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timetodie24
Enlightened
- Apr 14, 2023
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It's always people saying the same recycled, meaningless statements like 'oh it's permanent solution to temporary problem' , 'you just want to escape the pain not die' , 'if only you knew people care' etc.
But it's not that simple. It's not a temporary problem, it's many problems with myself some of which are lifelong. I don't want to escape any pain- I deserve to suffer until I die, I don't want to be happy, want my death to hurt too. It's not that I want to escape a feeling or situation, I just don't want to live at all. Nothing I want out to life. I know people care, yes some people will grieve me but at the same time, a huge burden is lifted.
But it's not that simple. It's not a temporary problem, it's many problems with myself some of which are lifelong. I don't want to escape any pain- I deserve to suffer until I die, I don't want to be happy, want my death to hurt too. It's not that I want to escape a feeling or situation, I just don't want to live at all. Nothing I want out to life. I know people care, yes some people will grieve me but at the same time, a huge burden is lifted.
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