Goodbye.

[qpsns]

My depression has totally ruined my life.

I can't do anything.
My brain can't function properly.
All I do in the daytime is eat and sleep.
I need to study but I can't.

I am getting treatment, but nothing's working for me.

My mother is tired of my depression and she keeps forcing me to study.
If I cannot pass the AP exams I won't get support from my mother anymore.

I have nothing good in me.
I am just a waste.

With everything considered, I have decided to leave this world by tomorrow.
My method will be partial hanging, since I don't have the funds nor time to obtain SN or N.
I will make sure that I won't be found within minutes.

I might delete this account by tomorrow, so I will be staying here for a while.

Thank you, everyone, for helping me.
I will never forget this community.
I wish you all the best in whatever happens.

 

[summers]

@qpsns I really hope you reconsider. Depression can be managed, but it's not an easy or quick process. It may not work either, but at least you will know you tried.

AP and college isn't everything. There are many paths to a good job, probably better paying and more rewarding than one needing a college degree. You can get the A+ then Sec+ certs and be on your way to a very high-paying career in cyber security, no college needed.

Suicide will always be there. If you think you want to try living, you basically have nothing to lose.

 

[qpsns]

AP and college isn't everything. There are many paths to a good job, probably better paying and more rewarding than one needing a college degree. You can get the A+ then Sec+ certs and be on your way to a very high-paying career in cyber security, no college needed.

My depression blocks other paths too. I just can't do anything.

 

[Zeus35]

My depression blocks other paths too. I just can't do anything.

Well if you need someone to chat to, message us :-) feel free to pm me if you want.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

@qpsns I really hope you reconsider. Depression can be managed, but it's not an easy or quick process. It may not work either, but at least you will know you tried.

AP and college isn't everything. There are many paths to a good job, probably better paying and more rewarding than one needing a college degree. You can get the A+ then Sec+ certs and be on your way to a very high-paying career in cyber security, no college needed.

Suicide will always be there. If you think you want to try living, you basically have nothing to lose.

Well if you need someone to chat to, message us :-) feel free to pm me if you want.

I agree. Please know that you're not alone and if you want to talk about anything we're here for you. I wish you the best.

 

[Quantum Particle]

So this is about the third time I've written something to make you feel better. I'm so sorry you are feeling like this but threesummers is right, so many times I've seen people here in the UK pass university and fail to get into the careers they had dreamed of or anything that could even be described as a career. College isn't everything at the moment for you and you are never too old to study. Concentrate on getting better mentally and start by knowing that you are not a waste and don't give up dude. Whatever you decide to do is always your choice but people here care and will always listen, sending love and support x

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. That sounds really awful what you are going through. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Foresight]

Have you tried a rest period? It sounds like you need some time to slow down and not always be pushing for something.

Your mother wants a living daughter. She's pushing you because she think it's for your best. Let her know how much you're hurting.

 

[LivideLamb]

I have to agree with seemingly everyone here. Try taking take for yourself, taking time for deep self care and time to understand that getting better will take time.

I'm sorry that you're in pain and feeling this way. Maybe I'm wrong, but your mother seems to be a big part of the problem. Not everything is about school and exams and futile things. You're not a waste! It's hard to see the light out of the tunnel when you're constantly in a toxic family or a toxic environment.

I hope that you will get better. Whatever you choose, I wish you peace and sunny days ahead.