evannave
love you guys <3
- Feb 27, 2024
- 165
Hey all! For those who don't know me, my name is Evan. I suffer from BPD and TRD.
I truly love this community, it's filled with some of the kindest souls I've ever met. Unfortunately, I think I've come to the end of my journey. I love life, it's just not something I can bear anymore. Waking up each day has become harder than the day before, and it's so tiring. I've tried so many different types of therapy and medications but nothing works. I fucking hate it so much, I tried so hard to be "normal" but it didn't work? Use me as an example to pro-lifers that help doesn't always work, and that suicide is always an option when there is no more light.
Later tonight, I will be hanging my self (partial) with using neckties and a pull up bar. I've been doing as much research as I can to make sure that I have sufficient pressure on my carotid arteries, and that I won't wake up this time. This is my 2nd goodbye thread (hopefully the last). I've tried to hang myself before, and was hospitalized and institutionalized as a result. I don't think I could go through that again. I'm tearing up while I write this. I'm imaging my young self and everything that he wanted to do with his life. I feel like such a failure.
I ask all of you that are going to keep on living, please, fight for us. Decriminalize assisted suicide worldwide. Death is a beautiful thing that everyone will go through eventually, for me the time is now, and many others have decided their own fate as well.
I'm sorry for kinda rambling on about stuff like that in my goodbye thread lol, but it's what's truly important to me. I love you all.
I'll be on here to chat for the next few hours, then I'm going to hang myself.
I truly love this community, it's filled with some of the kindest souls I've ever met. Unfortunately, I think I've come to the end of my journey. I love life, it's just not something I can bear anymore. Waking up each day has become harder than the day before, and it's so tiring. I've tried so many different types of therapy and medications but nothing works. I fucking hate it so much, I tried so hard to be "normal" but it didn't work? Use me as an example to pro-lifers that help doesn't always work, and that suicide is always an option when there is no more light.
Later tonight, I will be hanging my self (partial) with using neckties and a pull up bar. I've been doing as much research as I can to make sure that I have sufficient pressure on my carotid arteries, and that I won't wake up this time. This is my 2nd goodbye thread (hopefully the last). I've tried to hang myself before, and was hospitalized and institutionalized as a result. I don't think I could go through that again. I'm tearing up while I write this. I'm imaging my young self and everything that he wanted to do with his life. I feel like such a failure.
I ask all of you that are going to keep on living, please, fight for us. Decriminalize assisted suicide worldwide. Death is a beautiful thing that everyone will go through eventually, for me the time is now, and many others have decided their own fate as well.
I'm sorry for kinda rambling on about stuff like that in my goodbye thread lol, but it's what's truly important to me. I love you all.
I'll be on here to chat for the next few hours, then I'm going to hang myself.
I hope you end up at the destination you've dreamt of
