Goodbye -- Tonight's The Night

[x-Ace-x]

Let's hope everything will go as planned. Good luck and safe journey friend. I'd also recommend the blood test before you ingest it, just to make sure.

 

[Jean4]

Sending you love and peace. If there is anything you want to talk about, we are here for you. Know you aren't alone.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I wish you peace and the best of luck with everything. Sorry it's come to this.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Sending love and strength ❤

 

[Deleted member 15021]

Thanks for the advice regarding the blood test. It took forever because apparently I don't have any sharp objects to hand, but I did it and it turned brown once the SN hit it so it's definitely legit.

Sorry for the radio silence, but thanks again for your kind comments. I'm still here. I've really hyped up the taste of SN to be something terrible (in my early days of ODing at like 12 years old I used to crush up paracetamol and drink them in water... disgusting) so I'm wrestling with downing it.

I'm definitely doing it tonight, but it's just fighting through that wall. I'll let you know once I've actually grown some balls lmao.

 

[BK2]

Best Wishes and lots of love to you. My daughter went last year. I'm going this year.

 

[Deleted member 15021]

It can also be white. Highly recommend you test it with a bit of your blood, should quickly turn a dark chocolate brown. If its more like milk chocolate or coffee with cream, it's not strong enough to cause the necessary methemoglobinemia.

Edit: See posts 1 & 21:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/blood-test-with-sn-blood-pics-inside.31365/

Thanks for this! Super useful and reassuring. It's definitely the right stuff. When I read briefly about the blood test method, I assumed it would happen over several minutes, but it turned dark brown instantly.

Best Wishes and lots of love to you. My daughter went last year. I'm going this year.

I'm sorry to hear about your daughter. I hope you find peace, too.

 

[LastRide]

Courage ! I that's what you want to do and you feel truly ready, there's just that courage needed to go all the way, all the way to final rest ! Sending love and courage

 

[itsbigbraintime]

Thanks for the advice regarding the blood test. It took forever because apparently I don't have any sharp objects to hand, but I did it and it turned brown once the SN hit it so it's definitely legit.

Sorry for the radio silence, but thanks again for your kind comments. I'm still here. I've really hyped up the taste of SN to be something terrible (in my early days of ODing at like 12 years old I used to crush up paracetamol and drink them in water... disgusting) so I'm wrestling with downing it.

I'm definitely doing it tonight, but it's just fighting through that wall. I'll let you know once I've actually grown some balls lmao.

Glad you're still here! I know, the survival instinct is a bitch and a half to get through.

 

[Deleted member 15021]

Courage ! I that's what you want to do and you feel truly ready, there's just that courage needed to go all the way, all the way to final rest ! Sending love and courage

Yep, that's it in a nutshell! Thank you for your well wishes.

Glad you're still here! I know, the survival instinct is a bitch and a half to get through.

Tell me about it! It's so frustrating because I know now is the right time. My family and friends are in good enough places where they'll be able to grieve without it affecting anything and quickly return to their previous lives, and I don't have anything else holding me here. Tonight will be the night, though. I've fought through survival instinct on 20+ occasions throughout the last nine years, so one final push won't be too hard to muster (hopefully).

 

[Jean4]

Best Wishes and lots of love to you. My daughter went last year. I'm going this year.

Sending you love. If you want to talk, pm me. I relate.

 

[Iloveyouall]

Glad for you if you're at peace. I wish you a safe travel.

 

[Deleted member 15021]

So I've finally grown balls and drunk the SN. I did the straw at the back of the throat method which helped, but I don't think there's any getting away from the fact that SN is fucking vile. Be prepared.

It's probably nearing three minutes now. I feel dizzy, confused and my head is all over the place. I haven't been sick despite not using antiemetics, but I do get the urge to spit even though there's not much liquid coming up when I try. As I've written this, my heart is beginning to beat faster. I'm also super tired, but that could be because it's quarter past three in the morning where I live as opposed to being directly from the SN itself.

Also, there's no more worry or SI. I'm relaxed and I'm ready to go, which is nice. I might make a econd batch if I don't fall unconscious soon but w'ell see.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Lifting you up on wings of light. May this bring you the peace you seek.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I hope you found peace and safe travels

 

[deadmalk]

I pray you find the peace you are seeking. I felt like I was there with you.

 

[Pan]

The multiverse is waiting...have a great ride!

 

[Worndown]

She must have made it.

 

[Comfortably Numb]

She posted something yesterday and then deleted the comment.