got broken up with it’s the last straw for me

[Decayed]

i've been clinging to a fake future i didn't even believe in i've been making steps forward only to feel the same if not worse and him breaking up with me proves that nothing matters when you are already dead inside.

i don't know why i even bothered making any effort to move forward into a life i knew i couldn't be happy in but he made me happy and i thought that was enough, he said it was because we were making each other worse but i can't help but believe i was the only one making someone worse. i poison all my relationships and am always left with nothing i don't even know why i tried in the beginning when it was always going to end like this.

im going to go off my meds (venlafaxine, aripiprazole, lamotrigine, dexamphetamine) and try to overdose on them i believe a weeks worth should be enough so that's the date i'll set.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Love really is a double edged sword. seems like it guaranteed to bite as some point. just how it works. I gave up on it myself. I'm to twisted in the head for that.

 

[U. A.]

Don't plan on overdosing on these.

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[SomeAdvice]

It's hard to see a future worth living, especially since the past has giving you enough evidence to suggest a bleak future. I hope you can find one, but just in case you can't I would steer clear of ODs.

 

[Publicvoid]

I've been suicidal many times over breakups and rejection. I wouldn't trust those pills.

 

[SpanishLullaby]

Be careful. The OD may not work and you could get brain damage.

I read so many horrible things about venlafaxine causing brain damage in humans and brain / organ damage in mice. Id be leary of it at high doses. Esp. since its hard to OD on most meds.