goodbye thread. thank you all so much.

[Cant Maintain]

It's probably around that time... been taking meto consistently thought the day. I've just taken pain meds, and shortly 3 meto will follow. then 15 minutes later a Xanax, with roughly 80-120mg of propanol..antacid..then 30 minutes of waiting while I mix sn drinks.
I suppose if I don't get back to you all within a week, assume that it took.
I just want to say thank you to all of the wonderful people who kept me here even though I was reeling from lots of loss last year. My friends, someone I loved, my mobility. All poof. You've been kind enough to open your hearts to me. I've loved sharing, and listening to your histories, your problems, your wins in this very. very. difficult life. I'm blessed to have so many likeminded, pro choice, folk around me.
bah... the alarm for the meto.
anyway, I'll keep this short.
You all are an incredible force in this life. Even if you feel cursed to be here, in some way, by being here, by being pro choice and talking about difficult subjects. You all are making changes for the better, allowing a safe space for people to congregate and leave if they choose, or to let them know there is no shame in not going through.

Anyway, I'll stop for now. but remember.

If no one has told you "I love you" today. I love you.
And if there is an afterlife, I hope to see you at the gates at the time of your choosing.

Lovingly yours from this life to the next,
Cant Maintain

 

[hʚll]

peace<3

 

[logan]

Thank you for your kind words.
It is hard to imagine that you want to leave us now.

If you change your mind - we are here for you!

 

[Fin]

I hope you find the peace and closure that you deserve. Thank you for your company and unconditional support during these hard last few months. Farewell, friend, and may we find each other again in a better place soon!

 

[it's_all_a_game]

RIP, friend. Hope you find eternal peace.

 

[Cant Maintain]

god. y'all...<3
Im not gonna lie. I'm very nervous.

 

[logan]

If you are not quite sure, wait - you cannot undo this step.

 

[Sittichmutter]

It's probably around that time... been taking meto consistently thought the day. I've just taken pain meds, and shortly 3 meto will follow. then 15 minutes later a Xanax, with roughly 80-120mg of propanol..antacid..then 30 minutes of waiting while I mix sn drinks.
I suppose if I don't get back to you all within a week, assume that it took.
I just want to say thank you to all of the wonderful people who kept me here even though I was reeling from lots of loss last year. My friends, someone I loved, my mobility. All poof. You've been kind enough to open your hearts to me. I've loved sharing, and listening to your histories, your problems, your wins in this very. very. difficult life. I'm blessed to have so many likeminded, pro choice, folk around me.
bah... the alarm for the meto.
anyway, I'll keep this short.
You all are an incredible force in this life. Even if you feel cursed to be here, in some way, by being here, by being pro choice and talking about difficult subjects. You all are making changes for the better, allowing a safe space for people to congregate and leave if they choose, or to let them know there is no shame in not going through.

Anyway, I'll stop for now. but remember.

If no one has told you "I love you" today. I love you.
And if there is an afterlife, I hope to see you at the gates at the time of your choosing.

Lovingly yours from this life to the next,
Cant Maintain

You are so full of love. Are you sure now os the right moment? I hope you are well.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

If you are sure that this is your time, then I wish you peace. I know it can't be easy to do this, but hang on, your freedom awaits

 

[phoenixx]

Goodbye friend, I wish you all the best. I hope you're able to find peace

 

[Cant Maintain]

I hope you find the peace and closure that you deserve. Thank you for your company and unconditional support during these hard last few months. Farewell, friend, and may we find each other again in a better place soon!

I wish you peace in yours as well friend. It's been good talking to you there very long few months.

 

[aminend]

I hope u see a better world on the other side

 

[SadJessu]

If you're nervous remember that it's always ok to wait. Blessings to you in whatever you decide, reading your post tells me that you have a very beautiful spirit, thank you for sharing it with us.

 

[whywere]

Love and peace to you and like @SadJessu so eloquently said it is ok to wait. You are a awesome soul!
Walter

 

[Meditation guide]

Thank you for being a warm loving presence in chat. I hope you find peace. You will be missed.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Keto]

Wish you peace

 

[Dead Meat]

I wish you a very comfortable and pleasant journey and have everlasting peace and serenity

 

[ItsTimeToExit]

It's sad that you're leaving us but happy that you will find peace.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I wish you peaceful transition, We love you too <3

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I hope you find peace

 

[willshe777]

Sending you peace love and warmth as you go on your journey. Thank you for sharing. Safe travels.

 

[NoLightRemains]

I'm a friend of Cant Maintain and want to confirm that they did indeed successfully CTB.

I don't have explicit details, but I know there was a plea for help on Facebook later Wednesday morning before the body was found the next day.
It does hurt knowing there was some regret at the end, but the fact my friend is finally at peace does bring some comfort.

I'm more of a lurker here, but Cant Maintain and I would talk about this place frequently. Thank you so much for being a welcoming place where hurt souls can find some sense of community in a world that doesn't understand why suicide is the only choice for some people.

Thank you for being here for my friend

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't have explicit details, but I know there was a plea for help on Facebook later Wednesday morning before the body was found the next day.

As I recall she was in the chat room the next day.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

If you're really gone, I wish you safe travels. And if you're still with us, I hope you're okay

 

[DarkNearDeath]

Safe travels

 

[NoLightRemains]

As I recall she was in the chat room the next day.

I can't make sense of the timeline myself with my limited information, but regardless, she's no longer suffering.