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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
Hi everyone,

I write as I take my 3rd pill of meto (10mgx3). I'm on my 15th hour of fasting and I've started microdosing Rivotril.
My plan Is tò drink SN and presumably ctb today via SN from 2 to 3 pm (GMT+1).

I'm sorry tò whoever Will experience this excruciating pain on themselves but I Just can't do this anymore.
I'm going to update as much as I can.
Bye
- fra
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Godspeed.
 
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whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,042
So much love, peace, and ALWAYS around if anything changes.

Walter
 
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cciro

cciro

girl (in development)
May 16, 2025
57
Good luck. I hope everything goes well for you.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,519
good luck 🍀 and a smooth transition 🕊️
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,422
Good luck! I hope you find peace!
 
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TheVanishingPoint

TheVanishingPoint

Experienced
May 20, 2025
234
Godspeed
 
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iwishiwasntborn

iwishiwasntborn

Member
May 21, 2025
15
good luck. i hope you find peace :)
 
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Kanoh

Student
Dec 31, 2024
116
I always feel both very sad when I see goodbye threads and at the same time I'm envious of someone who mustered the courage to go through what we all wish we could do right now as well. I hope it will be as little unpleasant and quick for you as possible. We're with you, you're not alone.
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
460
🫂
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
937
Goodbye. 🫂 Good luck.
 
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black money boys

black money boys

80% BAN CREDITS
Apr 18, 2025
518
hope all goes well
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
811
Have a nice trip, may everything work out. Farewell! I will follow you soon 🫶
 
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GeminiButter

Member
Apr 26, 2025
80
I am so sorry it's come to this. I am sending you lots of love 💐❤️
 
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bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Seems like you've been here for half a decade. Sad to see you go, but I understand.i wish you farewell,be at peace.
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
Pain, even physical pain, should not be unbearable (Brufen or Paracetamol), and as for mental pain (I'm thinking of SI, which is unfortunately usually expressed in the SN method), there are Benzodiazepines and Propranolol that could alleviate it to some extent. I wish you peace, whatever you decide to do.
 
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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
Hi guys, I was Just wondering what would be the best option.
I have to wait to be alone for more than 4-5 hours, otherwise today would be just one to (possibly) two hours alone.
Is It best to wait to have One full night alone or try attempting today?
 
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CynicalCyanide

Member
Apr 12, 2025
49
Hi guys, I was Just wondering what would be the best option.
I have to wait to be alone for more than 4-5 hours, otherwise today would be just one to (possibly) two hours alone.
Is It best to wait to have One full night alone or try attempting today?
I won't decide for you but if I'm doing it I would take the sure way to succeed. I dont want to live with a failed attempt
 
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2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,370
Hi guys, I was Just wondering what would be the best option.
I have to wait to be alone for more than 4-5 hours, otherwise today would be just one to (possibly) two hours alone.
Is It best to wait to have One full night alone or try attempting today?
I would wait, personally. There are many consequences to being found. But obviously such a big decision is only yours to make.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
Sorry it has come to this for you, I wish you all the best. As for me, timing is an important factor, I wouldn't want to risk it. Whichever way you decide, sending love.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,511
I hope that you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
Hi everyone, I decided to try another day tò have a full 8-9 hours as recommended by other members here.
I'll update everything as I can.
 
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lonesomedefeat

lonesomedefeat

I'll fail and lose this fight
Sep 17, 2024
30
I hope all goes well for you, no matter when you do it. Best wishes <3
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Best wishes in your journey 🤍 I hope you find the peace you're looking for
 
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opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,195
Hi everyone, I decided to try another day tò have a full 8-9 hours as recommended by other members here.
I'll update everything as I can.
i'm so glad others came in and said this. I would have said the same thing had I been awake. not being found is important. we're here for you
 
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derekWest

Experienced
Feb 1, 2025
268
Hi everyone,

I write as I take my 3rd pill of meto (10mgx3). I'm on my 15th hour of fasting and I've started microdosing Rivotril.
My plan Is tò drink SN and presumably ctb today via SN from 2 to 3 pm (GMT+1).

I'm sorry tò whoever Will experience this excruciating pain on themselves but I Just can't do this anymore.
I'm going to update as much as I can.
Bye
- fra
Does metoclopramide produce side effect on you ? Because, when I 1st attempt sn ctb, I had some side effect : a lot of anxiety....

Sorry for you to take a decision to ctb. Hope you will find peace.
 
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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
About to take SN in a few minutes. Goodbye everyone
 
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Makoto

Makoto

Look into my eyes and tell me who I really am
Jun 20, 2024
63
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,210
I hope your transition is smooth and fast and you find the peace that you have been looking for. 🫂🕊️
 
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