Goodbye

[pugmaster2412]

This is going to be my last post, iv been on this site since iv been 13 years old. After my first attempt I found this a place to go to when my thoughts would not stop. Knowing that there was a way to stop everything would let me try one more time. But I always knew this day would always come, just never knew what night everything would come together and allow me to CTB. I am now older but I still suffer from clinical depression,anxiety,ed,sh,si, when I list them out it always sounds like a bunch of things but I'll just term it into BPD.If theirs anyone who's reading this that suffers from bpd it truly does feel like your dying everyday too the point it's just better to die. I wish someone would just be here to stop the voices and things I see but of course not everything is what we expect. Iv lived a good life I can say that iv experienced a lot of things iv always wanted to as a Kid. Anyways.. wish me luck on everything going as I plan.

 

[tora]

I'm really sorry you went through so much. my BPD is the main reason I'm going to CTB too, so you're not alone in that. I hope your journey is peaceful

 

[tera_forest]

I don't have BPD but from what i've heard it is very tough to live with. I hope you find peace soon.

 

[sammiechzxv]

I also suffer with bpd. It sucks more than words can describe. I hope you find peace. I'm sorry life was so cruel to you.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I'm so sorry that you've had to deal with so much already at such a young age. It breaks my heart knowing not only the pain you've experienced, but that the systems intended to support you growing up couldn't make a meaningful difference.

I'd like to say that you're still very young, and that for all your claims of having "lived a good life," I'd say you've hardly lived. But I'm 40 now. I first thought about ctb at 13 and first made a plan at 19. I've done a lot in those two decades — including much good — but part of me still wishes I had left at 19.

I'd be lying if I said I was entirely okay with you going. I used to be a teacher and it's in my nature to want to see young people succeed and overcome their life challenges. But I'm also experienced enough to know that the systems don't work for everyone, and that life will just be unbearable for some.

I don't know your life story. I can only assume that you've come to this decision after a lot of thought and a lot of struggle. So, ultimately, I wish you peace. I only wish you had some more time to find it during your time here.

Sending you virtual hugs and thoughts as you go through this challenging time. Peace to you, in the best way you can find it.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes.

 

[TheHuman]

I have a friend who has BPD and from what ive seen of it it's hell. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this I hope you find peace, and best of luck!

 

[Holu]

Farewell and go peacefully. You have fought long enough soldier. Rest well.

 

[sensation86]

I wish you find the peace you deserve

 

[CW36]

I can relate pug. I wish you every success

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so tiring and dreadful having to have suffered like that, I wish you the best with your plans.