goodbye

[Michi_Violeta]

My heart feels torn every time I see a goodbye post with no more replies from the OP: on the one hand I'm glad they're free of suffering, on the other I feel the pain of an innocent life gone because of life's cruelty.

Dale Señor el descanso eterno, brille para ella la luz perpetua.

 

[MathConspiracy]

Wherever you are, I wish you peace <3

 

[rozeske]

I'm so sorry you've been made to feel as such. I hope you find peace.

 

[deleteduser853695]

Billie, I hope you're at peace now. I hope things were quick and painless. You'll be deeply missed here. Goodbye.

 

[LonelyMe]

I wish you all the best and that you find peace, Billie

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Wishing you peace, Billie. The Night We Met is such an emotional song. It's one of the few that can bring me tears or very close by just listening to it. It's a beautiful pick, I wish you the best, whatever you decided on:

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[GlassMoon]

If you did do it, I hope you found peace, billie. I hope you got reunited with all your friends and missing loved ones in heaven. I hope there will be some butterflies, too.

Like others have said, we do care about you and you are not and have never been a burden. We did not interact much but I still miss you and your love for your favorite singer to whom you referred so often.

I love the song you picked. So calm and moving at the same time. It brought me some tears while I listened to it on the bus this morning.

If things work out after work tomorrow, I will light a candle for you in a nearby church. I hope you don't mind.



Bye, @billie.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point.

I hope you found peace!

Rest in peace!

 

[Tombs_in_your_eyes]

I'm so sorry you have suffered so much. From the replies here I can see that you were loved and valued by at least a few people who knew you here on this forum. You sound like a kind soul and I really doubt you are a burden in real life. But I can well understand how life can be so painful that it brings us to this point.

If you do change your mind or survive, SaSu are still here for you

 

[Next]

"I hope you found peace"

 

[gothbird]

I'm not going to argue with your pain. You've lived in it long enough to know it better than anyone else. You don't need someone swooping in last-minute telling you you're wrong or broken for wanting peace. You're not.

Borderline isn't easy. It warps everything—love, memory, identity, the way you see yourself in the mirror. And when it's been left untreated or unrecognised for years, yeah—it starts to feel like the whole world would breathe easier without you. That's the illness talking. But I know it feels like the truth as someone with it.

You're not a bad person, Billie. You're a person who's been stuck in survival mode for way too long. That's not the same thing. The fact that you made it this far in that much pain is proof of your strength, whether you see it or not. But if you're done—if you've chosen peace—then that's your right, too.

I'm sorry the world didn't give you better. I'm sorry love never landed where it should've.
But I believe this: the way you hurt doesn't cancel out who you are. It just made it harder for people to reach you.

Wherever you're going, I hope it's weightless.
You've carried enough.
Rest now, Billie—out past the noise, where it's just silence and starlight.
Among the dust, where all heavy things finally float.

 

[leandra]

Sad to see it come to this. I hope things turn out well for you Billy

 

[Gangrel]

I hope you're doing well Bookie...

 

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

Hope you're in a better place, Billie, and can finally get the rest and peace you need.

 

[Sadgirl121]

Billie my friend, rest easy. I will miss our chats. You were always kind to me! Rest easy and find the peace you searched for in life and could not find.

 

[plan c]

The first day of missing u terribly and crying my eyes out. billie dear. it's never the same without u.
r.i.p. you're so missed
You were very emotionally perceptive, and i had resonance with u every time u shared ur thoughts. it only aches more when i come up with sth and subconsciously thought "billie would love this", but then suddenly realizing u'll never be here and never reply to me again.
it's hard to believe that u're just... gone.

(a while later)
hey love. how's your day there?
u wouldn't want to see me drown in sorrow would u?
but i miss u. u were a good friend.
and u still are. and u always will be, dear.

 

[Doemu]

 

[waistcoat]

i miss you, i'm glad you're free now, but i miss you a lot.

 

[plan c]

billie dear. we haven't finished our game billie! i miss u terribly. but it's a relief to know u've passed away peacefully and painlessly. rest well.

 

[Silently Dying]

I didn't know you or have any interaction with you, but it breaks my heart to know that life was so unkind you felt the way you did. You were loved by so many here. I hope you are flying high and the pain you carried is gone. Rest my friend.

 

[singingcrow]

i miss you billie

 

[Namelesa]

just confirming did she actually ctb on Monday? its just a person said this to me:

She is still alive, she has left a message in chat 45 minutes ago

also evidence she was here yesterday on Tuesday:

did she delay her attempt by one day or did another attempt or she didn't attempt again?

 

[DeadSet]

Rest in peace billie

 

[waistcoat]

just confirming did she actually ctb on Monday? its just a person said this to me:

also evidence she was here yesterday on Tuesday:
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did she delay her attempt by one day or did another attempt or she didn't attempt again?

i was in chat during the time, she ended up being unable to on the first day, she tried to call her occupational therapist a few times for help but it was late at night and there was no answer. we managed to get her to delay it at least until the following day, we're not sure what happened the next day as none of us have heard from her since. she mentioned a phone call with her therapist in the morning, so there is also a chance her occupational therapist has intervened and put her in inpatient care.

whatever has happened, i hope billie is at peace. i miss her a lot.

 

[plan c]

I wish the best for u on this side or the other, billie dear. i miss u too.

i kind of envy your therapist for being able to see u and care about u every appointment lol. u said she was so kind and understanding.

 

[sadfemboy:(]

hey sasu

today is my one-year sasu anniversary and i'm killing myself with sn today
i made the decision to kill myself on my sasu anniversary with sn weeks ago when i received my sn in december last year
i have many reasons why i want to kill myself but the main one is my borderline personality disorder
i've been living with this mental illness for years but it's just getting worse every day
i can't and don't want to live like this anymore
my borderline personality disorder makes me a bad person
i'm a burden but i don't want to be a burden anymore and that's why it's better if i just kill myself
nobody loves me or cares about me
nobody will miss me or think about me
i'm an unlovable worthless piece of shit
everyone is better off without me
goodbye

billie

Spoiler: my ctb song

goodbye friend :V

I found out about this in chat where you'd always be active, I wasn't sober but I was crying my eyes out once I found out we hadn't heard from you :C even if we didn't talk much, I enjoyed the conversations.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

the sudden uncertainty always brings a lot of feelings.

billie, if you return, we welcome you with light and love and open arms.

if no one intervened, I hope you found peace

 

[plan c]

i miss u. and im running out of combination of words to express how much i miss u.

 

[coolgal82]

damn i'm kinda sad now. i kinda moved away from sasu but like im still gonna miss you. i hope wherever you are now is calm and peaceful and nice (if an afterlife exists anyway)