Have Someone in Your Life Keeping you Here?

[BasqueClown]

My older brother
He was the only who accepted my homosexuality and she loves me despite he's actively in church
He helped me in darkest days wiring money and I talk to him almost daily
But I didn't tell him any suicide attempt or suicide thoughts, only that I'm taking antidepressants and taking therapy
I'm afraid he will be so heartbroken
My parents are dead and my grandparents also dead so he is the only relative that I really love
The other side of the family treated me like a shit because I leave church and be openly lesbian

 

[soon06132022]

I thought I did. Turns out after enough time, everybody leaves.

 

[unredeemable]

My wife. She's convinced I can get better, but I know it's too late. Going through the motions right now while I decide what to do. If I divorce her and sever all contact, I think that would give her some separation from my death. Maybe she wouldn't ever even have to know? I can wait however long I need to as long as I can see the finish line. To honor my own agency by fulfilling my wish for death, free from all encumbrances, is my desire. It may not be realistic, but it is my goal. I deserve to die alone, just as I've lived my own life in my mind. It's all that matters. It's all I have left.

 

[la fin de tout]

My ex-girlfriend and her son, I'm waiting for enough time to pass where nobody would blame them when I CTB

 

[CursedSoul]

i don't really have any empathy towards my family, friends and gf, even if they care about me, but my cat thought, she will never understand why i disapeared suddendly, at least i won't experience her death, poor leilla...

 

[ncmxm]

Yes, my mother and my father. Maybe some other people too.

 

[lostmyacc]

Just me and my fear