hate to say it

[Aleksandra]

failed attempts really fucking suck.

answering questions, no it wasn't a troll or attention seeking. it took 5 minutes for the effects to kick in, i started hearing ringing sounds and muffled noises, then i had an anxiety induced psychotic episode which made me scream - my landlord called the police and since then i was put in a&e and then a mental hospital. i've been put on two different antipsychotics and prozac. in a&e i woke up with vertigo and i couldn't even stand on my own to go pee for 24 hours, i had mouth sores too - so i was in the observation unit for a few days until i could actually consciously talk to a mental health worker. i'm left with the effects of constant gagging and for a week i had random chest pains.

no i'm not happy i survived but i had to clear it up.

 

[NextSummer]

I hope you are fine and you didn't suffer. Did they tell you wether you've been close to death or not? Did they inject you methylen blue?

 

[Sunset Limited]

Im really sorry about your experience. Welcome to home again.

 

[Bathsheba]

Oh sweetheart, what a horrible time you've had. Lots of love and welcome back

 

[woxihuanni]

I'm sorry you suffered duckling, you are always welcome back you know.

 

[Mich517]

failed attempts really fucking suck.

answering questions, no it wasn't a troll or attention seeking. it took 5 minutes for the effects to kick in, i started hearing ringing sounds and muffled noises, then i had an anxiety induced psychotic episode which made me scream - my landlord called the police and since then i was put in a&e and then a mental hospital. i've been put on two different antipsychotics and prozac. in a&e i woke up with vertigo and i couldn't even stand on my own to go pee for 24 hours, i had mouth sores too - so i was in the observation unit for a few days until i could actually consciously talk to a mental health worker. i'm left with the effects of constant gagging and for a week i had random chest pains.

no i'm not happy i survived but i had to clear it up.

What did you take?

 

[Ruffian]

Sorry so much! We all love you here and will help you get through this.

 

[woxihuanni]

SN.

What did you take?

 

[Lady black]

Welcome back

 

[Blackjack]

Been wondering about you, never thought you were a troll or looking for attention. My first fear for people is always that they unfortunately failed and have been taken away against their will. It's the fatalist in me. I'm sorry this happened to you.

I hope you are fine and you didn't suffer.

Why do people say stupid shit like this? Obviously she's NOT "fine" and getting put in a Psych ward against your will is *THEE* definition of suffering. *SMH*

What did you take?

Read her detailed post history & you'll know her story.

 

[Trainwreck]

Man, I'm really sorry you're having such a tough time.

 

[Aleksandra]

i essentially would've died if my psychosis didn't kick in. but the disorientation was almost instantaneous, completely opposite to what i read about how long it took for others

 

[sleepy dog]

I feel really bad for you. You might want to be careful what you say when talking to mental health people, any of them. Maybe just pretend to be making progress, tiny steps. What antipsychotics do you use? Are you court ordered? Did they search your home, take the SN?

 

[Raggas]

Sorry you had to go through that. Sucks hearing horror stories like this.

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

i essentially would've died if my psychosis didn't kick in. but the disorientation was almost instantaneous, completely opposite to what i read about how long it took for others

Only 5 with capsules? Well this is going to suck

 

[Trainwreck]

Only 5 with capsules? Well this is going to suck

We all have different chemical makeups, so we all may have different reactions. Kind of like when they list the side effects of meds: may cause diarrhea, constipation, insomnia, sleepiness, etc. Someone recommended I try CBD oil before bed because it made them sleep like a baby. It made me wired and uncomfortable.

 

[Aleksandra]

Only 5 with capsules? Well this is going to suck

i took 24

edit: sorry i read that wrong! but yeah it was so instant, i couldn't hear anything and people were like oh she logged off so quick and honestly i felt like i was going to pass out that fast

I feel really bad for you. You might want to be careful what you say when talking to mental health people, any of them. Maybe just pretend to be making progress, tiny steps. What antipsychotics do you use? Are you court ordered? Did they search your home, take the SN?

i've been with the mental health team for years, my therapist knows i don't want to get better. they don't care, they just discharged me and i was back home again

 

[Evacplan33]

Welcome back, here if you need to talk.

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

i took 24

edit: sorry i read that wrong! but yeah it was so instant, i couldn't hear anything and people were like oh she logged off so quick and honestly i felt like i was going to pass out that fast

i've been with the mental health team for years, my therapist knows i don't want to get better. they don't care, they just discharged me and i was back home again

Did you take them one at a time? Seems impossible just imagining taking all these pills just looking at them.

 

[Aleksandra]

Did you take them one at a time? Seems impossible just imagining taking all these pills just looking at them.

yes but i took small breaks

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

yes but i took small breaks

Was there any pain besides a headache?

 

[Trainwreck]

When I saw how big the 000 capsules are, I got intimidated too. Once again, I think I'm flipping back to liquid. It will be super easy to drink such a small amount, hopefully I can keep it down. I wish I could do half capsules half liquid, but someone suggested that would be a bad idea with different absorption rates.

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

When I saw how big the 000 capsules are, I got intimidated too. Once again, I think I'm flipping back to liquid. It will be super easy to drink such a small amount, hopefully I can keep it down. I wish I could do half capsules half liquid, but someone suggested that would be a bad idea with different absorption rates.

Yeah at first it seemed like a great idea because the taste the og way in water is horrible. But i gag just putting one pill in. Probably just si kicking in

 

[dysphoria]

failed attempts really fucking suck.

answering questions, no it wasn't a troll or attention seeking. it took 5 minutes for the effects to kick in, i started hearing ringing sounds and muffled noises, then i had an anxiety induced psychotic episode which made me scream - my landlord called the police and since then i was put in a&e and then a mental hospital. i've been put on two different antipsychotics and prozac. in a&e i woke up with vertigo and i couldn't even stand on my own to go pee for 24 hours, i had mouth sores too - so i was in the observation unit for a few days until i could actually consciously talk to a mental health worker. i'm left with the effects of constant gagging and for a week i had random chest pains.

no i'm not happy i survived but i had to clear it up.

Yes they do suck. Sorry to hear of your continued suffering, I had to be assisted in various bodily functions for about a week, it has traumatised family who watched but the weirdest thing is I don't remember much, and joke in ignorance. If you don't remember suffering intensely, does it count? I'd say yes but some people think the contents of their memory are what defines their life. What did you end up taking?

 

[Blackjack]

Yeah at first it seemed like a great idea because the taste the og way in water is horrible. But i gag just putting one pill in. Probably just si kicking in

How's it going?

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

How's it going?

Haven't tried yet got a hour left from fasting.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I am sorry to hear of your ordeal, I have yet to be placed in a mental hospital but I've considered going as a sort of rite of passage but it's so expensive and I'm scared <3 But then I could possibly get on okay terms with some friends I had fallings out withs, but I like to self-medicate and have more control <3 Sorry made it about me well good luck to you dear and everyone <3

 

[axorz]

i essentially would've died if my psychosis didn't kick in. but the disorientation was almost instantaneous, completely opposite to what i read about how long it took for others

I lost consciousness in a matter of 3-4 seconds

 

[epic]

failed attempts really fucking suck.

answering questions, no it wasn't a troll or attention seeking. it took 5 minutes for the effects to kick in, i started hearing ringing sounds and muffled noises, then i had an anxiety induced psychotic episode which made me scream - my landlord called the police and since then i was put in a&e and then a mental hospital. i've been put on two different antipsychotics and prozac. in a&e i woke up with vertigo and i couldn't even stand on my own to go pee for 24 hours, i had mouth sores too - so i was in the observation unit for a few days until i could actually consciously talk to a mental health worker. i'm left with the effects of constant gagging and for a week i had random chest pains.

no i'm not happy i survived but i had to clear it up.

Welcome back
Was there any pain/discomfort during the attempt, Did you pass out?