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dying_kwik2000

dying_kwik2000

Member
Nov 1, 2025
70
I feel like I can't get stuff down and work on myself because I've told myself I'm going to die just before the end of the year. Anyone else?
 
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LastNite

I love you!
Mar 31, 2025
692
Thats everyone here lol
 
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paradox_panic

paradox_panic

Member
Nov 1, 2025
19
I have lost alot of motivation recently, almost stuck just thinking of when, where, and with what has taken alot of my mental space. Its caused some issues with work and college, im just kinda going through the motions if that makes sense.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Broken beyond repair
Nov 1, 2025
265
I definitely feel the same way. Even my hobbies are affected due to the lack of motivation.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
122
Yeah, my motivation to do literally anything has hit rock bottom

I just... don't care lol.
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

Hate life but scared of death
Nov 6, 2025
251
ive been unemployed for well over half a year by now and ive completely lost all motivation to keep trying to find a job. figured id rather just die than keep fighting an uphill battle trying to find a job just so i can get paid barely enough to cover an insanely high rent for a pathetic studio apartment
 
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ginko0

ginko0

To be or not to be
May 8, 2025
203
Right there with you. I convinced myself, not sure how truthfully, that I'm leaving this planet around New Year's Eve. Now it's all about having the guts to do it, or it'll be just another year gone to waste.
 
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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

Not dead, just somewhere else
Oct 24, 2025
106
I've been struggling a lot recently with this lack of motivation much more intensely, even doing nothing at all seems too much for me; I start to freak out internally and spiral from how sickening it can get.

The loneliness especially gets to me, as everything and anything seems so hopelessly pointless anyways.
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,470
I feel like I can't get stuff down and work on myself because I've told myself I'm going to die just before the end of the year.
this is a good post. i think a lot of people outside of this site don't understand how suicidal ideation actually saps your will to do anything. i don't want to get up most days. or eat food. it's all boring and tiring and i wish that i didn't have to be alive to maintain my health. being young makes me feel like i'm never going to die because my body will bounce back from all the times i neglect it. i would rather lay in bed and fall in and out of consciousness for most of the day than actually try to feel good because at least i understand what the baseline feels like. i'm almost afraid of feeling other emotions, because i feel anxious about when something will make me sad again.

when i know that i'm going to be dead in 1 month or 2 months it's like, why am i still here if i'm only waiting to die? it makes me feel guilty for taking up space since i'm acting like a dead body.
 
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doomedforsure

i cant handle this shir
Oct 13, 2025
60
yep its been 3 years that i didnt do anything at all. 0 motivation for limited life
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,105
Yes. I lost motivation to do most things a long time go. Now even doing every day chores like washing my clothes, preparing lunch and cleaning my apartment has become a hard task for me to perform. I lose more and more of my motivation to do things as the years advance.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
263
been doing nothing but rotting for years. can't even do basic hygiene anymore…
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
609
Yes, everything is pointless to me now.
 
enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
438
I no longer feel motivated to do ANYthing. It's not laziness, I just don't care anymore.
It's like.... what's the use. Everywhere I look I see nothing but insanity. I just want to leave.
 
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KenDuh

KenDuh

Student
Nov 1, 2025
109
I'm thinking about leaving uni, I just want to disappear, I feel horrible all the time and can't get anything done, I just want to die but I just end up sleeping
 
Jan1193

Jan1193

I want no limitations for my soul
Sep 18, 2023
80
I have no motivation for existing itself. I remember times when I felt better and do a lot of stuff so easily, but I don't remember what exactly motivatrs me or how was feel
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,592
Yeah. I def have to force everything I do, pretty much, even just going to store to get food. Definitely a struggle.
 

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