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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
Hi! I finally got my SN today (1kg), 99 % purity. I have metoclopramide (AE), paracetamol (pain killer), omeprazol, metamizol (pain killer), and lorazepam (benzo). I hope that's enough to ctb. Either way, I want to kill myself this weekend if possible, maybe today at night (6 - 8 hours from now). Stat dose because my parents will get worried if I don't eat. I don't want to spend months on a psych hospital like the last time, I hope this works and I die once and for all.

 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
Best wishes going forward, I hope you're able to do whatever you feel is best for you and can find peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,838
I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
Safe travels. Rest in peace.
 
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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
I would ctb right now but I am supposed to fast for 8 hours minimum, therefore I will wait 6 more hours or so.
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,394
Best wishes to you my you have a very pleasant and comfortable journey, and have never ending peace and serenity :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug:
 
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fastlife

fastlife

Student
Jan 21, 2022
183
safe travels will you keep us informed if you take the the sn?
 
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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
safe travels will you keep us informed if you take the the sn?
I will take it for sure tonight around 23 or 00 (it's 19:20 right now), I will be in SS chat until the time to go, I suppose I will lose consciousness quickly after taking it so...

EDIT: To be really honest I want get this over with now, I am not sure if I want to wait. F*** this, 20 min and I start.
 
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LifeQuitter2018

LifeQuitter2018

Wanderer
Aug 12, 2018
414
It's impressive you can buy all that drugs. I don't think pharmacies in my city would sell meto to me.
 
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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
Just took painkillers and 40 mg of meto.
 
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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
Just took 80 mg omeprazol. All that's left is lorazepam + 30 gm SN in a drink in 30 minutes.
 
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fastlife

fastlife

Student
Jan 21, 2022
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Red Scare

Red Scare

Wizard
Mar 1, 2022
647
I am truly sorry for whatever led you here. I wish you the best in whatever you decide and hope that things work out for you.

Just make sure you log out and clear your browser history, etc. do what you can so that when someone finds your device this website isn't the first thing they see. We already have enough aggrieved family members and other people trying to take this place down.
 
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symphony

symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
779
Best of luck, and safe travels. I hope you find peace.
 
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LifeQuitter2018

Wanderer
Aug 12, 2018
414
Best of luck friend.
 
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AMorteVivente

AMorteVivente

The void is only scary until you truly suffer
Mar 15, 2020
42
Just took SN with lorazepam.
 
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I-can-only-imagine

I-can-only-imagine

Student
Apr 26, 2021
135
Thoughts and prayers are with you friend. I am so sorry that it has come to this for you ❤️❤️❤️
 
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bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
I advise you to remove the photo since you can see the brands of the sellers
You're right. Only with this photo I already have enough information to know where it is from.
 
Dysgenic Pup

Dysgenic Pup

A canine that’s not so heavenly.
Sep 18, 2021
435
The Earth will be losing a good person.
 
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sleepyghost

she/her
Mar 14, 2022
39
Sending wishes of love and comfort your way.
 
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AnestheticVoid

AnestheticVoid

❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
Feb 17, 2022
273
I hope you have found the peace you desired.
 
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Silenos

Silenos

Ṿ̸̄Ọ̶͂Ỉ̶͉D̴̞͝ ̴̲̐A̷̾͜W̷̪͒Ā̵̯I̵͍̅T̵̛͔S̷̗͛
Jul 25, 2020
1,056
You were a kind soul. Farewell.
 
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MatthewV3

Student
Dec 15, 2021
107
Goodbye.
 
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Cheza_mus

Experienced
Jul 1, 2021
242
Find peace my friend...we shall find you there
 
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Chasing Sleep

Chasing Sleep

sad hoe
Mar 10, 2022
47
I just saw you this morning sending me hugs in the chat- I had no idea you were planning this so soon ):

To think you spent your final day showing acts of kindness and compassion to strangers...what a kind and wonderful soul you were. I pray you are resting in peace my friend xx
 
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Seafoam

Student
Jun 26, 2020
103
Hope you're in a better place.
 
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sleepyghost

she/her
Mar 14, 2022
39
I may be losing my mind here, but it looks like OP may have been back online again this morning? (older members -feel free to explain this to me if wrong)

Casually want to add that if you are still around, we would be happy to welcome you back with open arms. If not, I hope you have found some comfort.
 
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