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Jul 3, 2022
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I'm starting to think that the partnerships never actually happen in actuality...
 
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8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
Yes why
I've been looking for almost months and can't figure it out, strangely it's never been to the ctb , but I also think why
Something always comes up, either he doesn't answer or gives the wrong number,
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
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I know of a partnership that happened in October or November, a young couple, but it does seem rare. It appears to have gone as planned for them.
 
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Well-Edited Chaos

Well-Edited Chaos

Member
May 8, 2022
178
I'm starting to think that the partnerships never actually happen in actuality...
I think the challenges with that are finding someone in the same place physically (or willing & able to travel), in about the same place in their CTB journey, with method issues resolved. Then you have to get to trust them (enough) to involve them in an intensely personal decision. And all that's assuming nothing happens that accelerates either timeline, or bumps someone off the CTB path.
 
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Jul 3, 2022
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I think I'll just do it alone and chat on here during. A partnership would be great, but there are so many variables to juggle. The only thing is I'm not the most practical of people so I'm worried I'll mess up the method, but with enough study I'm sure I'll be fine.
 
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8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
I'm not losing hope, maybe I'll find a suitable ctb partner that would be ideal and I can't do it alone
 
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london3

london3

Banned Scammer
May 5, 2022
584
I'm starting to think that the partnerships never actually happen in actuality...

Partnerships do happen but they are rare, maybe 1 or 2 out of 10 people might physically meet up is my guess. There are far too many pitfalls i feel that is why i decided against face to face meetings, laws, trust issues etc.

It is very hard to meet up with strangers or having to build up the relationship enough so you can finally meet for a lot of people here. Actually finding someone is very hard in terms of your ideal location, gender, age etc

I think you will have more luck partnering up online with exchanging messages, live chat or maybe video call etc if you are looking for company or support on the day you decide to ctb.
 
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8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
Partnerships do happen but they are rare, maybe 1 or 2 out of 10 people might physically meet up is my guess. There are far too many pitfalls i feel that is why i decided against face to face meetings, laws, trust issues etc.

It is very hard to meet up with strangers or having to build up the relationship enough so you can finally meet for a lot of people here. Actually finding someone is very hard in terms of your ideal location, gender, age etc

I think you will have more luck partnering up online with exchanging messages, live chat or maybe video call etc if you are looking for company or support on the day you decide to ctb.
yes you are right in the media you hear again and again that people on the internet have made an appointment for a joint CTB the media turns a fly into an elephant of course there are such traps but they are very rare that doesn't mean you could meet here , one only says they meet on the internet, they actually have known each other for years from psychiatric clinics and then agreed on the internet, which is what everyone has these days. always think that everything is possible. I think that 80% in the partner thread only theory can be good if you have known each other here for a long time you come from the same city that you agree on a CTB that already exists but I very rarely think so on the fly

it's just my theory, i can be wrong im not god
 
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I suppose I just have to be patient.1 out of 10 meeting up isn't terrible odds. Hopefully I will find someone in the UK.
 
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madebrief

Experienced
Jul 4, 2022
250
I think I would love to, and maybe wouldn't mind partnering up. As london333 said, there are many pitfalls and high level of trust is needed for this to work out well.
 
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8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
i will be patient too and hope one day i find someone it's hard to do it alone
 
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xo777

are we almost there?
Apr 5, 2022
170
They happen.
I kind of want one now just because going alone seems terrifying
 
london3

london3

Banned Scammer
May 5, 2022
584
I suppose I just have to be patient.1 out of 10 meeting up isn't terrible odds. Hopefully I will find someone in the UK.
New people are joining every day and many people are lurking so it is definitely worth it to make a post regularly in the partners thread and you may get lucky.

Since joining i have had many people that want to meet up face to face but i am wary and said no.

Several others wanted me to video call or phone them but this way you will risk revealing your identity outside the forum, i feel you could even be talking to a journalist or the police so i am slightly paranoid. Especially in the UK you could be arrested for encouraging suicide so it is a risk for me.

I have messaged and done live chat with several people on the day they have ctb like @TrynaChingMyself and @crystalskies31 and supported them in their last moments and a lot of people found comfort in this. Obviously this is nothing like having a partner with you when you die but this is the situation we are in with the laws etc and taboo around suicide.

I do not mind being a text partner for people if they want on the day, also having a goodbye thread will help many people in their time of need and there are many kind members of this forum that can give reassurance etc.

Good luck to everyone and i hope you find a partner soon.
 
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Hope:-)

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Jul 3, 2022
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I would be more willing to do n alone than sn...if only I could get it. Ha.

Edited too add: please keep pming me guys. Got a lot of interest but nothing concrete. If you have n all the better. I'm also open to sn. Don't think I'm open to any other method.
 
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Mr. Incapable

Mr. Incapable

Also inadequate, incompetent, weak & powerless
Jun 21, 2022
175
I wish I could meet someone nearby who has a car and everything to do CO in the car whether that was charcoal or chemical but I don't know if I would be able to trust they're who they say they are.. I would hate to be part of some set up where they're trying to catch and prevent people from CTB or finding partners online.. and if they were a real partner looking to CTB I would be concerned whether they really wanted to die or they were just acting and thinking impulsively because something bad happened in their life.. I don't know. I also wouldn't want their family to blame me thinking I was the 'mastermind' or I convinced their son/daughter/brother/partner/whoever to do take their life. I have a heavy conscience.
 
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Hope:-)

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Jul 3, 2022
1,120
^^^ I know what you mean. If I had someone who already had n and wanted to go through with it with me, that would be great.
May take people up on opportunity to text, be joined on a thread etc at the time.

Also, yes, if I survive I may be blamed by their family but that is the nature of grief. I'd know it wouldn't be my fault because I never push anyone into anything on here and I would only do with it people who had been planning for a while. My family personally would not really care about my passing so I'm fortunate in that respect.
If anyone has n and wants to share btw please do contact me. I have talked with one person in this situation but they live in America. Not ideal, plus I need the motivation to actually go which is hard when you're down, but considering it.
 
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Lost21

Student
Sep 24, 2018
187
I have been trying to partner up for years with no luck. If any one is in Canada I am available
 
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eve2004

DEAD YESTERDAY
Aug 17, 2019
578
It's hard to know who to trust. The other issue is if you share stuff, or if one fails, there's some legal implications... I mean even dating sites have a similar problem... For me I'd like to say I'd had coffee with someone for at least 6 months before I could say I trusted them but then again, being desperate... It is SO SO HARD to do this.
 
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Lily (Osako)

Lily (Osako)

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
381
I'm starting to think that the partnerships never actually happen in actuality...
I was asked/offered once, my first day here.
But I think they wanted to go immediately and in a manner I'm not comfortable with.
I'd love to find someone I can trust, build a relationship with (not romantically) and go together.
But it seems like we are all floating in the same ocean, but on different boats, heading to the same destination, but taking different paths.
Does that make sense?
 
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emgrl

Mage
Aug 6, 2022
575
I was asked/offered once, my first day here.
But I think they wanted to go immediately and in a manner I'm not comfortable with.
I'd love to find someone I can trust, build a relationship with (not romantically) and go together.
But it seems like we are all floating in the same ocean, but on different boats, heading to the same destination, but taking different paths.
Does that make sense?
Makes perfect sense…
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
They were a couple people in Germany who did meet up. Another person I know in Europe found somebody but changed their mind At the last minute.
 
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Still Flutter Girl

Still Flutter Girl

An alphabet soup of pain, pain, and more pain
Jun 13, 2022
26
I for one am a solitary person, and while it gets lonely at times, I'm glad that I don't have the urge to be with someone in person. It would freak me out to have the other person go first, OR to go first and have the other person possibly try to save me.

Worst would be ending up in a hotel with someone else that successfully CTB, if I failed.

I'd much rather schedule a goodbye thread…I just wish I knew more people on here. So many people that seemed awesome have already left, and I'm shy about initiating conversation with others that I see as "popular" (especially since I'm autistic, and only other autistics & autistic/ADHD peeps tend to "get" me).

I don't want to spend my final moments trying to get neurotypicals to understand me, as I've already done for 4 decades.

I do hope I luck out with being able to chat with some other folks, at the end…but that's coming up soon.
 
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CemetryGates

CemetryGates

𝔅𝔢𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔩𝔡𝔰
Apr 10, 2022
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I would like to meet the right person in the UK who I could ctb with. It's hard to get to that point of trust though.
 
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S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,564
It happens,it happened to me,we met up etc... but the person that were with me stepped back just one min before we were about to do it.
It's not just about finding someone but it's very important that this person want it too as you in the same moment...this is the hard thing.
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
I met a guy off here in real life some time before the lockdowns. He happened to be in my city and we were going to go out together but I just wasn't ready yet. He ended up finding me attractive and wanted to be intimate but I really wasn't feeling it the same way. He reached out to me again April of 2021 and we were going to go out together, but again I backed out the night we were supposed to go. He ended up following thru in his high rise apartment with N. I don't remember his name on here. I wish I had gone out with him. Life only got worse since then. He was awake to everything that is coming politically and didn't want to see the country decline as they bring us closer to a system where we will own nothing and are expected to be happy.
 
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old red eyes

Student
Aug 12, 2022
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I would like to meet the right person in the UK who I could ctb with. It's hard to get to that point of trust though.
do you have a method in mind ?
I would like to meet the right person in the UK who I could ctb with. It's hard to get to that point of trust though.
do you have a method in mind ?
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
I'd love to find someone I can trust, build a relationship with (not romantically) and go together.
But it seems like we are all floating in the same ocean, but on different boats, ....
Does that make sense?
Your description is perfect. We are floating in the same ocean...

I have thought about finding a partner to CTB. It takes trust and the willingness to be extremely vulnerable. I don't think it's like picking a travel buddy - CTB is probably one of the most personal things you can do. But trying to find someone that you can share that with you - or even the thought of that - is a massive level of trust that can't happen with a few emails back and forth. Yet I think it is worth a try too.
 
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Jimblue

Student
Sep 10, 2022
199
I wish I can find a CTB partner. I am not sure if any one nearby.
 
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Al0neAlwayz

In the end, it doesn't even matter...
Sep 10, 2022
65
I want a partner too. It would be nice to not die alone. I have messaged with a few ppl, but nothing really coming from it, they are too far away and I have tricky situation to deal with as far as traveling myself... I need someone in FL or who can come to FL and is serious. I thought I had found one, but he quit messaging me, lol...
 

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