Hard to have no-one

[justfloating]

in the past i have lost several friends because i talked about my suicidal thoughts and they couldn't handle it as they said they could, so they cut me from their lives. i had a therapist but you can't be completely honest because even though they are meant to help, suicide is such a taboo topic you can't.

in march i thought i got better, that i wasn't suicidal anymore and that everything would be fine. but since moving to uni i barely know anyone because of covid and i feel like I'm wasting my youth. i can't talk about this with anyone anymore because genuinely no-one cares, I've tried to initiate the conversation that I'm not doing okay but no-one is interested. my uni offer no mental health help, tho i don't think id take it even if they did because it wouldn't change anything.

i don't necessarily want to kill myself, i just don't want to exist.

life is pointless and empty so why would i want to be a part of it

 

[OopsIdidntwanttodie]

hi skmateboard, im sorry that you have been turned away by friends and its hard to get the help you need. I know what it's like to feel that way, and know that youre not alone. If you ever need someone to vent to or talk about how you're feeling I am here for you :) Feel free to PM me whenever.

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry that you feel like that. Yes, suicide is a really hard topic with anyone, it sucks that it is like that and I wish we could change that. Sending hugs!