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eyeroller

eyeroller

Some winters have no spring
Feb 13, 2022
38
I Have N in my cupboard
Got my hotel booked for the end of the week.

And yet this road called 'life' goes on forever without me. It goes nowhere just like the conversations with those around me.

I am aware that life doesn't have to be like this. That this earth is not paradise but neither does it have to be a race to nowhere for nothing. I look at the world I am leaving behind. Every month the streets are filled with more vunerable homeless people, this is London and I am sure these people kept the machine running with their own sweat and blood until it spat them out and replaced them.

Nothing ever happens here and when it does its dismissed as the only reality. There's nothing real about this time we live in, everything is false even the facade I keep in front of my family just few days before I plan to never see them again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,313
This life is certainly so depressing and pointless. I can imagine that it must be a relief having a way to peacefully exit this world at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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I often feel like that myself,. Can get Very destructive and toxic sadly. I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen.
 
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LeavingEarly

LeavingEarly

Specialist
Mar 19, 2022
368
I Have N in my cupboard
Got my hotel booked for the end of the week.

And yet this road called 'life' goes on forever without me. It goes nowhere just like the conversations with those around me.

I am aware that life doesn't have to be like this. That this earth is not paradise but neither does it have to be a race to nowhere for nothing. I look at the world I am leaving behind. Every month the streets are filled with more vunerable homeless people, this is London and I am sure these people kept the machine running with their own sweat and blood until it spat them out and replaced them.

Nothing ever happens here and when it does its dismissed as the only reality. There's nothing real about this time we live in, everything is false even the facade I keep in front of my family just few days before I plan to never see them again.
Where did you get N from? Are you US?

Safe travels.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
I look at the world I am leaving behind. Every month the streets are filled with more vunerable homeless people, this is London and I am sure these people kept the machine running with their own sweat and blood until it spat them out and replaced them.
I'm not in London, but I also see this where I live (US). I thought social services were a bit better in the UK, but maybe not.
 
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eyeroller

eyeroller

Some winters have no spring
Feb 13, 2022
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Where did you get N from? Are you US?

Safe travels.
I'm from UK it arrived within a week which really suprised me.

I'm not in London, but I also see this where I live (US). I thought social services were a bit better in the UK, but maybe not.
UK looks only good compared to the US. So much funding has been cut and the conservatives are slowly privatising healthcare. Because of the facade everything is on a delay. Families and individuals hold up these unlivable and undignified lives, in the name of pride and a false sense of duty. Even in so called good times our soceities were never build around our needs. I always felt homeless even in my house, I still do.
 
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LeavingEarly

LeavingEarly

Specialist
Mar 19, 2022
368
I'm from UK it arrived within a week which really suprised me.


UK looks only good compared to the US. So much funding has been cut and the conservatives are slowly privatising healthcare. Because of the facade everything is on a delay. Families and individuals hold up these unlivable and undignified lives, in the name of pride and a false sense of duty. Even in so called good times our soceities were never build around our needs. I always felt homeless even in my house, I still do.
So it's hard to get N into the US?
 
LeavingEarly

LeavingEarly

Specialist
Mar 19, 2022
368
No it's actually cheaper and closer to where it is shipped from
Did you order from D? I didn't see if you responded already.

Are you nervous? I hate survival instinct but life has just become a negative existence and cannot bear it anymore.
 
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unkuto

Student
Mar 13, 2022
132
I Have N in my cupboard
Got my hotel booked for the end of the week.

And yet this road called 'life' goes on forever without me. It goes nowhere just like the conversations with those around me.

I am aware that life doesn't have to be like this. That this earth is not paradise but neither does it have to be a race to nowhere for nothing. I look at the world I am leaving behind. Every month the streets are filled with more vunerable homeless people, this is London and I am sure these people kept the machine running with their own sweat and blood until it spat them out and replaced them.

Nothing ever happens here and when it does its dismissed as the only reality. There's nothing real about this time we live in, everything is false even the facade I keep in front of my family just few days before I plan to never see them again.
How much did it cost to you with shipping? Does it being shipped in as something discrete (like different product) or it just straight up says on the bottle what it is?
 
WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
How much did it cost to you with shipping? Does it being shipped in as something discrete (like different product) or it just straight up says on the bottle what it is?
It's disguised as something else. $750 for 2 bottles if you're in the US.
 
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unkuto

Student
Mar 13, 2022
132
It's disguised as something else. $750 for 2 bottles if you're in the US.
I'm not in the US. I'm in Russia and there is actually 10-15 years sentence for even having it. I discussed that in other thread basically the maximum amount for 10-15 years is 20g of N. It's in the pills form. Unfortunately law says nothing about liquid form but they probably will just get weight of two bottle and measure if it more than 20g or less and just fuck me up for that. So I kinda want to know prior doing something. I dont want to be stuck in prison for 15 years if there are huge risks. That's why I'm asking.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
I'm not in the US. I'm in Russia and there is actually 10-15 years sentence for even having it. I discussed that in other thread basically the maximum amount for 10-15 years is 20g of N. It's in the pills form. Unfortunately law says nothing about liquid form but they probably will just get weight of two bottle and measure if it more than 20g or less and just fuck me up for that. So I kinda want to know prior doing something. I dont want to be stuck in prison for 15 years if there are huge risks. That's why I'm asking.
Yeah that understandable. It's pretty cleverly disguised, but don't know anything about Russian customs.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
606
I'm not in the US. I'm in Russia and there is actually 10-15 years sentence for even having it. I discussed that in other thread basically the maximum amount for 10-15 years is 20g of N. It's in the pills form. Unfortunately law says nothing about liquid form but they probably will just get weight of two bottle and measure if it more than 20g or less and just fuck me up for that. So I kinda want to know prior doing something. I dont want to be stuck in prison for 15 years if there are huge risks. That's why I'm asking.
Maybe u should try SN. Its not worth for 10-15years in prison. You did not commit any crime why is russia so mean.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,203
Safe journey eyeroller.

No War Love GIF by eva pils
 
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unkuto

Student
Mar 13, 2022
132
Maybe u should try SN. Its not worth for 10-15years in prison. You did not commit any crime why is russia so mean.
Thanks. I already ordered SN and it should arrive in a week or two. But people are telling me I should use N instead as it better and more reliable and because I have acid reflux and GERD. I dont know if I would be able to take SN without puking it over. If I fasten for too long sometimes I reflux puking even for water let alone do something like SN. I really dont know.

Russia is not mean. It's the most horrible country on this planet. Look what Putin done with Ukraine and his own people throwing them for decades or even maybe centures of sufferings and poverty. Seeing how Russia threats others there shouldn't be a surprise that even buying weed in really small 1-2 usage you can get up to 5 years in prison and then you'll never be able to get a job as criminal record in your background check wouldn't let you. life here is just isn't fair.
 
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eyeroller

eyeroller

Some winters have no spring
Feb 13, 2022
38
Did you order from D? I didn't see if you responded already.

Are you nervous? I hate survival instinct but life has just become a negative existence and cannot bear it anymore.
Yes I ordered from D he's been amazing! I'm nervous particularly about the taste, once I get to the hotel will taste a sample and let everyone here know how that goes

I live with my sister and I did not even have time to cry and feel the emotions that have Accumulated. I have also watched a lot of near death experience vids to prepare
 
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eyeroller

eyeroller

Some winters have no spring
Feb 13, 2022
38
2 bottles? and you have AE?
All I have are 2 bottles with maple syrup+ Peanut butter and afterwards Chocolate and a drink
 
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