skills or opportunities to kill myself, not because I like life or want to do anything within it voluntarily. My attachment to life is basically the same as the most notorious user on this site.. which I should be concerned about but I honestly don't even care

 

[vadim]

to someone who isn't useless, problems like mine could be solvable. unfortunately, i am that useless person.

there are way more things that tell me this isn't worth salvaging or helping because of the trouble and my own ineptitude.

i wish i was just a tiny bit less of a NEET.

Same here. My "problems" aren't really problems as such in that they shouldn't be problems. My probems are to do with very basic things that most people who are not completely defective don't struggle with. I, however, am a completely defective person. I don't have problems, I am the problem.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Do the majority of people cling to life to begin with? I can't understand this concept because I feel like I've let go of life ever since I existed. And before you ask why I'm still alive and blah blah blah, I'm only alive because I don't have any skills or opportunities to kill myself, not because I like life or want to do anything within it voluntarily. My attachment to life is basically the same as the most notorious user on this site.. which I should be concerned about but I honestly don't even care

I'm surprised you'd ask that. Of course, people cling to life. What the hell? Look at anyone who's ever almost died. Why would people go to the hospital if they didn't wish to live more?

Same here. My "problems" aren't really problems as such in that they shouldn't be problems. My probems are to do with very basic things that most people who are not completely defective don't struggle with. I, however, am a completely defective person. I don't have problems, I am the problem.

I can relate. My ocd makes everything take longer. A morning routine and night routine take forever.

 

[Malaria]

No, but that's an interesting idea. I might do that.

 

[sserafim]

Do the majority of people cling to life to begin with? I can't understand this concept because I feel like I've let go of life ever since I existed. And before you ask why I'm still alive and blah blah blah, I'm only alive because I don't have any skills or opportunities to kill myself, not because I like life or want to do anything within it voluntarily. My attachment to life is basically the same as the most notorious user on this site.. which I should be concerned about but I honestly don't even care

Same. The only reason why I'm still alive is because ctb is risky and things could end up terribly if you fail. My fear of failure is keeping me here. I'm not alive because I like life; it's because the alternative (failing ctb) is worse. Living is the lesser of two evils

 

[Ambivalent1]

No, but that's an interesting idea. I might do that.

Another soul saved from the seventh circle of Dante's inferno lol

 

[Malaria]

Another soul saved from the seventh circle of Dante's inferno lol

Not sure if I'm necessarily able to be saved, but it could be worth trying to solve things that are actually solvable in my life. Like for example my addiction to soda and fast food.

 

[sserafim]

Another soul saved from the seventh circle of Dante's inferno lol

Which circle of Dante's inferno do you think you'd end up in? I like the ninth circle (the ice one)

 

[Ambivalent1]

Not sure if I'm necessarily able to be saved, but it could be worth trying to solve things that are actually solvable in my life. Like for example my addiction to soda and fast food.

I haven't had a soda in 15 yrs. Switching to only water will put you in with the elite. Fast food I do sometimes

Which circle of Dante's inferno do you think you'd end up in? I like the ice circle

The one where people respond to messages

 

[sserafim]

I haven't had a soda in 15 yrs. Switching to only water will put you in with the elite. Fast food I do sometimes

The one where people respond to messages

I don't drink soda. It's just pure sugar. I don't eat fast food either.

Oops, sorry I forgot. Will you tell me your real answer if I reply?

 

[Ambivalent1]

Oops, sorry I forgot. Will you tell me your real answer if I reply?

Ok
The ice circle is for the treacherous
Sixth level heresy.

 

[Malaria]

Which circle of Dante's inferno do you think you'd end up in? I like the ninth circle (the ice one)

This question wasn't directed at me, but I think I'd be in the 5th circle, which represents wrath and sullenness.

 

[BlazingBob]

My health problems are incurable hence them and related issues are unsolvable. As is my financial situation. I'm screwed nine ways to Sunday. I've run the numbers back and forth and up and down. Suicide is not what I want but neither is living with a body that's constantly torturing me and being homeless and destitute. I also can't solve the problem of having a family that doesn't give a shit if I live or die and a father that's actually encouraged me to ctb, multiple times. It's a brutal reality and it's hard to accept, often times my anxiety getting to the point of feeling like throwing up. It's been really bad at night lately. The stress in turn aggravates my physical problems especially the neurological ones.