On Thursday I didn't ctb for the dumbest reason. Alcohol+ music ended up having the opposite effect intended in the end cause I had too much fun dancing in the woods while looking for a tree (I hadn't danced in a few years) ,my moves were so smooth that my drunk brain convinced itself it'd be a complete waste of coolness (I'm cringing) and that I still had potential to live a nice life.
Anyway that feeling faded when I woke up next morning. Meeting with my friend in the afternoon low-key made me want to CTB (humiliating and condescending tough love in a public setting isn't something that gives hope) , pondered on what I should do these past 2 days. If I ended things,I needed to do it before accepting tuition money from my brother otherwise the guilt would prevent me from dying
Welp, uni starts tomorrow, he just paid my tuition. I guess this is it for me,I need to make the most out of it,at least up until I reimburse him in 6ish months.
Although maybe I should dance more often while I'm trying my best,might genuinely help me endure the struggle that life is.
Anyway that feeling faded when I woke up next morning. Meeting with my friend in the afternoon low-key made me want to CTB (humiliating and condescending tough love in a public setting isn't something that gives hope) , pondered on what I should do these past 2 days. If I ended things,I needed to do it before accepting tuition money from my brother otherwise the guilt would prevent me from dying
Welp, uni starts tomorrow, he just paid my tuition. I guess this is it for me,I need to make the most out of it,at least up until I reimburse him in 6ish months.
Although maybe I should dance more often while I'm trying my best,might genuinely help me endure the struggle that life is.
good luck with school
