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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I guess, maybe. Myself hating my body and assigned sex wiped out my motivation to take care of myself. Haven't showered in 2 weeks and wore the same shirt for just as long. Oh well.
 
theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,188
What do you mean what happened? Do you mean why am I bedbound? If so, it's because I have a chronic illness called myalgic encephalomyelitis - ME for short.

Its a complex, multi-system, chronic medical condition. I have very severe ME. It's a living death!
Yes, I want to know what happened to you

Oh, I'm sorry... it must be terrible.
 
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achromatic

achromatic

hedgehog dilemma
Oct 18, 2022
142
Checks out all of the above
 
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ShatteredSoul

ShatteredSoul

She dwells with Beauty-Beauty that must die.
Jan 11, 2022
67
What do you mean what happened? Do you mean why am I bedbound? If so, it's because I have a chronic illness called myalgic encephalomyelitis - ME for short.

Its a complex, multi-system, chronic medical condition. I have very severe ME. It's a living death!
Absolutely is a living death! I say this all the time, we're living a very slow death. Also have shitty neurological tremors and awful fibromyalgia.
 
Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
i just post a random thread, saying my room smells like chicken farmer plant.
Smoke cigarettes alot too.
Forget often to drink water.
Yeah my clothes smells of cigarettes too and the list goes on.
 
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Cantbereal

Student
Mar 20, 2022
189
Yes as its painful to do anything. Ever since my gi tract gave out I do nothing maybe brush teeth. I'm suffering so badly.
 
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Wannabehappy

Wannabehappy

Member
Nov 29, 2022
39
Yes, but only halfway. I know that there are a few people at my job who are worried about me, who know that I am going through a difficult period at the moment and who are watching what is happening to me and what I am like. I try to keep up appearances, not to draw attention to myself so as not to worry anyone. A game of appearances so that no one would worry or inquire. I play for time to put the vigilance of others to sleep when my last day comes.
 
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almaranthine

almaranthine

Wizard
Nov 28, 2019
615
yesterday i wore yoga pants to work that go just past the knee. today when i was putting on my shoes i realized that my leg hair is so out of control that my bottom half could probably be mistaken for that of a banshee
this happened to me one time at my last job and I went to the stock room and shaved my exposed leg with one of those dermaplaning razors I happened to have in my purse lol 😅
 
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ryo the frog

ryo the frog

I'm in your house
Jun 27, 2022
71
fortunately i'm really well on hygiene. the worst is that i'll skip one shower or not wash my face for a week, or i'll wear the same outfit back to back.
though with everything else I found a downside to this, a lot of times whenever im being sanitary it's just me procrastinating on something else.

obviously easier said than done but try to take care of yourselves, being dirty feels awful, why put yourself through more torment 😔
 
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Venus13

Venus13

Experienced
Oct 2, 2022
233
I don't dress or style myself any which way. I wear comfy clothes unless I'm at work, which I then wear whatever they deem acceptable. My clothing 9/10 times is grey for whatever psychological reason. I only make my hair presentable. I don't try to be cute about it.

My hygiene is high though. It calms me. I'm probably showering too much and soaping up too much. It's so soothing. I wish I could wash all of me inside and out.
 
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Pentobarbital_Plz

Pentobarbital_Plz

STOP HAVING KIDS!!!
Oct 28, 2022
275
It feels almost criminal to be a human and not maintain personal hygiene…

But it's SUCH a chore.

Wash your stinky armpits, wash your stinky asscrack…do an exceptional job. It might stink again in a few hours or a day.

Wash your clothes and your blankets, only for your body to soil and shed on the fabrics again, and again.

SWEAT! DEAD SKIN! HAIR! DISCHARGE! BLOOD! SALIVA! SNOT! POOP! FART! TEARS!

I hate living in this physical world.

We're so scared of germs and filth, but it's not like it's gonna kill us if we don't clean up. It will just be gRoSs and, if exposed, others will probably notice and think we are gRoSs.


I hate myself. I despise this stupid little body. I do not want it to thrive. I don't WANT to suffer, but it's hard to take care of something you fucking hate. I just want to kill it.

My sisters are high maintenance and it makes me feel even more like scum.
 
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Message In A Bottle

Message In A Bottle

I don’t need light. Please give me water
Apr 1, 2022
382
I do a mediocre job honestly… I try not to go over a week to shower - I keep my hair in a braid, and just wipe myself off periodically when need be. I've always hated bathing since I hate that cold feeling afterwards. Once I'm in there though, I'm obsessive about getting ALL dirt and dead skin off me - it's strange.

My lack of self care started to catch up with me though, cuz I have two cavities now from only brushing once a day - so to prevent any further visits from the dentist, I'm brushing 2-3 times.

It's just exhausting - and being a female your expected to shave too it's just all a hassle to keep up with the up keep. I know cleanliness is good, but I think we as a species go abit overboard.
 
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Wannagonow

Specialist
Nov 16, 2022
376
Yes. My mental health issues have always affected my hygiene. I am way too embarrassed to share details. Way too embarrassed.
 
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lamort

New Member
Apr 18, 2022
4
I shower multiple times a day because I feel gross. I hate the human body, all the fluids and whatever

Now, I only brush my teeth if I'm leaving the house for an appointment or smth like that, where I would have to speak to a person. My breath doesnt smell because I eat 24/7 basically, so no stomach smell. I'll finger brush it sometimes to not build up plaque
 
mateodolores

mateodolores

walking corpse
Dec 5, 2022
52
Yes. I brush my teeth once a day, wear baggy, worn-out clothes handed down to me and I don't care how they look on me, and I barely wash my hair until I can't go without washing it anymore. I do make an effort to clean myself every day (though it's difficult because we've been prohibited from using the shower) and I try to keep my spaces tidy, but it's difficult when all I have on my mind is the end.

Does exercise and eating right also count as hygiene? If so, I also failed at those factors.
 
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
When a man or woman is in enough pain, hygiene is not an issue of paramount importance.