Discussion Has this forum helped you not commiting suicide?

[birthdaylastwish]

This is a genuine question i have. Has this forum helped you chose life instead of ctb? If Yes, how?

 

[Redacted24]

For myself, I'd rephrase the question somewhat.
I haven't chosen life.
However, finding this site has given me perspective and insight that the struggles that are driving me to an early exit are not unique to me.
Before coming here, I couldn't interact with others with candor for fear of repercussions of many types. Even hinting at mental distress was problematic.

Since I've been here, I've found comfort and support and empathy. I don't feel alone in my thoughts. I feel a member of a community of like- minded people. And that is a genuine boost.

No, I haven't chosen life. But I'm bearing it somewhat better most days because of being here. I'm able to kick that final decision down the road for another day.

I'm grateful for everyone in this site. Even the grumpy ones (you know who you are!)

 

[CatLvr]

@Redacted24 said exactly what I am thinking. It's not so much I've changed my mind as it is perspectives here have shown me other ways to deal with my issues. That and my son is back in my life. I've mentioned before that I would die for him. That also means I will live for him -- no matter how bad things get for me.

Edit: spelling error

 

[reverieheart]

I originally planned to CTB in August this year. Since then, I've decided to move to another country and give life another chance. If you ask me... Yes, I'm still suicidal. But I've come to see it as just another part of my life. This is the only community I trust with such a fragile topic.

 

[onthefence]

Kind of…. In that I have been warned that my method may not be effective so I'm a bit more hesitant to do it.

 

[oneeyed]

It's been more informational. Prevented certain failure of an attempt. I know the general public thinks we're monsters but I believe it's helped people not try methods that are certain to fail and have the person end up worst off and feeling more suicidal.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

i think moreso it provides a place to not have to restrain oneself and pretend that things are fine when they're not. for some people, just talking openly about being actively suicidal without the fear that the police will be called on them or being flooded with toxic positivity can take pressure off at least.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My reason for staying alive is to hold on until my Dad goes first. If I'm honest, my longer-term intention is still to leave early.

But yes, this forum has given me an incredible amount of support. A sense of community. Somewhere I felt able to express things that would simply worry the crap out of my friends and family- which would be pointless, seeing as there's nothing they could do to help me. It provides me with distraction too. It makes my waiting time here more bearable and less lonely.

So, I'm massively grateful for this place. I only wish that journalists and the like who insist on reporting on it would consider that side of it too.

I doubt I'd let anyone 'save' me now regardless. I'd most likely courteously push away any attempts to. So, I also value this space for being able to express how I feel without receiving a bunch of shallow platitudes in response.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

When I made my account here I was totally desperate, very suicidal and I also had a method prepared (CO). I was alone and broken after a big failure in life but this great community helped a lot to go through the worst times I had.

My life is basically over yet it's still too good to end it. CTB is always an option.

 

[ConfusedClouds]

I agree with most the sentiments already said. The sense of community - hearing things that resonate and helping me build my communication skills when I fail so bad irl. Also awareness of methods and broadly how unreliable most are. Or realistically how bad the consequences are for failure rather than so much the actual risk of survival.

 

[Sutter]

Silent.

Had a thought and instead found an appreciation, a little awe, and a silence as I read through.

If I had a birthday last wish this was one Iwould have missed. So, will look to redact my thoughts 24 times when pondering the reverie heart of a forever sleeping cat lover that's sitting on the fence with one eye glaring at the manic street beeper thinking it is better to die, as confused clouds roll by overhead. Let it be known some thank yous are a mouthful and better left silent.

 

[Life_and_Death]

personally no. even reminds me why i should sometimes.
theres the occasional "gem among the rubble", but its rare.

 

[slightoverlooked]

yes and no. just made me consider postponing but life is just a bitch so i keep going back and forth idk.

 

[birthdaylastwish]

Thanks everybody for your replies.