Venting guilt

[jes7ter]

i suffer from extreme guilt,
some of it comes from my intrusive thoughts but most is just plain guilt, about stuff i know is wrong and i hate myself for doing that
i really feel so much shame and guilt i want to kill myself but i feel like its not enough, i just want to erase my mistakes and my existence
im really too ashamed to tell anyone about i really dont want to get better, nor do i want pity or excuses i really just want to die but i feel like even that isnt enough and it wont fix anything i really feel ashamed even just typing this out

 

[Akaraine]

I'm sorry about what you are facing. What I think is you are overthinking and you have inferiority complex. You might sometimes feel like, "Why am I not good enough."
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i suffer from extreme guilt,
some of it comes from my intrusive thoughts but most is just plain guilt, about stuff i know is wrong and i hate myself for doing that
i really feel so much shame and guilt i want to kill myself but i feel like its not enough, i just want to erase my mistakes and my existence
im really too ashamed to tell anyone about i really dont want to get better, nor do i want pity or excuses i really just want to die but i feel like even that isnt enough and it wont fix anything i really feel ashamed even just typing this out

Ummm, I don't know what to say but this quote might help you.

> If anyone doesn't accept me then it's their problem, not mine.