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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
Did you find your future is a blocked way? and your past is unforgiving road? did you give up on hope of a better life?
do you have a small hope inside that everything will change?

Me: I gave up.
 
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justwanttogo

justwanttogo

Member
Mar 20, 2022
31
if i wont win the loterry im pretty much fucked lol.. i am that useless shit at family gatherings that cant hold a job while my family consists of doctors and lawyers..
i dont see how my life could get better, on the one hand i hate pretty much all people on the other im to unstable to be taken serious by anyone..
im sorry that you gave up but life is pretty hard and i think not so precious like people will tell you
its ok to give up i guess, i hope you tried some kind of mental health professional, but for me it doesnt work though
 
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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
if i wont win the loterry im pretty much fucked lol.. i am that useless shit at family gatherings that cant hold a job while my family consists of doctors and lawyers..
i dont see how my life could get better, on the one hand i hate pretty much all people on the other im to unstable to be taken serious by anyone..
im sorry that you gave up but life is pretty hard and i think not so precious like people will tell you
its ok to give up i guess, i hope you tried some kind of mental health professional, but for me it doesnt work though
Well it's not your fault, no human is a useless, though life still kick our butts, i tried well it suck and didn't work, hopefully you can restore the hope of changing, you know you can win lottery if luck liked you haha
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Yes I see no way forward but no desire or motivation to end things…
 
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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
Yes I see no way forward but no desire or motivation to end things…
No way forward... But can You go to another way? Maybe changing ways can get you to your home, glad you don't want to end things..
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,901
In my case, there is nothing here for me in this world and I will never want to live no matter what, I just want non existence. When I am still alive there is the chance of things getting much worse. Death is freedom from all pain and suffering, nothing can hurt me when I am dead. I do not want to suffer for many more decades until old age, the thought of that is horrifying. I am only still alive as it is difficult to exit this world, the fear of failure is what holds me back.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
No way forward... But can You go to another way? Maybe changing ways can get you to your home, glad you don't want to end things..
Thank you… I have zero motivation… I'm a slug
 
DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
In my case, there is nothing here for me in this world and I will never want to live no matter what, I just want non existence. When I am still alive there is the chance of things getting much worse. Death is freedom from all pain and suffering, nothing can hurt me when I am dead. I do not want to suffer for many more decades until old age, the thought of that is horrifying. I am only still alive as it is difficult to exit this world, the fear of failure is what holds me back.
well i know what you mean by nothing left in this world for you, it's really exhausting to be just exist let alone doing things you don't want do anymore, i assume death is my door of freedom too, i can't help but say hope your situation changes to better
 
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DPJ187

Student
Apr 14, 2022
128
I have given up, I'm waiting for SN to arrive. Then will CTB with no regrets. Its not about giving up, I want to not be alive anymore. I've had enough, I've had 35 years and I tried but I want out now. No refunds, no do overs. It's time to exit this stage before I am dragged from it against my will.
 
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Hans Voralberg

Hans Voralberg

Experienced
Nov 6, 2021
229
Yeah i give up compleatly first time in my life
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
I've given up on a lot of things. But I haven't fully given up on staying alive yet. Not sure how much I'm holding on by, it changes day to day, but I have my SN and everything ready and haven't taken it yet so I obviously haven't 100% decided to die.
 
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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
I have given up, I'm waiting for SN to arrive. Then will CTB with no regrets. Its not about giving up, I want to not be alive anymore. I've had enough, I've had 35 years and I tried but I want out now. No refunds, no do overs. It's time to exit this stage before I am dragged from it against my will.
With no regrets i assume you already tried enough and reached your peak of pain, sorry life is just shitty for us
Yeah i give up compleatly first time in my life
You still doing caffeine OD?
I've given up on a lot of things. But I haven't fully given up on staying alive yet. Not sure how much I'm holding on by, it changes day to day, but I have my SN and everything ready and haven't taken it yet so I obviously haven't 100% decided to die.
Glad you still have hope of life, your hesitation meaning that you still hope for a change, you can rethink about whether to continue or not, so you can throw away SN and get rid of thoughts of ctb
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
682
It feels like I'm at that point, I don't know. Last night I had a complete break down and was really contemplating just renting a hotel room and ending it. There's still some hope, but I don't want to give into it because it's only led me to disappointment, especially these last few months.

I've been crying everyday, I can't go outside with having panic attacks, I keep being hurt and lied to by everyone around; it's all tiring. It's miserable waking up everyday to deal with the same things all over again.
 
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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

The proudest communist feather ever
Apr 7, 2022
184
It feels like I'm at that point, I don't know. Last night I had a complete break down and was really contemplating just renting a hotel room and ending it. There's still some hope, but I don't want to give into it because it's only led me to disappointment, especially these last few months.

I've been crying everyday, I can't go outside with having panic attacks, I keep being hurt and lied to by everyone around; it's all tiring. It's miserable waking up everyday to deal with the same things all over again.
Being stuck between hope and hopelessness is really suck you can't work you can't even go drink water, it just like our days are loop with same pain, i cried too everyday it's not bad to cry it really make me comfortable, breakdowns can be indicate that you are still in that circle of pain, people are cruel and shitty their treatment to us is unfair and waking everyday seems like we are tortured here, but having hope for a change can fuel you like a mad jungle man.. to change, one more try and that's it?
 
butterfly3

butterfly3

Student
Apr 2, 2022
119
Kinda. Most of my hope that my life will improve has depleted tbh. But I still have to go to school and do stuff because of my parents, if I don't we'll get into an argument and then they'd start rambling on about how depression is a choice and that I should just stop, and all my peace is out of the window. If it wasn't for this, I would spend all my time rotting away in my room doing nothing until I can actually find and use sn
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
I lost the minute was born. Basically doomed from the start. There's no hope for me that is practical.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,025
I think the very last bastion of hope that one haves is what leaves you the second the bus is caught.
 
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I'm trying to give up on my ego. Once I do that, the rest of the shit is irrelevant. But have I quit? No.
 
ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
I'm trying to stay hopeful, but deep down I know i'm pretty fucked and there isn't much hope for a good future.
 
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xo777

are we almost there?
Apr 5, 2022
170
yes and i don't have the motivation to even help myself. i just want to go.
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
240
I gave up and lost my last hope.😔
 
thedaywillcome

thedaywillcome

I will leave soon
Apr 2, 2022
358
Yes I gave up now only SI is pushing me back but for how long?
 
Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I completely gave up. There is no going back to the old days
 

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