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daddy Phil :)

daddy Phil :)

Member
Oct 21, 2020
52
I wanted to kill my whole family while they were asleep, but I knew I wouldn't dare to do it. Idk why I wanted to do that they did nothing wrong to me. I think I just liked to see them dead and me covered in blood.
 
StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
No I've never had any homo thoughts or plans at all, cidal or otherwise :pfff:
I would love to know what you put in the field "What are your reasons for signing up to this forum?"
It must have been something like:
"So I can troll, target and demoralize all people who choose a ctb method that doesn't align with my own."
Surprised you haven't been banned yet, maybe sucking some mod-cock lol?
Grow up man!
 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
Bit harsh :/
I can take a joke or three.
But when this clown shows up in every one of my threads dissing me and other people for reason apart for his or her own gratification I have to draw a line and I'm gonna retaliate.
 
Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,029
I think we all entertain hateful thoughts driven by wrongs done to us in the past or that are happening currently.
The notion that the world could be made a better place if we removed some people from it is one as old as time.
When I was a more obvious angry person in my mid to late teen, I used to let murderous thought utterly flood my mind.
When I was older and these things appeared again I took therapy and luckily I found someone helpful and they were able to steer back to something more sensible.
Love and respect frienfs
DBD
 
VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
Aug 10, 2020
1,156
when i was forced to stay with my abusive dad for three weeks, yeah, i was extremely homicidal. i kept planning it out in my head and everything.

now? only occasionally.
 
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heliumornitrogen

Member
Oct 22, 2020
72
No, but I sometimes fantasize about a global catastrophe that would annihilate the planet lol. Like a meteor impact for example, followed by thousand feet waves that would wipe out all life within hours...Then I remember the people I care about who don´t want to die...Although it would be quite funny watching some people run around like headless chickens knowing it was their last few hours on Earth.
 
Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
Yes, from time to time I want to shoot a guy who has bullied me for years.

I also have this idea, of killing my parents with a heavy metal.
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Yes, but my parents are dead now
 
possumoutpost

possumoutpost

Member
May 12, 2021
5
Only about my abusers and the people who have hurt my friends. Otherwise not really.
 
EDMisgood

EDMisgood

A Visionary
Mar 15, 2021
40
I always have thoughts like this, but you want the ones that you hate to suffer, they are better ways than killing
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
My thoughts are consumed by the person who ruined my life. It would be nice if I could never think about him again and just move on, but I can't. I can't forget the betrayal and the lifetime of punishment to which he sentenced me. He killed me. My heart may still be beating, but for all intents and purposes, he killed me.

I used to fantasize about getting back at him in some way that he would be sentenced to a life like mine. I've surpassed that, though. Now I just wish he would die, and I fantasize about doing it. When I dream about it, it is always brutal and extremely violent. I don't think I could ever bring myself to do anything like that, but I definitely would like to.

I hate saying that, but it's how I feel. I was never a violent or hateful or spiteful person, but what he did to me contorted my very being. I wish him the most horrible, agonizing death.
 
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sadlife11134

Member
Jan 23, 2021
14
I've wanted to kill my foster parents for the abuse and for abandoning me. It would feel nice to be seen as not just a lazy leech that sits inside all day and plays on his computer. But instead as a dude that actually did something. Just something with my life instead of being so passive.

I don't have the energy though. Sure it would be cool to do it for the adrenaline rush and they definitely do deserve it. But just like I don't have energy to go to school I don't have the energy to buy a gun and plan my attack and all that shit.
 
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trigzter

Member
Aug 9, 2019
50
Never in a scenario in which I wasnt the hero. Kill the bad dude for the greater good. Otherwise no I dont wish death on anyone.
 
Makko

Makko

Iä!
Jan 17, 2021
2,430
Killing someone would be great stress relief. My options are currently limited, but who knows what the future holds.
 
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lanax09

lanax09

Experienced
Apr 17, 2021
231
I used to have them a lot when I was 11; I genuinely wanted to murder my classmates, who didn't like me because of awkwardness stemming from my aspergers, and would exclude, ignore and be mean to me. Now I have the occasional fantasy of killing my mother but it's not often or serious and I'd much rather just kill myself.
 
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Deleted member 8579

Enlightened
Apr 28, 2021
1,323
To quote a Monty Python sketch:

"A murderer is only an extroverted suicide."
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,823
No, officer. Of course not.
 
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MewtwoIsAlive

MewtwoIsAlive

Suffering
Jul 11, 2020
226
You mean to kill someone or to kill yourself?
 
Grave

Grave

tired
Mar 5, 2021
66
Yeah kind of, like sometimes, especially when he's being a real dickhead, I'd like to kill my dad - like proper serious I would.

He's fucked up my life so much, probably the one biggest single reason for me wanting to ctb, so I kinda want him to feel pain like I do and get some fucking revenge or something.
 
saltshaker

saltshaker

salt shaker, rule breaker
Jan 29, 2021
400
You would like me to give up my plans wouldn't you?!

I've never thought a bad thought.
 
Meaningless_guy

Meaningless_guy

Time is a master who kills all his students.
Aug 12, 2022
31
I have a really sharp knife hidden in my room, I do often think of cutting myself, but I know the day I do something like that my parents will find out, that's the only reason I didin't do it yet.
 
busybee

busybee

Experienced
Jul 5, 2023
210
Apart from intrusive thoughts generally not but I do think with a severe trigger I would be capable of it. If someone were to SA me or if I had a child and it got killed I would go all out on revenge.
 
Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
Not only serious thoughts, but also an attempt was made - I was sure that a few hundred tablets of digoxin would kill me, but I vomited and felt very bad after. I swallowed all these pills with such confidence that I would die. At that time I did not know about this forum and about how important anti-vomit drugs are. After this failed attempt, I now have experience fear of failure. I hope that my SN will work well and I will finally die
 

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