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Anon7075

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Jan 3, 2021
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I have trauma from elementary and middle school. I barely finished 2 grades of high school and in 3rd grade of high school i completely stoped going to school because i was extremely mentally drained, extremely suicidal and hospitalized 2 times so i gave up completely and failed the grade. Im 24 and decided to finish it as an adult. Remember that school is not a priority, your health be it psychological or physical is your top priority. You can always finish school at a later date. It took me 6 years to re-enter high school. Take your time. Don't stress too much and if things get stressfull to the point of suicide it's better to quit and resume schooling when you feel better again at a later date.
 
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halfway_y

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Mar 18, 2025
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I dropped out 4th year of my bachelors.
Even tho I didn't like it, it was the worst major you can think of (history, I don't even like it, honestly I didn't even learn much because I was so tired all the time), it was still devastating. It feels so bad to just waste four years down the drain, and then spend a lot more years just recovring from it (I still haven't, my living situation is disaster).
It hurts so bad seeing everyone graduate and proceed, while I'm stuck so many years behind. I attended a fancy school where everyone went to prestigious universities and where everyone knew what they wanted except me. Honestly it feels so bad still, pain never went away. But I just couldn't do it. I just couldn't. A lot of bad stuff happened, I was losing my mind, I was so incredibly exhausted. I just collapsed. Still in collapse many years after.

I have two copes.
1) At least I don't have debt. Many people go in debt because of this, I didn't, it's free in my country as long as you pass exams well.
2) I could go again and pick a major that actually does something and I give a shit about it (as long as I don't have a diploma I can start university as much as I like for free in my country)

Still, it's devastating. Considering going to university is literally the only thing I was expected to do in life. Everyone wanted me to be successful and educated and bright and self-sufficient. I failed all the expectations. All of them. I'm a complete mess. At least I didn't kill anyone I suppose?
 
missedmybus

missedmybus

That's all very well, but I have a bus to catch.
Feb 2, 2025
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Dropped out at 15, got hs degree through homeschooling exams.

Dropped out of uni back to back years in my early 20s (philosophy and language/linguistics). Hated the pretentious student types. Had already been working manual labour with adults and also made money doing other things. Couldn't deal with elitist teenagers. Was also on a lot of drugs and making a lot of money in this period so didn't really care about failing.

Started a bachelors in clinical psychology last September, had a bit of a mental breakdown in December, almost dropped out, but professors/school convinced me to just put it on hold because they think I have a talent for it (I am pretty good at reading people) and my grades were very good.

Going into some long-term psychiatric hospital/rehab program in one of the following weeks. Hope to go back to the bachelors next September.

Kind of regret not playing along in middle/high school and also not just ignoring fellow students in my 20s, but oh well it is what it is.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

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Nov 13, 2021
1,471
I'm graduating from college at the end of the year. Computer Science major, (yeah, I've fell for the "just learn to code bro" meme). Programming and computing in general is not something I enjoy that much, but I'm trying to force myself to like since it's my life now. Dropping out was never a option because my helicopter mom (a teacher), she would have become even crazier than she already was. Sometimes I think that Uni, mine at least, is the most useless thing ever; It could be that I'm in a bad institution, probably I'm just a bad student or is just the economy that is fucked up. Anyway, it is what it is.

Oh, and I'm facing some problems that can delay my graduation. If that happens I'm just going to hang myself.
Fellow CS major as well, though I don't graduate until end of next year. However, my graduation might be delayed as well, struggling in classes right now. Transitioning from community college to uni is tough.

Ironically, I didn't fall for the "just learn to code," I learned about CS and it's salaries (money was my motivator) in like 2018-2019, and then it boomed in 2020. I started college in 2023. I actually still don't think it's a bad degree choice. Just extremely competitive and terrible job market all around right now, which I imagine is, in part, lasting effects from the 2020 hiring boom. I can relate though, been trying to stay alive since late 2024, as my suicidal ideation has really peaked since then.
 
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Mr. Silver

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Jan 30, 2025
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Fellow CS major as well, though I don't graduate until end of next year. However, my graduation might be delayed as well, struggling in classes right now. Transitioning from community college to uni is tough.

Ironically, I didn't fall for the "just learn to code," I learned about CS and it's salaries (money was my motivator) in like 2018-2019, and then it boomed in 2020. I started college in 2023. I actually still don't think it's a bad degree choice. Just extremely competitive and terrible job market all around right now, which I imagine is, in part, lasting effects from the 2020 hiring boom. I can relate though, been trying to stay alive since late 2024, as my suicidal ideation has really peaked since then.
May I ask your age, bro(sis)ter? I got into IT since I've never knew with my life, but some job experiences (the constant stress, the always demanding
sprints and long work hours) got me a little demotivated to continue in the field (which sucks, as I don't know what to do with my life).

Also, I'm 23
 

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