Venting Guilt

[iamsofkntired]

I want to ctb , I know that and i accepted it , but I feel guilty for my family , I feel like they're guilt tripping me as their only way to keep me alive , I just wish they would know that I love them but it's what I want I want them to understand that this makes me happy and gives me comfort , I feel bad for leaving my brother alone I feel guilty for taking a child from my parents i feel guilty for wasting the years my sisters spent in raising me I feel guilty for all the dreams and the future my siblings dreamed of having me but I just can't do it anymore I don't know they will feel but I just want to be gone , I just want them to forget me and move on I don't want to keep them stuck to the past I love them so much but I just can't.

 

[Death is my goal]

if guilt is stopping then you're not ready to ctb yet.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so insensitive to try and guilt trip someone into delaying their inevitable fate. It really would prevent so much suffering if people respected the right to die as after all nobody is obligated to continue existing here.

 

[iamsofkntired]

if guilt is stopping then you're not ready to ctb yet.

I hav3 about a month untill my date and I'm trying to suppress the guilt until