Hanging tonight

[jussrav]

We are thinking to go watch a film. As for the problems let's say that sometimes you can do things in life that can totally wreck you. I mean totally make your life unlivable because u are now forced to do things eg forced to wake up at 3am when u dont want to. Sonetimes the mind and its problems are an awful place. Also blame, regret how if I had done this I would be ok goes on and on you cannot live in the present sonetimes as it frightens you. Sadly I will attempt it again however maybe not hanging I will get sn. My life has changed drastically after getting long covid. I have suffered alot and my life is full of mental health torture and issues in my head that are just getting worse. Sorry to rant some decisions in life can literally kill you.

The only thing you can be sure of is that the way you feel will change. It won't stay so painful to keep living. You are near the brink, so it's going to be hard stepping away, if that's what you are going to do.

You seem to have a strong will to live, so there is no harm in listening to that and keeping going for a while.

Try to distract yourself, maybe with your flatmate's help. Make yourself do something nice. Try to have a better day. Have a healthy drink. Go for a walk. Don't stay in your own head at home. Get washed and dressed and go out, if you can with someone. Leave your problems til tomorrow. You can always share them here if you want to.

The only thing you can be sure of is that the way you feel will change. It won't stay so painful to keep living. You are near the brink, so it's going to be hard stepping away, if that's what you are going to do.

You seem to have a strong will to live, so there is no harm in listening to that and keeping going for a while.

Try to distract yourself, maybe with your flatmate's help. Make yourself do something nice. Try to have a better day. Have a healthy drink. Go for a walk. Don't stay in your own head at home. Get washed and dressed and go out, if you can with someone. Leave your problems til tomorrow. You can always share them here if you want to.

We are thinking to go watch a film. As for the problems let's say that sometimes you can do things in life that can totally wreck you. I mean totally make your life unlivable because u are now forced to do things eg forced to wake up at 3am when u dont want to. Sonetimes the mind and its problems are an awful place. Also blame, regret how if I had done this I would be ok goes on and on you cannot live in the present sonetimes as it frightens you. Sadly I will attempt it again however maybe not hanging I will get sn. My life has changed drastically after getting long covid. I have suffered alot and my life is full of mental health torture and issues in my head that are just getting worse. Sorry to rant some decisions in life can literally kill you.

I'm sorry it's come to this, you didn't deserve to suffer the way that you have. I hope you find peace, and if for whatever reason it doesn't happen we will still be here

Its my fault I am like this. I could have done things differently made different decisions but I messed my whole life up.

 

[Foreverix]

Good luck if you really decided to settleon it, I just hope that it is at least fast because sometimes it can take hours for someone to die from hanging.

Hours? The only way you'd survive hanging for that long is if your toes could touch the ground just enough to bear weight. Even in partial, nobody is going to lean in for hours trying to lose consciousness. They'd either quit, or readjust the ligature.

Sounds like you're trying to cast last minute doubts and fears into his head. A lot can go wrong, for sure. But hours?

 

[A_quietboi]

I've had enough of my life really. Thus world was good but not anymore. I was glad to be a part of it now its living in hell. I plan on hanging tonight. I wish u all well.

Before going, do you mind sharing why you're doing it? I just want to know.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

Hours? The only way you'd survive hanging for that long is if your toes could touch the ground just enough to bear weight. Even in partial, nobody is going to lean in for hours trying to lose consciousness. They'd either quit, or readjust the ligature.

Sounds like you're trying to cast last minute doubts and fears into his head. A lot can go wrong, for sure. But hours?

Yeah agreed, it seems several pro lifers have signed up to this site recently.

 

[jussrav]

Before going, do you mind sharing why you're doing it? I just want to know.

I have the worst life. I am in a situation that I cant leave the only way is being strong and face it but its difficult or die and leave the situation. I have had long covid twice each lasting 20 months and 1 year. I suffered with seizures and lost my job as a prison officer. I lost all my hair and developed a tumour on my brain. Headaches, throat pains, gastro pains and allergies and also breathing issues, fatigue insomnia.The tumour won't kill me. But my mental state will kill me. Its so messes up. Its so low I am forced to wake up at 3am. And then its like the mental struggles dont stop. I wake up every hour I go to sleep. I have been like this for 3 years. All my doctors and mental health team have gad lighted me. I am born to suffer here. I am facing unimaginable things in my head. If I'd made better decisions I would not be in this mess. Sorry to go on. I bet u regret asking me. Everyone is do rude to me including family, friends, doctors, strangers everyone. I wish I was dead I dont want to be here. Thankyou for listening.

I'm sorry that you have to suffer so much. Life is so unfair and it's so incredibly difficult to just leave this world which is dominated by such a cruel anti-suicide society that causes so much more unnecessary pain. I hope you find peace. sending a virtual *HUG*

I dont know why its so god damn difficult I am literally being tortured by my mind. My mental health team are gas lighting me. But they can't do much anyway my problems are that bad noone can do a thing. Its such a nightmare to live I need to get sn. Thats my only hope

 

[jussrav]

I'm sorry it's come to this, you didn't deserve to suffer the way that you have. I hope you find peace, and if for whatever reason it doesn't happen we will still be here

Thankyou

The only thing you can be sure of is that the way you feel will change. It won't stay so painful to keep living. You are near the brink, so it's going to be hard stepping away, if that's what you are going to do.

You seem to have a strong will to live, so there is no harm in listening to that and keeping going for a while.

Try to distract yourself, maybe with your flatmate's help. Make yourself do something nice. Try to have a better day. Have a healthy drink. Go for a walk. Don't stay in your own head at home. Get washed and dressed and go out, if you can with someone. Leave your problems til tomorrow. You can always share them here if you want to.

Thankyou

 

[A_quietboi]

I honestly don't know what to say man. But if you've been a good man, and your own conscience tells you so, know that I'm extremely proud of what you've done till now.

Wish you all the best. I hope your life will get better, and I wish I could hug you, just so it takes a bit of your pain away, man.

 

[jussrav]

I honestly don't know what to say man. But if you've been a good man, and your own conscience tells you so, know that I'm extremely proud of what you've done till now.

Wish you all the best. I hope your life will get better, and I wish I could hug you, just so it takes a bit of your pain away, man.

I am a girl. This is me.

 

[toofargone6969]

I am a girl. This is me.

You are beautiful. I relate to your story a lot. I'm also a woman. I've struggled with long covid also, and hair loss, and sleep issues. Just the complete breakdown of my physical and mental health. It's so hard. I'm so sad to see another bright, beautiful woman in a similar situation, it breaks my heart. I wish covid had never happened and everything else that led us here. I hope you can find peace.

 

[jussrav]

You are beautiful. I relate to your story a lot. I'm also a woman. I've struggled with long covid also, and hair loss, and sleep issues. Just the complete breakdown of my physical and mental health. It's so hard. I'm so sad to see another bright, beautiful woman in a similar situation, it breaks my heart. I wish covid had never happened and everything else that led us here. I hope you can find peace.

But covid happened and now I am in this shit show that is my life and I cant get away. I've lost my hair. Now I cant sleep I hope u feel better, I know its over for me xx

You are beautiful. I relate to your story a lot. I'm also a woman. I've struggled with long covid also, and hair loss, and sleep issues. Just the complete breakdown of my physical and mental health. It's so hard. I'm so sad to see another bright, beautiful woman in a similar situation, it breaks my heart. I wish covid had never happened and everything else that led us here. I hope you can find peace.

I've lost everything that I loved. There is nothing left of the girl I was before covid . I am struggling everyday with my mental health. This is not how I was I am bitter angry thats it to everyone. They will eventually leave me and I know that's what I deserve

 

[toofargone6969]

But covid happened and now I am in this shit show that is my life and I cant get away. I've lost my hair. Now I cant sleep I hope u feel better, I know its over for me xx

I've lost everything that I loved. There is nothing left of the girl I was before covid . I am struggling everyday with my mental health. This is not how I was I am bitter angry thats it to everyone. They will eventually leave me and I know that's what I deserve

I feel like its over for me too. Hair loss as a woman is devastating and traumatic in a way that words cannot describe. I'm so sorry:( fuck covid.

 

[A_quietboi]

I am a girl. This is me.

Oh, I'm..... Sorry. I really just assumed that you were a man- that's stupid of me.

Learning about your troubles break my heart, frankly.
I'm sure that you are a fantastic human being,and I pray that you find peace.

 

[jussrav]

Oh, I'm..... Sorry. I really just assumed that you were a man- that's stupid of me.

Learning about your troubles break my heart, frankly.
I'm sure that you are a fantastic human being,and I pray that you find peace.

I wish for peace everyday thats all we want and to be happy noone wants to be on suicide sites.xx

 

[ItsMeUnique]

Farewell and goodluck on your journey! I hope you will find your peace!

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I wish for peace everyday thats all we want and to be happy noone wants to be on suicide sites.xx

Yep. At the end of the day, everyone wants to feel good. Even the masochists.

 

[cherrypiegonnadie]

Reading all this is heart breaking. I feel the strong need to hug u, to take all the pain and suffering away. I just want to pull the depression, suicidal thoughts, low self wort, the hate against urself and intrusive thoughts out of ur head. I do not know you, not even one bit, i am new here and i just recently joined but my heart is in so much pain for you. I truly wish for your suffering and agony to end. You are a beautiful human being, and you are so incredibly strong for making it this far. I deeply hope that you will find your light at the end of the tunnel, how ever that may look for you. If it may be the decision to leave or to keep enduring hoping for it to better. You deserve to be free of all this torture. I pray that you find it, how ever you may pursue it.

I just wanted to let you know all this and that i might not be in an even remotely similar situation but i do understand you.

 

[jussrav]

Reading all this is heart breaking. I feel the strong need to hug u, to take all the pain and suffering away. I just want to pull the depression, suicidal thoughts, low self wort, the hate against urself and intrusive thoughts out of ur head. I do not know you, not even one bit, i am new here and i just recently joined but my heart is in so much pain for you. I truly wish for your suffering and agony to end. You are a beautiful human being, and you are so incredibly strong for making it this far. I deeply hope that you will find your light at the end of the tunnel, how ever that may look for you. If it may be the decision to leave or to keep enduring hoping for it to better. You deserve to be free of all this torture. I pray that you find it, how ever you may pursue it.

I just wanted to let you know all this and that i might not be in an even remotely similar situation but i do understand you.

Thankyou so much. Not many people care so this means alot x