weedico

weedico

six's herald
Jun 8, 2023
30
My SN's stashed, I've started my antiemetic protocol, i've got everything ready.
Thank you to all of you for giving me this amazing place to be in the end, especially to the late Vizzy for writing the SN bible. My story isn't all that important, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. It's funny how some people's reasons to ctb hinged on some marginal amount of time, for me it was stepping away from somewhere for 20 minutes, I've got a field I'm going to (which after scouting yesterday I've discovered the locals use as a shooting range lol), will make myself comfortable in my car and lay back. It's a quiet place with little light pollution so I'll see some stars. I've set up a message that'll automatically send to nearby authorities with the location of my body after the whole thing, don't wanna traumatize any poor sop.
Finality is a hell of a thing huh. Got this weird feeling in my stomach, the type you get when your flight lines up on the runway before takeoff.
If I can ask a small favor from you, please wish me a happy ending. Just a passing thought will do. Wanna increase my chances of whatever the other side is being good,
I'm afraid, anxious, and all the other emotions that come before such a journey, so I'll stop writing before I go off on too much of a tangent lol. Thanks for reading this far if you have.

It's approximately T-12 hours to when I plan to be at the spot and taking the SN. I'll try to keep this updated but once I ingest the SN I'll go radio silent, I hope yall understand.

I had a mentor figure in my life 3 years my senior who ctbed 2.5 years ago. He always used to say "patience is a fool's game". I'll see you soon, six.

weed :)
 
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alonely

alonely

exists by being merely labeled
Jul 1, 2023
471
I wish you a peaceful journey, safe travels
 
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nomennescio

nomennescio

Student
Jun 25, 2023
110
Sorry that things have come to this point for you. I wish you strength and hope you will calmly get your eternal peace

Weed indeed :-) šŸ«”šŸ’•
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,259
Farewell and best wishes, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.
 
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love_peep

love_peep

Specialist
May 26, 2023
313
support is always needed at such moments. And I hope and wish that everything worked out for you and you finally found peace. I know this feeling of excitement before the approaching ctb. But remember that it will all end if everything succeeds. So I wish you all the best and good luck to you in general.:hug::hug:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,182
Safe travels! I hope you find peace! Good luck!
 
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FadingSunshine

FadingSunshine

Nothing lasts forever.
Jul 8, 2023
148
I'll be thinking about you. Hope it goes smoothly!
 
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SVEN

Enlightened
Apr 3, 2023
1,576
Every good wish for peace, happiness and a tranquil sleep. Go well with good wishes, tired traveller. We are thinking positive thoughts for you.
 
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LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,784
I'm just a stranger but thanks so much for your contribution, and I'm so sad.

I pray in sorrow -
May you be freed.
Peace will soon follow -
@weedico, Godspeed šŸ’™šŸ’›
 
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CW36

CW36

āž•ć€°ļøāž°
Jul 23, 2023
839
Stay strong, you're soon to be on the side of the winners weedico.
 
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weedico

weedico

six's herald
Jun 8, 2023
30
going out on a practice run to my spot.

~T-11 hours
 
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Haruka

Haruka

the most beautiful angel
Mar 24, 2023
168
I hope everything goes very smoothly for you and you can see who you'd like to see againā¤ļø
 
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weedico

weedico

six's herald
Jun 8, 2023
30
At the spot. Gonna drive home and spend a nice day with my family while I can

T-8 hours
 
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jar-baby

Mage
Jun 20, 2023
505
Wishing you peace ā¤ļø
 
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cheese.out

cheese.out

Why am I still here
Jul 25, 2023
204
May you find peace and love on the other sideā¤
 
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Deathwish1968

Member
Oct 30, 2019
70
Wishing you peace and freedom from suffering ā¤ļø
 
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_Alfarooq_

_Alfarooq_

Useless bastard almost making the decision to CTB.
Jul 24, 2023
291
My SN's stashed, I've started my antiemetic protocol, i've got everything ready.
Thank you to all of you for giving me this amazing place to be in the end, especially to the late Vizzy for writing the SN bible. My story isn't all that important, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. It's funny how some people's reasons to ctb hinged on some marginal amount of time, for me it was stepping away from somewhere for 20 minutes, I've got a field I'm going to (which after scouting yesterday I've discovered the locals use as a shooting range lol), will make myself comfortable in my car and lay back. It's a quiet place with little light pollution so I'll see some stars. I've set up a message that'll automatically send to nearby authorities with the location of my body after the whole thing, don't wanna traumatize any poor sop.
Finality is a hell of a thing huh. Got this weird feeling in my stomach, the type you get when your flight lines up on the runway before takeoff.
If I can ask a small favor from you, please wish me a happy ending. Just a passing thought will do. Wanna increase my chances of whatever the other side is being good,
I'm afraid, anxious, and all the other emotions that come before such a journey, so I'll stop writing before I go off on too much of a tangent lol. Thanks for reading this far if you have.

It's approximately T-12 hours to when I plan to be at the spot and taking the SN. I'll try to keep this updated but once I ingest the SN I'll go radio silent, I hope yall understand.

I had a mentor figure in my life 3 years my senior who ctbed 2.5 years ago. He always used to say "patience is a fool's game". I'll see you soon, six.

weed :)
I want a portion of that sodium nitrite.
 
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Ruma

Ruma

Experienced
Dec 26, 2021
250
Good luck & Goodbye,may you find peace x
 
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ā€¦
Jul 10, 2023
2,199
I hope you find peace, safe travels. ā¤ļø
 
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thebookofdisquiet

thebookofdisquiet

Member
Jul 21, 2023
87
Good luck!! Wishing you serenity and relief!
 
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ChesterCopperpot

ChesterCopperpot

disheveled cuss
Jul 11, 2023
17
hey dude good luck. i hope you find the peace and closure you need. life can feel like you're stuck in a liminal place. i don't personally subscribe in another side after this, but i do hope you find what you're looking for and get to where you're going.
 
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Erik.t.f

Experienced
Jun 1, 2023
210
Wishing you peace
 
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just_so_done

Experienced
Apr 16, 2023
258
I hope you have a peaceful journey šŸ–¤
 
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Raven2

Raven2

Specialist
Dec 1, 2022
350
I am sorry that life has brought you to this point. I hope you find peace
 
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weedico

weedico

six's herald
Jun 8, 2023
30
Got home safe, spending time with family. Seeing all your kind words is amazing, thank you so much.

T-5:15 hours
might have to move T+0, originally was planning for it to be midnight but likely gonna be closer to 1am
 
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020x

020x

Suffering will end when the existence does.
Jul 6, 2023
249
Got home safe, spending time with family. Seeing all your kind words is amazing, thank you so much.

T-5:15 hours
might have to move T+0, originally was planning for it to be midnight but likely gonna be closer to 1am
I hope your courage will make it a peaceful journey in your last moments. Wishing the best time with your family as well! Goodluck
 
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Minus

Minus

Quite Tired
Jun 22, 2023
6
Safe travels, I hope you find peace
 
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riamu

riamu

walking waste of bandages
Jan 5, 2023
45
sorry it had to come to this point, but i hope whatever is on the other side is better than what's here <3
 
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BornHated

BornHated

God may judge, but his sins outnumber your own.
Nov 19, 2022
96
I hope everything goes smoothly. Honestly, being in the car alone was one of my few comfort moments in a day back then. If I had my own car I think I'd go the same way.
May you be free from pain.
 
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