after 13 years I finaly got diagnosed "correctly". From a various reason nobody really was willing to hear the whole story and after the first diagnose, I was not able to trust psychiatrist that much and it was diffucult for me in the state of mind I got stuck and etc. So it took me that fucking long, so much suffering that was not necessary.
Something that was psychotic episode aka spiritual crises under my circumstances with panic attacks and dissocitain and with right intervention at that time it was possible to help me much much more and I could have a life that I could not hold to and lost otherwise. Instead I was treated as GAD, hypochondriac patient. I hate myself, I hate the docs. that hate has no end insight. Why is this fucking happening, it must be just a joke.
Something that was psychotic episode aka spiritual crises under my circumstances with panic attacks and dissocitain and with right intervention at that time it was possible to help me much much more and I could have a life that I could not hold to and lost otherwise. Instead I was treated as GAD, hypochondriac patient. I hate myself, I hate the docs. that hate has no end insight. Why is this fucking happening, it must be just a joke.
