Had a tough conversation

[jajajaja]

There was no negotiating with how I felt about a close friend mine. I had feelings for her, and after half a year of hiding my feelings for the sake of friendship, I felt like I was going to explode. I finally told her everything, how I felt, how much I had cared for her. She then opened up about another unrequited love for some guy that she had to deal with. She mentioned the whole situation had destroyed her mentally and she was unwilling to be in a relationship (although she says she's over this guy now) This came as a shock to me, I had no idea.I told her that I'd still be here for her.

Jesus, I didn't get any sleep that night and missed work because of it. I literally called god or whoever the fuck is up there to just take my life. Life hasn't been more difficult. I wish I could have this one thing, but no. I have no ill will towards her, which makes this whole situation even harder. If only somehow we hated one another instead, that way It'd be easier to get over her. But I'm too weak. I can't take a break from her. She asked if I needed some time, but I couldn't bear the thought.

I simply cannot do life rn. I already had thoughts about ctb in a few months. But now, I feel like my end is coming sooner. I feel so trapped. Life doesn't usually go my way, but if only I could just have been happy with her, then maybe it'd be worth living. No one else is her. My chance at happinesses is probably gone forever.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that existence is so incredibly cruel and disappointing after all, it's understandable feeling so tired of suffering here. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Rational man]

Did you think she knew how you felt before you told her because it may have been a shock to her too !?.. Seriously, love can be painful, it can be beautiful but its a two way thing.. I've been in a similar situation and it helped me to find some emotional space. To be honest, if love is happening it will find you!.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

There was no negotiating with how I felt about a close friend mine. I had feelings for her, and after half a year of hiding my feelings for the sake of friendship, I felt like I was going to explode. I finally told her everything, how I felt, how much I had cared for her. She then opened up about another unrequited love for some guy that she had to deal with. She mentioned the whole situation had destroyed her mentally and she was unwilling to be in a relationship (although she says she's over this guy now) This came as a shock to me, I had no idea.I told her that I'd still be here for her.

Jesus, I didn't get any sleep that night and missed work because of it. I literally called god or whoever the fuck is up there to just take my life. Life hasn't been more difficult. I wish I could have this one thing, but no. I have no ill will towards her, which makes this whole situation even harder. If only somehow we hated one another instead, that way It'd be easier to get over her. But I'm too weak. I can't take a break from her. She asked if I needed some time, but I couldn't bear the thought.

I simply cannot do life rn. I already had thoughts about ctb in a few months. But now, I feel like my end is coming sooner. I feel so trapped. Life doesn't usually go my way, but if only I could just have been happy with her, then maybe it'd be worth living. No one else is her. My chance at happinesses is probably gone forever.

Life definitely didn't go my way either, in 2023. I just miss 2022, 2022 was in my favour, to the extent that I even went on holiday. I very rarely go on holidays and I think I only go once every 5 years. 2022 was a gift to me, and I still cherish the memories to this day.

 

[jajajaja]

Did you think she knew how you felt before you told her because it may have been a shock to her too !?.. Seriously, love can be painful, it can be beautiful but its a two way thing.. I've been in a similar situation and it helped me to find some emotional space. To be honest, if love is happening it will find you!.

She definitely knew, I had asked her out a few months prior to this over text and it was very brief. We both just ignored it and continued getting closer as friends but she had felt horrible and was worried she hurt me, although she didn't how she'd bring that up to me all these months. I was hurt but reassured her that it wasn't her fault. I was also confused on how to talk about my feelings for her, but eventually I just told her that one night. Maybe you're right about love finding me, but I'm too tired of waiting around. It felt like my chance at that is gone now. I haven't left my bed since that night. I don't want to do anything, and I feel so numb and pathetic

 

[Rational man]

She definitely knew, I had asked her out a few months prior to this over text and it was very brief. We both just ignored it and continued getting closer as friends but she had felt horrible and was worried she hurt me, although she didn't how she'd bring that up to me all these months. I was hurt but reassured her that it wasn't her fault. I was also confused on how to talk about my feelings for her, but eventually I just told her that one night. Maybe you're right about love finding me, but I'm too tired of waiting around. It felt like my chance at that is gone now. I haven't left my bed since that night. I don't want to do anything, and I feel so numb and pathetic

Your chance hasnt gone. We dont plan love because it just happens in the moment so be kind to You.