Has your physical or mental health condition made you a stronger or weaker person in the end?

[calebzz1]

Hey all, I wanted to make this post surrounding the question I proposed.

For myself, visual impairment has helped with this in a lot of ways.

Even though my life is substantially more difficult, these are the benefits that have made myself stronger.

1. I'm not a people pleaser anymore.

2. I have to be grateful for everything due to the huge impact on my daily function.

3. I realize that I don't need people in my life and can be independent with no worries.

4. I learned that I can handle blindness at this point given the severity of what I experience and I'm very adaptable.

5. I let go and realize that I don't have a lot of control over my situation.

5b. I don't have to be a "hero" and do so much for others while I'm barely functional at best myself.

5c. If people are unhappy with my situaiton, they are more than welcome to step in and do something.

Contrastly, here's how my condition has made myself weaker.

1. I have little patience for people and don't like conversating in person anymore.

1b. I'm a bit more selfish but it's for an altrustic reason which I will describe below.

1c. If I am cured or get a significant improvement I can go back to the life I want to live and continue working, learning how to drive in addition to going back to college.

2. My personality is pragmatic and practical.

2a. I can't relax like a normal person since my mind is constantly racing on how to become more functional.

3. I'm not very empathetic anymore because I realized that I've been helping people for so long yet I've obtained little to no improvement regarding my medical situation.

3b. I'm trying to work on softening my personality and being like these positive blind people but it's very difficult consdering what I have to deal with daily.

For my overall situation, it's been quite difficult realizing that I will be stuck with this curse for a while.

Here's a list of diagnoses that were provided after my second neuro-ophthalmologist appointment.

https://i.postimg.cc/8cP2FtGz/Symptom_list_from_appointment_with_second_neuro_ophthalmologist.png

Also, here's the bombshell disability letter that he wrote after I was disapproved for a treatment (OR Botox) that I thought would help.

https://i.postimg.cc/h461dkyP/Disability_letter_edited_from_second_neuro_ophthalmologist.png

I was grateful to get this but reading it was difficult due to the finality.

There's only a handful of routes I can take now which is why I'm going for disability benefits but still feel barely functional day to day which is a terrible feeling.

Thanks for reading!

 

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A lot of conditions seem to both have major benefits and downsides for people

Personally, I think that overall I have the capability to be a far stronger person in the end, but that result only comes from significant changes in medication and lots of mental reformation.
A combination of Autism, ADHD, Bipolar, etc, have made me an absolute scatterbrain, however with medication I've found that I am far more capable than a neurotypical person in certain aspects.
Without medication, I am:
Depressed
Anxious
Constantly having mood swings
And much more
However, with medication, I am able get sh** done faster and more accurately than my peers.
With medication, I feel stable, happy, grounded
My mother described it as "Better living through chemistry" back when I was a kid, and she's right. If someone as mentally f***d as I am is going to live in THIS world, then they need all the help they can get. I think meds for bipolar and depression can make a great change in someone's life, as long as those are the chemicals that person's brain needs to function "properly".