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JamieJambo
Experienced
- Apr 17, 2022
- 202
The past few days I have hit rock bottom past my threshold point and so the appropriate response for me was to consider properly suicide.
The more I got to that point the more I realised it simply is not an option for me. This is for 2 reasons,
1 I believe our soul carries on, and if this is so, doing something violent to oneself, would lead to a pretty negative state of mind after death, probably a place of real fear and confusion
2 I think the reality of actually harming yourself so badly that you die, is one of the most grimmest ideas imaginable.
Its such a shame though, I really dont want to face that absolute mess that has become of my life.
Damned if I do damned if I dont
The more I got to that point the more I realised it simply is not an option for me. This is for 2 reasons,
1 I believe our soul carries on, and if this is so, doing something violent to oneself, would lead to a pretty negative state of mind after death, probably a place of real fear and confusion
2 I think the reality of actually harming yourself so badly that you die, is one of the most grimmest ideas imaginable.
Its such a shame though, I really dont want to face that absolute mess that has become of my life.
Damned if I do damned if I dont