It did up until this month or mid last month, I guess. As of late, I've embraced the mentality of enjoying watching the world burn. But at one point I had a rope set up in my closet and had everything ready to go. Couldn't go through with it because my partner was guilt tripping me hardcore and I was worried what would happen to my pets after I passed.
But to be honest, the fact that everyone is starting to call out this bullshit does make me feel slightly better. I was calling it in like the first week and no one took me seriously. Burned a few bridges on that one, but whatever. As far as I'm concerned, they're now getting what they deserve so... I'll eat popcorn and watch the fireworks.
And yeah, I also really hate those stupid feel good messages: alone together, safe at home, blah blah. It really just makes me wish I could create corona mist bombs and distribute them. Whatever you want me to do, I assure you, that's the quickest way to get me to do the opposite.
What stopped me from CTB'ing was, wait for it... joining a radical right-wing group on social media. (My state is overwhelmingly liberal, otherwise it wouldn't have such a strict quarantine.) They liked my satirical, dark-humored anti-government posts on their group page, and invited me to their illegally-hosted party. I had a blast at the party, and became good friends with them, which I totally didn't expect. I've been seeing them once every few weeks ever since: we took a road trip to the next state once, and had a backyard barbecue at one person's house. In other words, I got my social life back, albeit with different people than before. It felt so good to be in the company of my fellow conservatives, that I don't want to CTB anymore.
Oi man, this is basically my situation- liberal strict quarantine. That sounds dope! I've been longing for something similar to replace my social life, but I'm not on social media so it's been hard to even figure out when the freaking protests around here are. Kudos to you!
The folks making these lockdown calls really don't seem to understand how important that human connection is. I saw an article advising single people who live alone and are starving for contact to hug a pillow. A fucking pillow.