wiinterfrost
it only gets worse..
- Oct 8, 2023
- 116
Hi so uh i'm just giving an update on my situation into the void, because someone on this site once inspired me, and idk i am just doing it okay
So a while ago, a few months ago i'd say, i decided that i'll be leaving this world by hanging.
My plans at first was SN, which uh didn't arrive (and also i am so broke that that is not an option anymore), then i thought about DWI (deep wrist injury, so cutting) but a quick post about that here and everyone was clamouring against it because it was said to be extremely unsuccessful and just messy and painful and i wouldn't want to survive with permanent damage to my hands/arms, gasp.
Someone suggested hanging and ugh hanging made me so squeamish and i couldn't bear the thought of it!
Then i tried to familiarise myself with it for the next few months because if i look at the logistics, all you really need is a rope and that is all. It's the simplest in terms of what materials you need. Most easily accessible.
Back in january i decided that i would die by hanging, and now looking into it and reading about it the last few days really is making me excited at the prospect and looking forward to it. Happy about my choice. I still get a little squeamish at the more in-detail accounts about things that can happen in your body but i think i know about enough.
Anyways all i need now is an actual rope lol (made a quick post about failing to get one here), and test out how it works with my neck and what knot will be best etc. My plan is to be in the lovely forest.
I've already written up dozens of suicide letters, all i need is to pick and choose and clean them up and make them accessible. I'll also need to get other minor affairs in order but the energy level is so low that i might just... not. I had already asked a person i know if they would be willing to sort my affairs if(when) i die.
Anyways, i think i'll just post further updates on that here if i do update on this (:
So a while ago, a few months ago i'd say, i decided that i'll be leaving this world by hanging.
My plans at first was SN, which uh didn't arrive (and also i am so broke that that is not an option anymore), then i thought about DWI (deep wrist injury, so cutting) but a quick post about that here and everyone was clamouring against it because it was said to be extremely unsuccessful and just messy and painful and i wouldn't want to survive with permanent damage to my hands/arms, gasp.
Someone suggested hanging and ugh hanging made me so squeamish and i couldn't bear the thought of it!
Then i tried to familiarise myself with it for the next few months because if i look at the logistics, all you really need is a rope and that is all. It's the simplest in terms of what materials you need. Most easily accessible.
Back in january i decided that i would die by hanging, and now looking into it and reading about it the last few days really is making me excited at the prospect and looking forward to it. Happy about my choice. I still get a little squeamish at the more in-detail accounts about things that can happen in your body but i think i know about enough.
Anyways all i need now is an actual rope lol (made a quick post about failing to get one here), and test out how it works with my neck and what knot will be best etc. My plan is to be in the lovely forest.
I've already written up dozens of suicide letters, all i need is to pick and choose and clean them up and make them accessible. I'll also need to get other minor affairs in order but the energy level is so low that i might just... not. I had already asked a person i know if they would be willing to sort my affairs if(when) i die.
Anyways, i think i'll just post further updates on that here if i do update on this (:
