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- May 9, 2020
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Parents know, they are pressing me to get support from a psychiatrist
Not necessarily true. I told one person because I needed someone to know how bad things are - framed it as purely passive ideation, of course. I told my friends to prepare them. In all cases I didn't want to be rescued. If I wanted to be rescued I would call my therapist and tell her "I'm actively suicidal, I have a plan, I have the needed materials, and I'm worried that I will kill myself unless I have professional intervention."No, why would you? I think people who do this secretly want to be rescued and not CTB.
Times change, I assume. Many people in my real life know that I'm suicidal and it sucks.I thought this could be interesting. I haven't told anyone and i think i'll never be able to
Yes, it wasn't to be helped or saved. It wanted to let him know I couldn't cope with him treating me like trash while also happily getting ready to go hook up with the home wrecker he divided the family for. I didn't want to be impulsive and unstable, and wanted to die on my terms rather than because he pushed me over the edge.
One could always leave a detailed note explaining everything. That's what I'm going to do and I've already gotten started on it.