Discussion Has joining SaSu helped you feel calmer or less likely to commit CTB?

[middlelord]

For me, it made me less anxious everytime i open the forum. Made me realize there's others that's in a similar position as i am.

Informed me about methods, about taking time to make sure that it's the right decision and not make rushed action.

 

[broken_stoic]

It has helped me immeasurably in feeling like I could find a solid way out in case I want it and helped me feel less alone. Overall probably less likely to ctb, but also more able to have a peaceful way out if I do.

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

Yes, here I have love, understanding, support and freedom of expression. I love you and sasu

 

[SomewhatLoved]

I don't feel more or less suicidal, but I think it's made my suicidality feel less emotional and more logical. I think this place has helped me understand what suicide is to a deeper extent and how it can occur successfully. I now know how unpleasant and complicated it is. I think something that is true of most things in life, is that when you look at something from an outside perspective it will often seem more simple and straightforward than it is. After joining SaSu, my perspective on suicide has become more dreadful.

 

[threevoices]

absolutely. the kindness and compassion i have received on here has far exceeded what a lot of my closest friends have been willing to give me, and with the bonus of not having to worry about burdening anyone. this is all i ever really needed tbh, and the lack of this and how alone i felt was the only thing that made me want to ctb honestly

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm still here mainly because of the timing, not being right to ctb. SaSu has been here for me regardless, which helped in really dark days, and over time I find myself in a different space now. Maybe calmer, more informed and better prepared for what may very well still be the only and ultimate way out.

 

[nobody_oac]

After reading the NY Times article, I had to know more. After looking for information on CTB, I started to lurk around the different forums. So many good people here dealing with the same thing I am, and it helped me feel less alone and misunderstood. I have deleted far more than I have actually posted, but I'm warming up and realizing this place is for me. CTB is still on my mind a lot, but this place gave me a sliver of hope.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

It's helped me lessen the urgency to ctb, dig into my motivations and reasons while having people to empathize and relate to. I really like this community.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I was already low risk of ctb to begin with but being here makes me even lower risk and, in some sick way, helps me see life in such a more beautiful way.

It also helps that I have an ear, 24/7, all over the world. Can't really find that anywhere else.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I always wanted to wait for my Dad to go before I do so- it's made no difference in that regard. It absolutely does help me to get through the days though.

I don't think people acknowledge that it isn't easy to talk about this stuff in real life. Plenty of people may like to think they're supportive but truly, they don't want to hear about this day after day.

I think there's maybe this weird assumption that if we don't talk about it, we don't feel it but, I don't think that's the case at all. Especially if it's become very prevalent in our lives. To go looking for suicide resources suggests that it has become a major issue to me. Not one you can probably just sweep under the carpet and forget about.