Discussion Has lockdown increased your suicidal thoughts?

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

It hasn't been the main factor but its contributed. Being stuck in an abusive household 24 hours a day doesnt do me or my mental health any favours. The thought of going into another lockdown in the UK just terrifies me.

I am so sorry you are stuck in an abusive situation during lockdown. I wish I could help you.

 

[purplesmoothie]

I'm in a mental health facility. Normally it wouldnt be locked, and I could visit my family for days if I wanted. But because of covid it's been locked.

 

[Spitfire]

Yup. This pandemic has really brought attention to the third world aspects of the US.

I can think of at least one huge asshole of a problem the USA has right now. Guess who?

I wasn't suicidal before lockdown and it's only the last couple of months I've started wanting to ctb.

It's really because I have no income apart from a little money from govt, I think covid is here to stay forever and over the next few months there will be tens of thousands losing their jobs, making it impossible for most to find work since the economy is being smashed up.

I also believe they are doing that deliberately, for "the great reset" - using this as the mechanism to achieve the reset, which will usher in a new system of government control and loss of freedoms, plus whatever other bad stuff comes with it.

Nothing else makes sense - the virus is not going away, we can't keep locked down forever, and they know the economy and peoples lives are about to be wrecked, so why do it?

I do believe they'll extend the furlough and will announce that probably early next week.

My thoughts.. There are some slimy bastards sitting around right now rubbing their greedy little hands together thinking of all the money to be made from off viruses now... If you know what I mean?

Why do you think the virus isn't going away? I mean, a vaccine is on its way.

Is the regular flu still here? And after how long, with plenty of time for herd immunity and those antibodies being already within the populations, and vaccines...

Because a vaccine might not be possible, and even if it is the virus will mutate like the flu does. So covid will not go away, it's here forever now.

It is not going anywhere. I did just a little research on the subtleties... Just my opinion of course.

 

[LonelyNick]

That's kinda fucked imo. You have the right to "complain" about your worsening condition. And if they think it's so annoying, have they tried to help you with the issue?

It's super fucked, I took care of my ex last year when they had their surgery but as soon as I got sick they cheated on me and fucked off. My friends can't do anything, where I live it's impossible to get pain meds, so I've been in pain forever. I'm just so done with 2020

 

[melancholy_lily]

Yes absolutely. I sought out this site in April, I had casually thought about ctb but lockdown implications made it a serious thought for the first time. "Two weeks to slow the spread" was a lie and millions of people are going to suffer in other ways for a long time, I don't want to be part of it. I feel a little better now but still ready to get off this ride.

 

[Lmd]

Luckily none of my closed ones had problems or struggles dealing with covid so I spent too much time with my friends online. Also I can go to places that usually are crowded and now are almost empty and enjoy them. I've spent a lot of time outside (respecting the health rules of course) enjoying a cool weather and doing long walks so for me these months have been like a please break from a boring life.

 

[Breadbfra]

I can think of at least one huge asshole of a problem the USA has right now. Guess who?



My thoughts.. There are some slimy bastards sitting around right now rubbing their greedy little hands together thinking of all the money to be made from off viruses now... If you know what I mean?



Is the regular flu still here? And after how long, with plenty of time for herd immunity and those antibodies being already within the populations, and vaccines...



It is not going anywhere. I did just a little research on the subtleties... Just my opinion of course.

Yes but quoting the flu makes my point. The flu killed thousands and thousands everyday, we built herd immunity over the years, and it mutates really fast (Covid doesn't). I mean it will become like a normal virus circulating one day, by 2022 for sure.

 

[dec132013]

Lockdown actually somewhat helped me, (but i've also been willingly isolating myself in my room for the past 10 years) Now that I'm back at work and dumb people keep breakin safety rules and don't listen to me its gettin bad again

 

[Wayfaerer]

If not for the news and my school moving to online classes, I never even would've known there was a pandemic.

 

[Meditation guide]

I was good until lockdown and covid came. The title says it all honestly.

I would still drag my broken body and spirit out into the world before covid to do little errands. I would buy a large coffee at Starbucks and sit outside at a table, alone of course, and sip it for about an hour every day and watch people walking on the sidewalk. If I was really lucky, someone pleasant would sit down with me and chat briefly in a polite way.
That's over with. I'm housebound now. I don't want to risk getting covid.

 

[Adamsnolife]

It hasn't been the main factor but its contributed. Being stuck in an abusive household 24 hours a day doesnt do me or my mental health any favours. The thought of going into another lockdown in the UK just terrifies me.

And the way it's going we'll be in another one soon enough which will be a pisstake

 

[Spitfire]

Yes but quoting the flu makes my point. The flu killed thousands and thousands everyday, we built herd immunity over the years, and it mutates really fast (Covid doesn't). I mean it will become like a normal virus circulating one day, by 2022 for sure.

I am sorry, I could probably discuss this topic with you ad nauseam. It is all very interesting to me. I am not wanting to get into all of that here though.. already been done on a science and health forum.

It appears they are very different from one another in their transmisability, attack rate, Ro factor, incidence, latency, illness, immunity, etc...

This and the flu are very different disease causing viruses. I agree they are not even remotely close to one another when it comes to the way in which they mutate, absolutely.

It sounds like you and I agree on the possibilities of elimination and eradication of SARS-CoV-2, which was my point in using the flu.

Either way, I know it is not the best comparison.

 

[muffin222]

No. For me, "lockdown" was just a normalization of the lifestyle of isolation I'd already been living for months and months prior

 

[Panna]

Loving it, being around people in any capacity causes unneeded stress. Before coming home, it was stay in the apartment until 9 or 10 and just enjoying the nightlife on repeat. I understand that some people need that human interaction in order to cope but I just don't get it. You can't feel bad or troubled by the things that people might say, and you cant have bad feelings from even a innocent interaction with someone else because it never happens.

 

[Mr2005]

It's not the cause of it or anything it's just made me think if ever there was a time to do it it's now

 

[Bagger]

Everything lockdown did for me was making me happy. I've seen people who do bad stuff to me break like a glass by it, i've seen suffering of my enemies, they were forced to live like me in the past, and i'm feelin very good after that show.

 

[Choronzon]

In some ways, as a persistent depressive, I was better situated than more normal friends to cope with it. But I changed jobs (probably for the better, but still hella stressful), and my partner of 11 years broke up with me, and I had to move to a tiny apartment, where there is constant noise and I can't sleep well. And I really, really do not handle "feeling trapped" well. I really have nothing keeping me here anymore.

 

[DeathNoot]

No, I'm already agoraphobic there's no difference... a part of me was kinda happy cause suddenly my life was normal lol. But mostly I feel bad for those who are really struggling because of it.

 

[Misfit72]

It'll be the straw that broke the camel's back, that's for sure. While I'm a loner and been long-term unemployed, I knew that being around other people and finding a job were possibilities, however remote, and at least they were options for other people, but not having the option of going out for the day and meeting people is demoralising. And so too is the prospect of not being able to have a proper funeral, not for my sake but those left behind.

 

[sadworld]

No, I'm happy if i don't see anyone

 

[Blueman]

It'll be the straw that broke the camel's back, that's for sure. While I'm a loner and been long-term unemployed, I knew that being around other people and finding a job were possibilities, however remote, and at least they were options for other people, but not having the option of going out for the day and meeting people is demoralising. And so too is the prospect of not being able to have a proper funeral, not for my sake but those left behind.

Yes this is a dreadful time to be unemployed.
I'm not a loner but am beginning to feel like one as the restrictions and my depression are meaning very few friend meet ups

 

[death137]

Its the opposite Covid made me feel a little better.

 

[deadwithoutmusic]

I was already isolated and with covid I was like double isolated and it did make me feel much worse. I am out of lockdown where I am now and probably at my worst, I think covid had an effect on me but now that it's pretty much gone here I still feel terrible but how I'm feeling now has to do with a lot of other things in my life. Covid really distrupted my life and might be why I'm such a mess now.

 

[Futile]

No, it changed nothing for me