Had to admit my self harm to my Marine recruiter, feel so embarassed

[LifeIsASadist]

I was forced to admit my self harm scars to my MEPS doctor because he asked "have you ever" then he made a cutting gesture. I was forced to say yes because he was going to get me naked (he did) then he saw EVERY SCAR on my body which made me feel so embarassed.

The MEPS doctor told me to get a waiver from my recruiter which I did. I felt so fucking embarassed admitting I used to CUT MYSELF!!! I felt my face flushing when I had to admit it to him and even worse, most military personnel are conservatives so they probably think I am some fucking creepo or weirdo now considering conservatives do not tolerate self harm very well.

 

[Dot]

Thy mght b cnserv8tve bt thy r also an indstry filld wth PTSD & ppl wh/ strggle

Also = nt uncommn fr ppl wth cptsd t/ join miltry bcse sme ppl r joinng t/ escpe abusve hmes etc

S/ thy hve prbbly C evrythng alrdy

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Thy mght b cnserv8tve bt thy r also an indstry filld wth PTSD & ppl wh/ strggle

Also = nt uncommn fr ppl wth cptsd t/ join miltry bcse sme ppl r joinng t/ escpe abusve hmes etc

S/ thy hve prbbly C evrythng alrdy

Ive been DQd multiple times in the past for having IEP but now I am getting a chance.

Btw are you drunk? You type like me when I am drunk.

 

[alwaysalone]

Ive been DQd multiple times in the past for having IEP but now I am getting a chance.

Btw are you drunk? You type like me when I am drunk.

Dot isn't drunk she has issues. Don't worry meps Dr's have literally seen everything. And frankly they don't care.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

Btw are you drunk? You type like me when I am drunk.

Under Dot's avatar it says info about typing style in profile. There's a couple of SaSu users with very different typing style unrelated to intoxication along with many people that don't write in English and use a translator.

 

[Dot]

Btw are you drunk?

Ha if only

 

[nobody_oac]

I was embarrassed too. They put me in a room with about a dozen other recruits and stripped us down to our underwear. We were made to do random exercises to see body function and scrutinized about everything. Having to admit to cutting in a room full of peers is defeating. I'd like to say we are all accepting, but with mental illess, it's still different. I remember the looks on some of their faces.

Dot has a specific typing style and a post on their personal profile about it. It didn't take long to adjust to it and their posts are always worth a read.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I was forced to admit my self harm scars to my MEPS doctor because he asked "have you ever" then he made a cutting gesture. I was forced to say yes because he was going to get me naked (he did) then he saw EVERY SCAR on my body which made me feel so embarassed.

The MEPS doctor told me to get a waiver from my recruiter which I did. I felt so fucking embarassed admitting I used to CUT MYSELF!!! I felt my face flushing when I had to admit it to him and even worse, most military personnel are conservatives so they probably think I am some fucking creepo or weirdo now considering conservatives do not tolerate self harm very well.

Don't ever admit anything like that again or they will disqualify you! You get 1 shot at MEPS and that's it! Those people are not your friends! Don't ever admit to anything else. Once you are a Marine, you can admit those things then.

 

[rainwillneverstop]

Don't ever admit anything like that again or they will disqualify you! You get 1 shot at MEPS and that's it! Those people are not your friends! Don't ever admit to anything else. Once you are a Marine, you can admit those things then.

they already explained they had to strip down anyway tho.
SH scars are quite obvious, best thing to do in that moment is try to be truthful.

 

[dontwakemeup]

they already explained they had to strip down anyway tho.
SH scars are quite obvious, best thing to do in that moment is try to be truthful.

I understand as I've been through MEPS before and passed the process. Get your waiver and try to pull it together and try not to self-harm anymore. I know thats easier said than done. In boot camp you will be forced to share community showers and everyone is not so nice and understanding to people like us. You're going to have to find a new way to release the pain. I truly wish you the best and can't wait until you graduate. I'll say this, I always felt my life was horrible and felt I was the only person who had my issues growing up. During bootcamp, I realized so many people had the same type upbringing and I met the best people who helped me through my life. I'm so excited for you!!

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Don't ever admit anything like that again or they will disqualify you! You get 1 shot at MEPS and that's it! Those people are not your friends! Don't ever admit to anything else. Once you are a Marine, you can admit those things then.

MEPS guys told me I can try again after a month (and if my waiver gets approved)

 

[dontwakemeup]

MEPS guys told me I can try again after a month (and if my waiver gets approved)

I really hope it's approved and you get another chance! Idk if I mentioned this before on my post but I actually failed my hearing test at MEPS. I cried like a baby because I just wanted to leave this city and everyone. The lady was so nice and told me to try to calm down and we can retry. We retried and I passed she said and off I went.

Of course we all have issues, you just have to hold it together long enough to pass MEPS and boot camp then you're Scott free! Then you approach the dr and say, "There is this new thing I just did and it made me feel like this!" That's how I was taught to deal with chronic issues. But, 30 days will go fast and I'll be happy for you when you leave! When you go for your waiver, make sure to focus on your over that phase in your life, it was something your learned from and found better ways to cope with your issues! Best wishes.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Don't ever admit anything like that again or they will disqualify you! You get 1 shot at MEPS and that's it! Those people are not your friends! Don't ever admit to anything else. Once you are a Marine, you can admit those things then.

Honestly I completely disagree. Fraudulent enlistment is a real thing, and that's a myth that you only get one chance at meps. In my opinion it's better to be honest and let them decide at MEPS than to get an entry level separation in boot camp. OP, you did the right thing by being honest. The initial process of enlisting can be stressful and full of uncertainties but you need to trust the process, and keep your chin up .

 

[LifeIsASadist]

I really hope it's approved and you get another chance! Idk if I mentioned this before on my post but I actually failed my hearing test at MEPS. I cried like a baby because I just wanted to leave this city and everyone. The lady was so nice and told me to try to calm down and we can retry. We retried and I passed she said and off I went.

Thank you! I felt super bummed and embarassed to have to admit that to my recruiter and even admit the SH to the MEPS doctor.

Tbh I really hated MEPS so much, I hope to just pass it eventually and never return. At least boot camp DIs are the way they are for good reason.

Of course we all have issues, you just have to hold it together long enough to pass MEPS and boot camp then you're Scott free! Then you approach the dr and say, "There is this new thing I just did and it made me feel like this!" That's how I was taught to deal with chronic issues. But, 30 days will go fast and I'll be happy for you when you leave! When you go for your waiver, make sure to focus on your over that phase in your life, it was something your learned from and found better ways to cope with your issues! Best wishes.

Alrighty! Thank you! Hopefully my recruiter doesn't decide to just abandon me and gives me another shot.

Honestly I completely disagree. Fraudulent enlistment is a real thing, and that's a myth that you only get one chance at meps. In my opinion it's better to be honest and let them decide at MEPS than to get an entry level separation in boot camp. OP, you did the right thing by being honest. The initial process of enlisting can be stressful and full of uncertainties but you need to trust the process, and keep your chin up .

I was forced to be honest because scars are permanent reciepts. You can't just tell the MEPS doctor "I never self harmed" especially if you have big scars all over your body. At least with weed, I could have hidden the weed part and easily got away with lying about it if I wanted to but as for scars, you can't hide SH scars.