Marine
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- Jul 5, 2020
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It's really driving me insane how bad my forehead in particular has gotten in the past 2 years with the plandemic's wholesale destruction given how I haven't lived my youth yet and I need to rejuvenate no matter what in order to have any chance at becoming beautiful. I'm 32 right now and feel more like 25 at most...
And I sincerely think, like Howl, that there is no point in living if I can't be beautiful (not imposing that view on others, just how I feel), and that means young. I don't think there's anything superficial about caring about your incarnation AND the rest. It may not be important to everyone but it deeply is to me and that's perfectly legitimate. So I'm adressing people who understand that.
I'm actually getting more suicidal because of this and I don't want this to end me and take away any chance at living I may have.
Anti age products and beauty treatments aren't doing anything so far, I absolutely can't afford any plastic surgery or filler sadly.
My energy and finances are so low regular exercise is complicated, but I'll take suggestions if it helped. I was thinking of looking into Qi Gong maybe to re-ease into exercise but I'm still overwhelmed and barely functional because isolation, existential rejection and a toxic environment have made my bulimia spin out of control, so any kind of progress is extremely daunting because I'm so exhausted and brain fogged most of the time (therapists / doctors don't help btw). I still try to eat nutritionally dense foods whenever I can but I can't seem to sustain it or restriction yet and always go back to BS out of despair and exhaustion. I drink a lot of water though.
I ordered vegan collagen and a hyaluronic acid serum, I'm also thinking of buying face cups but since the main issue is extreme stress, and the only way I have to deal with that is essential oils, some things I like and the very occasional connection I get I feel like it should be targeted specifically but don't know how so if you have any positive experience in getting rid of stress caused oxydation I'd be extremely grateful !
And I sincerely think, like Howl, that there is no point in living if I can't be beautiful (not imposing that view on others, just how I feel), and that means young. I don't think there's anything superficial about caring about your incarnation AND the rest. It may not be important to everyone but it deeply is to me and that's perfectly legitimate. So I'm adressing people who understand that.
I'm actually getting more suicidal because of this and I don't want this to end me and take away any chance at living I may have.
Anti age products and beauty treatments aren't doing anything so far, I absolutely can't afford any plastic surgery or filler sadly.
My energy and finances are so low regular exercise is complicated, but I'll take suggestions if it helped. I was thinking of looking into Qi Gong maybe to re-ease into exercise but I'm still overwhelmed and barely functional because isolation, existential rejection and a toxic environment have made my bulimia spin out of control, so any kind of progress is extremely daunting because I'm so exhausted and brain fogged most of the time (therapists / doctors don't help btw). I still try to eat nutritionally dense foods whenever I can but I can't seem to sustain it or restriction yet and always go back to BS out of despair and exhaustion. I drink a lot of water though.
I ordered vegan collagen and a hyaluronic acid serum, I'm also thinking of buying face cups but since the main issue is extreme stress, and the only way I have to deal with that is essential oils, some things I like and the very occasional connection I get I feel like it should be targeted specifically but don't know how so if you have any positive experience in getting rid of stress caused oxydation I'd be extremely grateful !
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