Got caught with SN, awaiting commitment into psych ward, AMA

[Fwompje]

This is why it is important not to say anything about the CTB project, the product (SN here), the method used, the place, etc. No one should know. It is to avoid the confiscation of his freedom, by forced and undesired hospitalization, searches, the confiscation of everything that could be used for the CTB...

You can talk about the CTB if you need it knowing the risk of hospitalization against your will, but not to talk about the methods, the place, when the CTB will be done! This is to avoid the confiscation of products, weapons... being watched, wiretapped,... then being arrested during an attempted CTB.

Psychiatrists, police, ... always ask you questions like, when are you going to CTB, with what method, where, ... it's a trap.

Oof yeah almost fell into this trap with my doctor...

 

[Al_stargate]

Just curious—which year? Approximately, if that's too much potentially-identifying material.

I was in the ward about 6 months ago. It actually wouldn't be that bad if not for my issue which made socializing unpleasant.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

A lot of them probably say that, but how many of them actually care more about the patients in the hospital than profit? Depending on how long someone's insurance is willing to pay for their stay there, psychiatric hospitals will probably try to keep people there for that entire time because there's more money to be made.

They definitely generally want to milk each patient as much as possible.

As for my experience, it definitely was life-changing in a completely negative way.

 

[targz]

Best you can do is minimise resentment towards them - they think they're doing the right thing after all

 

[Rogue Proxy]

I'm sorry about your forced institutionalization. I hope you can escape from the psychiatric "hospital" as soon as possible. There is absolutely nothing wrong or "unhealthy" about saying "no" to existence or ending your life. One of the worse parts about forced hospitalization is that mental health enforcers don't give a rat's ass about the various damages they cause, like trauma, medical debt, high risk of job loss, and the high risk of eviction and/or homelessness

 

[Disaster]

Best you can do is minimise resentment towards them - they think they're doing the right thing after all

If someone is traumatized by hospitalization, they are and you're not doing anything good and noble by invalidating someones feelings and experiences.
Also, decent healthcare workers of course exist, and likely they are disgusted with the way it usually works. Involuntary commitment is usually the way it is because it helps to protect the healthcare workers, police etc. from being sued for not doing it. Saving their asses is the main goal, nod making the patients life actually decent.
Please go preaching somewhere else, invalidating traumatic experience of basically medical incarceration doesn't make you helpful and a good person at all.

 

[jessisme]

invalidating traumatic experience of basically medical incarceration doesn't make you helpful and a good person at all.

Please lighten up on your judgements and commentary about this user. Just because you disagree with their perspective it does not make them a bad person. Comments like this are part of what makes this forum a toxic place.

 

[Shadowlord900]

I'm about to ride the ambulance (hooray!) to a psychiatric hospital.

Got caught because made the mistake of telling someone and had my SN at work. They were waiting for me outside.

Ask me anything, I will answer when I can.

You should have told them you was gonna start a meat curing business. Even if they didn't believe you and still brought an ambulance over, you could have kept on insisting to the paramedics the SN's for your meat curing business and it would have made it more difficult for them to justify forcing you into hospital and you may have even avoided it entirely.

 

[Disaster]

Please lighten up on your judgements and commentary about this user. Just because you disagree with their perspective it does not make them a bad person. Comments like this are part of what makes this forum a toxic place.

I'm not saying that they're a bad person, I'm just saying that supporting incarceration of suicidal people, and invalidating their experience and telling them to not feel what they feel doesn't make the pro-lifer a good person. Maybe they're doing some other good things, but telling basically "do not feel oppressed and traumatized when you're oppressed and traumatized" in my opinion is not one of them

 

[drumroll]

Well I hope they don't take much away from you and you will be grouped with somewhat decent patients and personel.
Best not to say much and answer most questions with no and avoid giving details.
From what I can assume it's better to play along just for the time.
If you have your mobile phone search for psych ward guides and tipps.
I wish you the strength to push through this.

 

[alivefornow]

Back home for a weekend, I can't really answer everyone right now because I can't get caught browsing this website.

I spent almost 120 days without leaving the ward. I managed to escape the suicide crisis and no longer actively wish to die, however I still don't like life or living and still can't conceive a future in which I can be happy or feel emotionally well.

The ward is horrible in terms of infrastructure and personel. Bathrooms are disgusting and more often than not clogged, and wooden doors had fungi growing until they got sawed in half. Sometimes the doors fall off and you have to shit or take a bath exposed.

I also got verbally abused, psychologically violated and demoralized by two "counselors", in a room where no proofs or witnesses could be produced. I also got punished by having my english and philosophy groups cancelled (I was doing voluntary work there). All of this because I was in charge of downloading and storing movies for cinema sessions, something that was also my idea, and I showed Requiem for a Dream in my bedroom tv, a movie that the ward itself asked me to download but then changed their minds about showing it.

I had great moments with other patients, but the ward acts to turn us against each other sometimes. We also get shoved with christianity and 12 step program on a daily basis.

There are mostly male patients, but there are a few women. Interactions between those two groups are very restricted, and the girls feel isolated and lonely sometimes.

The main focus of the ward is treatment for drug abuse. Mental disorders are a secondary service, in my understanding.

I will probably be discharged this week or the next. I already spent 2 afternoons with my family and now I got to spend the whole weekend. I'm making sure everyone feels secure about my situation so I can be released from that hell asap.

 

[loyalskateboard]

120 days holy shit I am so sorry. That is a very long time. It would have been incredibly hard. My longest admission was about two months and I was losing my mind. I hope you enjoy your leave and that the discharge process is okay. Psych ward admissions can be traumatic. I hope you enjoy sleeping in your own bed again

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Back home for a weekend, I can't really answer everyone right now because I can't get caught browsing this website.

I spent almost 120 days without leaving the ward. I managed to escape the suicide crisis and no longer actively wish to die, however I still don't like life or living and still can't conceive a future in which I can be happy or feel emotionally well.

The ward is horrible in terms of infrastructure and personel. Bathrooms are disgusting and more often than not clogged, and wooden doors had fungi growing until they got sawed in half. Sometimes the doors fall off and you have to shit or take a bath exposed.

I also got verbally abused, psychologically violated and demoralized by two "counselors", in a room where no proofs or witnesses could be produced. I also got punished by having my english and philosophy groups cancelled (I was doing voluntary work there). All of this because I was in charge of downloading and storing movies for cinema sessions, something that was also my idea, and I showed Requiem for a Dream in my bedroom tv, a movie that the ward itself asked me to download but then changed their minds about showing it.

I had great moments with other patients, but the ward acts to turn us against each other sometimes. We also get shoved with christianity and 12 step program on a daily basis.

There are mostly male patients, but there are a few women. Interactions between those two groups are very restricted, and the girls feel isolated and lonely sometimes.

The main focus of the ward is treatment for drug abuse. Mental disorders are a secondary service, in my understanding.

I will probably be discharged this week or the next. I already spent 2 afternoons with my family and now I got to spend the whole weekend. I'm making sure everyone feels secure about my situation so I can be released from that hell asap.

Man that sounds like hell. Fuck pro lifers how is this miserable shit supposed to help anyone its literally prison
120 days is a fucking lot, usually they keep you for a week or two, the fact that they can just do this to a person and get away with no consequences is fucking disgusting

 

[deomlez]

Please please pay attention not to be caught here, for your own security...
You have all my support, and I hope you will leave soon.

 

[alivefornow]

Update: got discharged today. Life is completely empty right now and suicidal thoughts are already settling in again. I can't disclose these thoughts to anyone, not even psychologists or psychiatrists, because I don't want to get committed again.

I just don't like living, existing. I want it to end. My parents went through hell because of me, and I feel very guilty thinking about dying when everyone is believing I'm in recovery and well. Fuck this.

 

[deomlez]

Take time to know what you want...

 

[_smile_]

Update: got discharged today. Life is completely empty right now and suicidal thoughts are already settling in again. I can't disclose these thoughts to anyone, not even psychologists or psychiatrists, because I don't want to get committed again.

I just don't like living, existing. I want it to end. My parents went through hell because of me, and I feel very guilty thinking about dying when everyone is believing I'm in recovery and well. Fuck this.

Welcome back so sorry you had to experience that hellhole. Sending extra hugs

 

[dimstar]

Update: got discharged today. Life is completely empty right now and suicidal thoughts are already settling in again. I can't disclose these thoughts to anyone, not even psychologists or psychiatrists, because I don't want to get committed again.

I just don't like living, existing. I want it to end. My parents went through hell because of me, and I feel very guilty thinking about dying when everyone is believing I'm in recovery and well. Fuck this.

So sorry for that long and not great experience. You can talk about those things here at least. Were not totally alone when theres people struggling with similar things. Sad and comforting.

So vent here. Guilt is such a burden for me too. Sorry u have to wear a heavy mask. I wish people would listen and understand not just take away options and lock people up. Hope days get more tolerable. Sorry

 

[lokabe82]

Stay strong, my friend. I will be thinking of you.