Discussion Has anyone ever made you feel crazy having these thoughts?

[NotSoComfortablyNumb]

Has anyone ever tried to CTB and when you're friends and family find out, they treat you like a psychopath. Surely everyone has bad thoughts sometimes :(

Has anyone ever tried to CTB and when you're friends and family find out, they treat you like a psychopath. Surely everyone has bad thoughts sometimes :(

I tried to CTB two days ago and I got stopped. But now everyone is walking around on eggshells. It's really peeing me off

 

[NotSoComfortablyNumb]

Sorry I'm just looking for advice on daily suicidal thoughts. They go around and around and consume all my energy. I'm so tired. Been awake for 63 hours. I'm over it

 

[Verklempt]

I'm sorry that they're treating you like this. They just don't understand how you feel. "Normal" people see suicide as an outrages thing to do. Have you though of a way to speak to them on how you feel? Or, seek out for help? My pm is always open if you would like to chat and I know there are many lovely people here who would love to listen. Don't blame yourself, try to see the good in things. Do something small each day that makes you feel good. I wish you the best. -hugs-

 

[NotSoComfortablyNumb]

I'm sorry that they're treating you like this. They just don't understand how you feel. "Normal" people see suicide as an outrages thing to do. Have you though of a way to speak to them on how you feel? Or, seek out for help? My pm is always open if you would like to chat and I know there are many lovely people here who would love to listen. Don't blame yourself, try to see the good in things. Do something small each day that makes you feel good. I wish you the best. -hugs-

Thank you! I appreciate that. Because I'm in a lot of pain physically and emotionally, I have idealation. They don't understand. It's not like I'm choosing to feel this way. I even booked a counselling session for tomorrow. CTB can always be my plan if all else fails but I do wanna get better. I don't have any kids or a partner. Just broke up after 7years of DV. Im 28! I haven't really lived ya know

 

[Azzy69]

They aren't aware about any of my attempts, but my parents did find out that I wanted to hang myself when I was 14. After that they treated me like a 'psycho' so to say. They stopped trusting me, and 5 years later, they still don't. God it sucks. I have been in your shoes. If you feel overwhelmed you can message me at anytime

 

[JustVisiting]

Thank you! I appreciate that. Because I'm in a lot of pain physically and emotionally, I have idealation. They don't understand. It's not like I'm choosing to feel this way. I even booked a counselling session for tomorrow. CTB can always be my plan if all else fails but I do wanna get better. I don't have any kids or a partner. Just broke up after 7years of DV. Im 28! I haven't really lived ya know

See the counselor!! You have been through so much but you can recover. Please don't give in just yet.

 

[Despondent]

I never attempted but surely when I was younger (than I am now), I had impulsive thoughts and decided to tell a friend. Long story short, my parents found out and I knew they were watching me like hawks I remember the night that they found out, a glass dish had broken in the sink and I tried to help them clean it up, but you could tell they didn't want me near it. They probably had the idea that I'd try to hurt myself when all I wanted to do was help. I look back and I feel embarrassed lmao I remember that day, I looked forward to it being a week later when everything would calm down and pass.

 

[Moonicide]

Not really crazy, but silenced and invalidated. I tried opening up to my boyfriend how much I've been struggling and he basically told me I needed to get it together. No warmth or comfort there. I stopped opening up to him after that.

 

[vodolazkiy12]

Has anyone ever tried to CTB and when you're friends and family find out, they treat you like a psychopath. Surely everyone has bad thoughts sometimes :(

I tried to CTB two days ago and I got stopped. But now everyone is walking around on eggshells. It's really peeing me off

I have. And they either stopped talking to me or told my I was psychotic among other things, but if they were in our shoes, bet they'd sing a different tune. Society has made ctb a taboo thing to do, but I don't think that they stop to think good, long and hard on how the person who just tried this, feels. They jump to name calling and judgements. Which angers me sometimes.