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kurikaesu

kurikaesu

"the gods have abandoned us"
Mar 15, 2026
9
the last time i cut myself was at the end of January, and i haven't done so since then until today. During this month-ish period i've felt the urge to cut when i feel excited about future events or maybe really happy about something i just watched or heard, etc.

does anyone else experience these urges? is it normal to want to cut when i'm excited?
 
A

Aplev

not sure what to put here?
Oct 16, 2021
141
Mmm I have self-harmed for many different reasons. Normal? I don't know, though most would probably say not. But still what happened to me. So still no reason to invalidate my reasons.
 
discoelysiumplayer

discoelysiumplayer

VOLITION: I want the same bad things you want.
Mar 16, 2026
10
not sure if it's normal but i've had that since i started around 12 (almost 21 now), i used to do it as a performance for my friends then it developed into my own ritual, i would feel euphoric doing it and i liked the way it hurt. my unprofessional guess is that it might have something to do with the way the brain starts associating it with being happy
 
kovinskin

kovinskin

Member
Mar 15, 2026
24
i dont think its too strange tbh. i often cut at my happiest, when i have that slight adrenaline rush especially. thoughts about cutting myself are actually most rampant when im happy.
 

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