I am drunk now. Just visited a sad forum where people are talking about meds how meds are helping them to cope with reality (it is like having a 200lbs weight on my shoulders from what they say), it is comforting to read your message OP. It makes me feel calm, makes me cry (but cry of joy). I love you even if I don't know you but I have no one that thinks like me that I can talk to in real life.
I want to die, I hope it will happen soon, working on it. I feel peace reading your farewell.
I hope you find peace, I hope it is painless, I hope to join you.